90 Days – Competence turns into confidence

Hey Guys I just wanted to give you an update after 90 days of NoFap.

I always thought I was competent. And I was. But I never felt confident. And confidence is a feeling. I was competent, I knew I was competent. But there is a big difference between the two.

NoFap has helped me achieve latter, while recognizing the former. No longer am I stuck in my competence, thinking of well I could do things. Now, I do them.

See a beautiful woman, I smile. I talk, we make love. The day goes on.

I am forced to be something. I can’t wait for things to happen. There are here already happening. I can’t sit behind my computer wasting days, stealing my bodies desires to images and videos. And I knew before NoFap, I knew my desires.

The ones that was sexual. And once I set aside those sexual desires, and replace them with other physical, emotional, spiritual and creative desires, I began to flourish.

Life isn’t different, it’s reinforced. I am reinforced. The first few days were difficult, but difficulty wanes, and in its place complacency. I recognized that, and began to work very hard on eliminating that.

Every aspect of my life I wanted to change, I sought practical, useful knowledge in those areas. Finding mentors in those areas. And I got to work and work hard. I endeavored to change myself.

Finding workout partners that shared the same love of physical awareness, and nutrition. Finding co-producers, and artist to expressively co-create and learn from each other’s artistic endeavors. Using my bosses as an instrument to teach me business acuity, and art of making a deal. Recognizing my lover as part of me, that shares in me. And finding the guru in everyone I meet.

There is a Zen saying, “Before Enlightenment chop wood carry water, after Enlightenment, chop wood carry water.”

Do it for yourself.

LINK – My 90 day, roleplay.