Firstly, let me just say: Holy shit! I feel like a new person.
I’ve noticed the following changes in me, since starting nofap. Most of these I started to feel a few weeks in, and have gotten stronger over time.
Social anxiety: I used to feel anxious and uncomfortable in common situations, like having to talk to someone to order a coffee, or asking an employee for my size of clothing. That anxiety is completely gone! Now, I actually just enjoy interacting with other people in these situations.
Small talk with cashiers: I used to be so anxious, that I didn’t even dream about making small talk with a cashier. Now, I feel so much at ease, I do this without even thinking about it.
Social Interactions: I think this also relates to my loss of anxiety. Whereas for the past 20 or so years of my life, I would always shy away from having to talk to anyone, unless I already knew them well, I now find myself eager to talk to people I only casually know (especially women ;).
Eye contact: I make eye contact like a beast now.
Confidence: In general, I feel more confident than I’ve ever felt before, and it feels amazing. Especially having lived for so long feeling anxious, extremely self-conscious, and always second-guessing myself.
Wit: I no longer fumble to think of a response when someone says something to me, or lightly ribs on me. I feel like I’m funnier than I’ve ever been.
Honestly, I feel like I had been living in a fog for most of my life. I feel like just being alive and conscious is more enjoyable than it used to be.
For a few years now, I have been getting occasional bouts of depression, where I feel basically like everything is meaningless, and I’m never going to be successful in life. I still get these from time to time (maybe 3 times a month for a day). But, overall, I do feel much, much better than I used to.
Second Final Note
The most infuriating part of this journey, is that my religious mum was right when she told me masturbation was bad. Ugh.