Age 15 – I don’t think I’ve ever enjoyed my life more.

I’ve gotten into porn when I was in the 6th grade but it never really became a problem until I was 14. This is when I started to masturbate multiple times every day.

It would become a habit when I wake up, come home from school, before I go to bed, or whenever I didn’t want to deal with a problem I had. When I started High School, I didn’t know anybody and I didn’t interact with anybody. This caused me to have a terrible year and I blame myself and masturbation for not wanting to be social. I looked a girls like they were an object of desire and was too shy to talk to anybody. I’ve never had a girlfriend, had a first kiss.

I’ve had female friends, but never had the courage to ask any of them out even if it would have been a guaranteed yes from them. When I reached sophomore year, I told myself that I would make big changes to my life and things have been turning out much better for me. In the beginning, nothing had really changed but I wanted to make things better for myself. I still had a few friends that I had before, but I didn’t want to be known with the social outcasts.

I had read about /r/NoFap but never really gave it much of a consideration because why should I give up something that I enjoyed and looked forward to everyday. During the new year I realized my thinking was the same as a drug addict. They could refuse to believe that what they are doing is having a negative impact on their life or even if they did accept it, they wouldn’t quit because it gives them a temporary pleasure.

I decided to take the NoFap challenge do to me hearing a lot of positive outcomes of it so I decided to make it a New Year resolution since it was close to the end of the year. Obviously, since I had just completed my first full month today. I had a few many relapses.

Your thousand mile journey starts with a single step. You will fall down and life will hit you with everything that it has at you. Just because you fail doesn’t mean you must give up. I had that attitude after I relapsed on my first day. I could have easily given up saying that this wasn’t for me, but I didn’t because I wanted things to get better and I knew that I was a addict of porn. I wanted change and change I received.


If you were to tell me all the changes that would appear in my life over the journey within almost four months, I would have never believed it at all.

  • I have a lot more energy and I have made a lot more friends over the months. I have been told that I’m outgoing and positive, something that I have never have been told.
  • One of my friends told me to join the tennis team with him. I have never played tennis or let alone even join a sport. I was determined to bring changes to my life and I joined with him and have made many more friends on the team and had even made varsity which is something that I am still in shock over.
  • I have been doing a lot better in school work and was recommended for two Advance Placement Classes.
  • The last change that I enjoy the most is that I had started to talk a lot more with of my only female friends who had turned into my best friend, and then later my girlfriend. I stopped viewing her as an object and treated her with a lot more respect and started to even be a bit more flirtatious with her and she started flirted back. Today, I celebrated my one month of nofap and we hung out today and I had the confidence to give her my first kiss.

I’m unfortunately moving across the country for my dads job and I believe that this could be a chance to restart the high school experience since I have confidence in myself and am wanting to enjoy my life. I don’t know if all of these changes had came from the lack of masturbation or if these changes would have just appeared no mater what outcome I had. I do believe though that if I continue these actions, my life will continually get better since I have more control over it.

Also I just want to say that this is a really positive community where anybody can join. We’re all in the same boat with out problems and if it wasn’t for /r/NoFap, I don’t think I would have stuck with this. I’ll try to be helping others out and everybody else keep doing what you’re doing.

LINK – I’m 15 and I just completed my first month. I don’t think I’ve ever enjoyed my life more.

by IamJustinT