Hey /r nofap just wanted to give some people starting out on their 90 day journey a bit about what I learnt while on mine.
ເລີ່ມຕົ້ນ
- The first 10 or 20 days were during exams and I felt angry, lonely, and severely anxious at times and I wanted nothing more than to give in and feel that momentary escape.
-The thought that kept me from relapsing this time was actually something I had read on reddit in the context of someone who had smoked weed their whole life and was into their 60s or 70s. They mentioned that their life wasn’t bad–they had been quite content but in the back of their mind there was always the thought that their life could have been different if they hadn’t smoked. Not better-not worse, but somehow different and that they had maybe missed out on something.
- This really stuck with me because I have always like I was very content in life but the thought that I could get into my 60s or 70s and just wonder what life would have been like had PMO not been a part of it almost gave me chills.
- There were probably 3 months or more of relapses before the 90 day streak. I would get to day 21 or 12 and I would have a night where I would be sitting at home and feel like I was missing out on a party the world was throwing (not really sure how to describe this feeling but I’m sure many of you can relate–it’s like loneliness, anxiety, and just wanting something to be different or better that seems out of your control).
- I think the mindset that I had to get into was that I wanted life to be authentic. If I was going to feel terrible at least it would be authentic terribleness that wasn’t altered by PMO. I didn’t want to be that 60 year old looking back…
- I almost failed 2 or 3 times that came really close during the streak and would flash through triggering images almost weekly. The desire never goes away you just can’t give in.
GIRLS
- ເມື່ອບໍ່ດົນມານີ້ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າມີແຟນແລ້ວແລະກ່ອນ ໜ້າ ນີ້ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າມີຄວາມສົງໄສກ່ຽວກັບບັນດາປະເທດມະຫາ ອຳ ນາດທັງ ໝົດ, ອາບນ້ ຳ ເຢັນ, ການສະມາທິ,“ ອຳ ນາດກັບຜູ້ຍິງ,” PUA ສົນທະນາແລະອົງປະກອບອື່ນໆຂອງອະນຸ ກຳ ມະການນີ້ທີ່ບໍ່ໄດ້ສົນໃຈຂ້ອຍຫຼາຍ. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຄິດວ່າມີຫຼາຍຂອງການໂອ້ອວດ subtle ເປັນໄປສຸດແລະບໍ່ໄດ້ກໍ່ເຂົ້າໄປໃນ nofap ກັບບັນຫາແຟນໃນໃຈ. ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ແນ່ໃຈວ່າຂ້ອຍມີຄຸນລັກສະນະການປ່ຽນແປງດັ່ງທີ່ຄວາມ ໝັ້ນ ໃຈເພີ່ມຂື້ນຫຼືມີສິ່ງໃດທີ່ແຕກຕ່າງກັນແຕ່ວ່າຄວາມຮັບຮູ້ຂອງຂ້ອຍໄດ້ປ່ຽນຈາກການມີເພດ ສຳ ພັນກັບແມ່ຍິງໃຫ້ເຫັນວ່າເຂົາເຈົ້າມີຄວາມ ສຳ ພັນທີ່ແທ້ຈິງ (ເບິ່ງຂ້າງເທິງ). ທ່ານ Phil-esque ອາດຟັງຄືວ່າບໍ່ດີແລະທ່ານ ໝໍ Phil-esque, ແຕ່ມັນ ໜ້າ ປະຫລາດໃຈຫລາຍເມື່ອທ່ານມັກຜູ້ຍິງເພາະວ່າທ່ານຮູ້ສຶກແນວໃດເມື່ອທ່ານຢູ່ອ້ອມຮອບນາງຫລາຍກວ່າສິ່ງທີ່ທ່ານຄິດວ່າລາວຈະເບິ່ງຄືວ່າບໍ່ມີເຄື່ອງນຸ່ງ. ມັນເປັນການປ່ຽນແປງທີ່ອ່ອນໂຍນແຕ່ມັນດີກ່ວາ "ປະເທດມະຫາ ອຳ ນາດ" ທີ່ມາພ້ອມກັບຄວາມ ໝັ້ນ ໃຈທີ່ເພີ່ມຂື້ນໃນຄວາມຄິດເຫັນຂອງຂ້ອຍ.
ຜົນໄດ້ຮັບ
- ໃນປັດຈຸບັນຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກກັງວົນໃຈຫລາຍເພາະວ່າບາງສ່ວນຂອງມັນອາດຈະເປັນເພາະວ່າໂຮງຮຽນໄດ້ເຮັດແລ້ວແຕ່ຂ້ອຍກໍ່ບໍ່ຮູ້ສຶກຄືກັບສິ່ງທີ່ຂ້ອຍໄດ້ກ່າວມາຂ້າງເທິງ. ກ່ອນທີ່ຂ້ອຍຈະຮູ້ສຶກໂດດດ່ຽວແລະຄືກັບວ່າຂ້ອຍຂາດສິ່ງໃດສິ່ງ ໜຶ່ງ ແຕ່ຕອນນີ້ລັກສະນະຂອງຄວາມເພິ່ງພໍໃຈຂອງຂ້ອຍໄດ້ປ່ຽນໄປແລ້ວ. PMO ສະເຫມີໃຫ້ທ່ານໄລ່ຕາມການອິດເມື່ອຍທີ່ຍິ່ງໃຫຍ່ກວ່ານີ້ - ຍິງທີ່ງາມກວ່າ, ມີຮູບການທີ່ດີກວ່າ, ບາງສິ່ງບາງຢ່າງທີ່ແຕກຕ່າງຈາກສິ່ງທີ່ທ່ານໄດ້ເຫັນມາກ່ອນ. ຊີວິດຂອງຂ້ອຍບໍ່ສົມບູນໃນຕອນນີ້ແຕ່ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ຮູ້ສຶກວ່າຂ້ອຍ ກຳ ລັງຈັບຫາສິ່ງທີ່ຂ້ອຍບໍ່ສາມາດໄປຫາໄດ້ອີກຕໍ່ໄປ. ມັນຍາກທີ່ຈະອະທິບາຍແຕ່ຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກວ່າ PMO ບໍ່ມີຂີດ ຈຳ ກັດໃນສິ່ງທີ່ເຈົ້າ ກຳ ລັງໄລ່ຕາມ. ດຽວນີ້ຂ້ອຍຮູ້ສຶກວ່າຂ້ອຍຍັງໄລ່ຕາມເປົ້າ ໝາຍ ຂອງຂ້ອຍຢູ່, ແຕ່ຂ້ອຍມີຄວາມສຸກຖ້າຂ້ອຍສາມາດເຮັດໄດ້ດີທີ່ສຸດເທົ່າທີ່ຂ້ອຍຈະສາມາດບັນລຸໄດ້ໃກ້ຊິດກັບພວກເຂົາເທົ່າທີ່ຂ້ອຍສາມາດເຮັດໄດ້. ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຍັງບໍ່ສາມາດເຂົ້າເຖິງພວກເຂົາແຕ່ຂ້າພະເຈົ້າຮູ້ສຶກວ່າມີສິ່ງທີ່ ໜ້າ ເພີດເພີນແທ້ໆໃນການກະ ທຳ ທີ່ໄປເຖິງທີ່ບໍ່ເຄີຍມີມາກ່ອນ.
Thanks! and good luck on your journey!
TL;DR – the thought of looking back wondering what life w/out fapping would have been helped me get 90 day streak. Different way of relating to girls. Not reaching for goals beyond my reach, learning to appreciate the effort in reaching for goals.
LINK - 90 ວັນ! ຫລາຍຈຸດ
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