Tau 28 – Whakamutu i te Tarukino, te Tabako, te Waipiro, te Porn & te puremu, YouTube

Nō reira, koinei taku pou tuatahi, nō te rā nei ahau i mōhio ai mō tēnei rōpū.
Kua:
128 ngā rā kāore he tarukino, he hikareti me te waipiro
38 ngā rā kāore he PMO
28 ngā rā kāore he YouTube.

Nō reira, he tāne ahau e 28 tau te pakeke. Kua mahi ahau i ngā mea katoa kua whakarārangihia mai i te 15 o oku tau, ko ētahi pēnei i te PMO, YouTube, te momi hikareti me te inu waipiro i tīmata wawe atu.
Kua whakamahia e au ētahi atu tarukino i roto i tōku ao, engari kāore anō kia waranga ki ētahi atu tarukino, engari ko ēnei mahi tuku dopamine tonu te mea i aro nui ai tōku ao.
Tata ki te waru marama ki muri, i tino pāngia ahau e te pouri, ā, i kite ahau e hiahia ana ahau ki te whakarerekē i ahau. Kāore i tino mōhio me pēhea te mahi i tēnā, engari ko te mea tuatahi i mahia e au ko te mutu te kōrero ki aku hoa katoa. I kī atu ahau ki a au anō kāore au e whakaaetia kia kōrero ki tētahi hoa kia kitea rā anō e au he mahi. Āe, i roa ake te rapu mahi i te wā i whakaritea mō te 1-2 marama, nō reira i muri i tētahi wā, ka mea mai aku hoa "Āe, he aha?" I kī noa atu ahau kei te pāngia ahau e ētahi raruraru whaiaro, ā, me whai wāhi ahau. I mōhio ahau me tīmata te whakarerekētanga me whai wāhi ahau, ā, kāore e taea e au te noho tahi me ōku mātua, nō reira ko tētahi o ngā mea tuatahi i mahia e au ko te kimi i tētahi whare iti, ka neke atu. I tōku ake kāinga, ka tīmata ahau ki te tino pārekareka ki te herekoretanga, ā, i te nuinga o te wā ka momi noa ahau i te tarukino me te eke pahikara i waenga i a YouTube, PMO me ngā kēmu ataata. Ka mahi tonu ahau i ētahi mea 'whai hua' engari he pono 90% o tōku wā i whakapaua ki te mahi i ngā mahi kua whakahuatia ake nei.
E rua marama i muri i taku noho mokemoke, i whakakahoretia ahau mō tētahi mahi, ā, i paahitia e au te uiuinga tuarua, ā, i whakaaro ahau ka riro mai i ahau. I taua pō, inu noa iho ahau i ahau anō kia moe. I te aonga ake ka puta ake he whakaaro pai ki ahau kia mutu te mahi tarukino, te paaka me te waipiro mō tētahi wā. Kotahi te marama i pahemo, ka pahemo ngā tau hou, kātahi ka rua, ka toru ngā marama i pahemo. I tino whakaaro ahau kua hinga i ahau ēnei waranga, ā, kāore i tino uaua. Kāore tonu ahau i tino noho tahi me aku hoa tawhito nā te mea ko te momi tarukino me te noho humarie, te inu rānei i ngā wiki mutunga te pūtake o tō mātou whakahoahoa, kāore noa i hiahia ki te mahi i tēnā i muri mai, nō reira i ahua rere atu ahau.
Ko te mea kāore au i mōhio i taua wā ko taku whakawhiti noa i ngā waranga tinana ki te PMO me YouTube. I hokona e au he mīhini whakaipoipo Lovense 200 euro. Nō reira, 38 ngā rā ki muri ka mōhio ahau kei te pau katoa tōku wā me tōku kaha i te PMO, ā, me mutu taku mahi, nō reira ka mutu taku mahi. Kātahi ka 10 ngā rā i muri mai ka mōhio ahau kei te whakapau noa ahau i te 40+ hāora ia wiki ki YouTube, nō reira me mutu anō hoki tēnā kia ora ai te oranga e hiahia ana ahau ki te ora.
Ko te tīmatanga tēnā o te wero tūturu. Āe, i whiua e tōku roro ētahi poma kino hei ārahi i ahau ki te PMO, ki te mātaki rānei i ētahi YouTube. Mai i ngā hiahia tino kaha, ki ngā pikitia oraora, ki ngā moemoeā mō te moepuku, te panuku rānei i ngā rīra YouTube, ngā pō kore moe, ngā wiki roa o te mamae o te upoko. Ko te nuinga o ngā mea ka taea e ia te mahi, i mahia e ia. Ehara i te mea ngāwari te ātete i ēnā mea katoa, engari i kī atu ahau ki a au anō me mahi noa i tēnei rā, kaua e manukanuka mō āpōpō, kaua e mahi PMO, YouTube rānei mō tēnei rā.

