I can honestly say I am not the same person I was when I began this challenge. I have absolute and complete mastery over myself, my thoughts, my actions. I am stronger and in better shape then ever in my life. I no longer need a woman in my life to make me happy, I make myself happy. My relationship with my friends and family is great, I truly value this handful of people that I consider close. I no longer get emotional over trivial things, or anything actually. I no longer feel depressed for no particular reason (a thing that used to happen a lot when I was a regular fapper). I can talk to women, look them in the eye, and not give a fuck. I feel everything, more deeply, more intensely. I have only now, started to live.
I began this challenge in september of 2012. I set my mind to it and managed a pretty impressive streak of 86 days. I was feeling great and invincible, and in my cockiness, my brain tricked me, and I relapsed.
I felt like shit. I entered a deep depression, and this feeling of “all this effort was for nothing” filled my very soul. But, after about a week of self pity and 2-3 faps a day, I said enough is enough, and decided to start over again.
My allies were discipline, hope, and faith. The battle was fought a day at a time. I had emotional highs and lows, my brain suffered from the process of rewiring itself, and I along with it. I had one of the longest flatlines of my life. Failing to get laid several times didn’t help at all. I felt on the brink of a collapse. But I never gave up.
After the storm came the calm. I realized that it’s always darkest before the dawn. I now have a slow, steady confidence, pouring out from within. I have the inner feeling that anything I decide to do, I can accomplish. It is truly amazing.
This is no easy feat. I realized that even with just one relapse, it took me half a year to let go of my addiction, which even then is still pretty fast. More than anything, I feel really proud of myself. I reccomend anyone who is doubting whether or not they should begin the nofap challenge, to start it immediately. Your life will change forever.
And for those of you who are already on the path, I say this. Have faith in yourself. You were born to be a success, not a failure. There was never anyone destined to fail in life. Anything you decide to do is possible, if you back it up with persistence and faith.
You only fall to get up again, the only way to grow and learn is by making mistakes. If I could do it, so can you.
And if things aren’t going well for you, and you are about to surrender to your desires, or if you allowed your addicted brain to trick you into relapsing, I would like to quote the american author Harriet Beecher Stowe: “When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.” All successful men in history faced hardship, and temporary defeat. But these men decided, despite their defeat, to try, just one more time.
I wish you all the best.
LINK – The 90 day quest