I want to make this “short” and simple. I just want to give some back story and let you all know what happened. I am currently age 22. I started like most of you, found porn when I was 12 or 13 and have been hooked ever since. I would PMO daily at least once since about age 15. Around the age of 18 I had sex with several girls and that’s when I first started noticing ED.
And with ED came sexual performance anxiety. It was terrible. Even if I thought about the act of sex, my body would go into that ‘fight or flight’ response. Then i moved away to uni and things spiraled downhill. Most gain a freshman 15, I gained a freshman 50. Seriously I went from 235 to 286 in about 2 years. My self confidence was at an all time low, which in turn caused no relations with females. So I fully turned to porn as a crutch.
Everyday I would go to class, go back to my dorm or apartment and edge anywhere from 1 to 6 hours. I hit a dry spell for about 2 and a half years, zero sex. In that time I was tired of being fat and sloppy and I was able to lose 100 pounds! With that loss came self confidence like I’ve never seen. Then the girls started taking interest in me again. But I would never initiate because I knew I had an ED problem. So like most of us do I started searching on how to get rid of ED/SPA which then lead me to NoFap. As soon As I found this community I started the very next day and never looked back.
My first streak was 68 days. I can’t even explain all the benefits I gained from not PMO daily, you all know what they are so I won’t try to explain. But I will say the human body and mind is so fucking amazing the way it heals and repairs itself in many ways you wouldn’t think it could.
I used to think I was an asexual, dysfunctional, waste of human. That’s how bad my ED/SPA was. Then I did my first streak which lasted 68 days. Then I started by just glancing at images, images turned to videos, from there i started touching myself, and when the rest was history. But I didn’t beat myself up about the relapse because the benefits I felt were so unbelievable. Then I automatically hopped back on the next day and now I am currently on day 38. And on day 37 of my second streak I had successful sex. I don’t want to get too much into details for those of you that may trigger easily but just know you are on the right path my friend. This honestly and simply means the world to me because just a year ago I thought I would never have kids, never have sex again, and be forced to masturbate for the rest of my life. But I beat those thoughts out of my head and NoFap and this community help me get my life back
I love you guys and just know that what you’re doing is the right thing. Don’t relapse because it is simply not worth it. P is doing more harm than good. For those of you suffering ED, trust me as someone who has struggled with it for years, you will beat it if you stick with NoFap. Give your brain time to heal. The turn out is incredible and I feel amazing. I need some of you to share this amazing feeling with me. This is what life is about!!
Good luck fellas