Āe, mō ngā rā 10 kua pahure ake nei, kua tino mārama taku hinengaro, ina kī atu ahau ki a au anō kia mahi i tētahi mea, ka mahia e au ahakoa kāore au e hiahia ki te mahi. Kāore he mahi moumou taima i a au (Kāore he pāpāho pāpori pēnei i a Instagram, i a Tiktok rānei), ina ngenge ahau, ā, e hiahia ana ki te okioki, ka whakatangihia e au he pukapuka oro, ka pānui pukapuka, ka takoto noa i runga i taku moenga/tūru ka titiro ki waho, ki te tuanui rānei, ka mātaki rānei i a Netflix, i ētahi atu raupapa pouaka whakaata rānei. E hiahia ana ahau ki te whakaiti i te maha o ngā raupapa pouaka whakaata ka mātakihia e au, engari ka mahia e au i muri tata mai i te 90 rā te roa mō PMO me YouTube.
Heoi anō, e hiahia ana ahau ki te whakapuaki atu he mea pea tēnei, he māmā ake te whakahaere i ōku kare ā-roto, he nui ake tōku pārekareka ki te ao, he hohonu ake te hononga ki te tangata, he maha atu ngā mea ka taea e au te mahi i roto i te rā, me ērā atu mea anō hoki.
Nō nā tata nei i tutuki i ahau tētahi rekoata hou i a au e oma ana, i mahi i ētahi kaupapa hei whiwhi moni, ā, i tuku tono mahi maha atu anō hoki i ia rā (kāore i te kino rawa ngā whakakorenga), i tīmata ahau ki te tuhi pukapuka (38 whārangi noa iho tae noa mai ki tēnei wā, engari he mea whakamiharo), kei te mahi au i ētahi atu mahi auaha e kitea ana e au he tino ngahau, he tino whakahihiri hoki.

Me kōrero anō hoki ahau i haere ahau ki tētahi kaiwhakaora hinengaro mō ngā wāhanga e ono, ā, i kōrero mai rātou mō te ACT me te 'Choice Point', ā, he tino āwhina ā-kore. Kāore au i kōrero ki taku kaiwhakaora hinengaro mō te whakamutu i te tarukino, te tupeka me te waipiro tae noa ki te wāhanga whakamutunga, e rua marama ki muri. Ā, i mutu taku mahi i ngā wāhanga e rua i muri i te wāhanga whakamutunga. Engari i homai e ia he taputapu tino āwhina, nō reira ka tino taunaki ahau kia utua te kaiwhakaora hinengaro utu nui me te tiki āwhina. Ki taku whakaaro, ko ngā kaiwhakaora hinengaro iti ake te utu e "tātari ana i a koe" me te kōrero noa atu mō ō raruraru ki a rātou, kāore i te tino āwhina.

Heoi anō, koinā kē. Ko tāku tumanako ka haere tonu tēnei, ā, kāore rawa ahau e hiahia ki te hoki ki tōku ao tawhito o te kohu roro tonu, te manukanuka, me te kore e anga ki hea i te ao, me te karo hoki i te whakaaro ki aua mea mā te totohu i ahau ki te dopamine ngāwari rawa atu ka taea e au te tiki.
Kia ora ahau! Ā, kia ora anō hoki te hunga katoa e whai ana i tēnei haerenga whakapai ake i a koe anō. E mōhio ana ahau ehara i te mea ngāwari, ā, e mōhio ana ahau kei te ngana tonu tō roro me tō tinana ki te whakararu i ō mahi. Kāore āku tohutohu i tua atu i te arotahi ki tēnei rā, ki te kore koe e mirimiri i tēnei rā, he wikitoria nui tēnā. Ko āpōpō te āpōpō. Ko te whawhai anake me toa koe ko tēnei wā tonu, ā, KA TAEA e koe te toa!

Kia ora tātou katoa :)

By Pāma Pūngāwerewere  

 

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