Age 20 – Masturbation is a pretty natural behavior, but porn clogs up your brain by super-stimulating it

So, I finally hit 90 days, here’s my full and honest report:

I’ve been fapping and watching porn for over 7 years. First time I came across porn was when I was 13, I found my brother’s hidden stash on our computer. I became aware of fapping after watching a video of a girl jacking off a guy. I’ve been having erections long before that but never associated an erection to sexuality, I didn’t knew anything about sex. Ok sure, I knew sex existed, I knew that men and women had different physiologies and that man and woman could have sexual intercourse, but I didn’t imagined masturbation was a thing.

After I saw that video, I added 1 + 1 in my mind and realized I could have “sex” with myself. First times I did it I was actually ashamed of doing it, and mostly afraid I got caught. Over time, porn and masturbation have became a routine.

I’ve had my first girlfriend and sexual interaction with another human being when I was 18. I found that it was hard (no pun intended) for me to maintain and erection with her. I didn’t associated that with my masturbation and porn habits. My vision of sexuality was totally distorted by porn.

At that time, long before I found out about this subreddit, I started abstaining from jacking off. I could go about a week or so without it. It definitely helped with the erectile disfunction issue.

I’m 20 now, and I’ve been single for the past one and half years. After I went to college, I lost most of my social connection with my high school friends. I’ve lost my girlfriend about that time too. Me, being the socially awkward guy that I am (actually diagnosed with social anxiety) found myself in a trap: I had no friends and I couldn’t make new ones because of my anxiety, I had a very hard time integrating my new group of peers. Since last April, around the time I’ve found this subreddit, I actually started taking anti-depressives, two months ago, I’ve tried to kill myself.

I was impressed with all the benefits people described, the so called “super-powers”. My longest streak before this one was about 45 days. Now, I finally hit 90. I’ve always went hard-mode, I’m the “all or nothing” kind of person.

In this 90 days, here’s what I’ve learned:

• There’s no such thing as “super-powers”. Nofap won’t change your life all by itself, but it will help you fix part of it that’s not right
• My acne didn’t cleared up, as so many people claim it would. There’s yet to be a study showing if there’s any correlation between both.
• I didn’t became an “alpha male”, I’m still the socially awkward guy I ever was and I don’t think it has anything to do with masturbation.
• Didn’t really experienced a flat line, there were days I woke up with a huge boner and felt really horny throwout the day, there were times I didn’t feel horny at all.
• Never had a wet dream.
• Your mileage varies a lot!

All this being said, I’m considering going soft-mode from now on and just fap If I ever feel the need to release. We, as humans are sexual beings, masturbation is a pretty natural behavior, as long it’s not an obsession. Porn, on the other hand, clogs up your brain by super-stimulating it with fake images of what sexuality is not.

TLDR: finally hit 90 days, always keep in mind that your mileage my vary!

LINK – [90 days report] My longest streak ever