Let me start off by saying one of my motivations for writing this is to motivate other members of the noFap community. Reading 90 day reports throughout my journey, especially in the beginning, and seeing the success that other people had gave me the desire to continue. I don’t think I would have made it this far if it wasn’t for this sub. So here’s my story…
I am a soon to be 21 year old, popular, good looking, and successful person. I am also a virgin and I have never kissed a girl. I wasn’t a chronic fapper but I did it every other day or so for a couple of years, enough to cause problems apparently. The reason I decided to quit was because I simply didn’t like the way I felt after masturbating. I felt annoyed and ashamed at myself for needing porn to get off and that I didn’t have any personal relationships with girls. I got pissed at myself for spending so much time watching porn instead of studying or hanging out with friends. I wasn’t the person I wanted to be then. So I changed.
Looking back, I had no idea how much PMO was holding me back. Today, my skin is the clearest it’s ever been in my life. I don’t feel tired waking up in the morning as much as I used to, even when I don’t get as much sleep. I eat healthier. I work out more. I don’t waste time watching porn for a five second sensation. I have a much stronger desire to be a better person.
But to me, the most important thing I’ve gained in the past 90 days is confidence in myself. I had always heard that people thought I was cool and that girls thought I was cute but in my heart of hearts I always doubted them. So I never took a risk to ask that girl out or to walk up and start a conversation with a kid in class. But now I feel like I can do things like this, or at the very least, try to do them. I still haven’t had sex or kissed a girl but this doesn’t bother me like it used to. I know that it’ll happen to me eventually because I’m confident in myself and I like who I am a whole lot more than I did 90 days ago. That’s the most important thing to me.
In conclusion, my experience with noFap has been some of the hardest days of my life. Resisting the urge to PMO isn’t an easy thing. But the past 90 days have also been some of the most rewarding and happiest days of my life. I strongly encourage everyone who’s thinking about committing to noFap to do it and all those that are currently doing it to stay strong. It’s worth it.