I’m a better person today than I was a year ago. I’ve developed the ability to enjoy life in a far deeper and meaningful way than I could have imagined when I started this journey.
When I began I was doing nofap just because this sounded like a fun challenge. I started just as a kind of internet joke. I soon learned how dependant I had become on pornography and how it made me objectify women. I used to think of women as a way to get what I wanted.
I’ve learned though that what I wanted — what I really wanted — was to connect with someone. Fapping prevented any kind of connection because you just change the connection when the image wasn’t new or when you wanted to increase the eroticism. This kind of thinking is dangerous to human beings. We cannot possibly exist in a world where people become disposible sources of entertainment and where sex is nothing but a superficial arousal with a stranger.
Strangers today do not turn me on like they used to and that’s because I’m very content with the way things are now, in this world and in this time.