I discovered porn when I was 12 years old, and by age 14 I was regularly watching porn and masturbating to it sometimes up to 6 times a day, but more regularly one or two times. I didn’t think when I was younger that it would have any effect on me, in fact I still think it’s a very natural urge that should be explored to a small extent.
However, after 4 or 5 years of daily porn consumption I found out one night that I had an issue when I was 19.
I brought a girl back to my room for the first time after we both had a couple of beers, things started to happen, clothes were thrown off….but I couldn’t get hard. No matter what I did, thought or tried, I could not get it up. I had no idea what happened, I was somewhat devastated and the girl was disappointed to say the least. She said “You’re broken.” But I honestly figured it was because of the alcohol, at least I hoped. Move along a few months and I finally got a steady relationship for the first time with someone who wasn’t religious.
After a couple of weeks we finally worked up to having sex, clothes off, intense kissing and all that, and yet I could not get hard. Keep in mind I was still watching porn regularly and hadn’t thought about it. Needless to say I was very disturbed. I questioned my sexuality, my mind was somewhat in shambles and I became depressed. I wasn’t able to please my girlfriend and I didn’t know why. I resorted to getting Viagra and reading anything I could to help my situation. After a couple of books, and hours of internet search, I came to the conclusion it was just my nerves. So my girlfriend and I tried again, and again and again and again and endlessly I failed. Thank god I found a girl who was incredibly supportive and thoughtful. I discussed it a lot with her, and even she was starting to be effected by it.
I thought, this can’t continue forever, and had no idea what to do. I found this subreddit, and geez it couldn’t come soon enough. I read all the stuff on here and many posts. I finally decided to start NoFap. It wasn’t until finding this subreddit that I realized I wasn’t even getting hard during fapping, or morning wood or having any sort of real sex drive. I began phasing out fapping and completely quit watching porn cold turkey. I can’t explain why but I had no trouble quitting porn, my desire for it really wasn’t even there any more, I was just doing it out of habit. I stopped watching porn at all, but could not quit fapping entirely.
I don’t mean to drag this out, but I haven’t watched porn for about 4 months now and my boner is back! I am now able to have sex whenever I want to, and get ridiculously horny just looking at my girl, my sex drive is back! And all of this happened with regular fapping, just no porn. I have never felt better in my life, and more secure with myself than I do now. I was in a really dark place when I failed to perform sexually, there is a lot of pressure on guys to perform. Now that I can perform at my leisure I feel a lot more comfortable and satisfied with my relationship.
The reboot time was about accurate, 120 days or so it took for me (even with regular fapping). I just wanted to encourage those with issues similar to mine that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and everyday you will be one day closer to being the person you want to be.
TL;DR: No porn. Big boner.
Stay strong bros.
LINK – To young guys with ED: It’s not masturbating, it’s porn.
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