I finally found a way to get rid of my porn addiction, PIED & OCD. I can say from myself that my porn addiction was the worst, it was not a nasty habit that I wanted to get rid of, it was my everyday companion, thinking 24/7 about porn and sex (but can´t actually have either because of PIED).
I probably started fapping at around 11-12 and now I am 22. For almost 2 years I thought I was gay because shemale & gay porns thrilled me the most, which of corse was nonsense since my whole life I never felt aroused by a man, neither did I have a crush on one at any point in my life.
So I came across this nofap thing 2 years ago and all the stuff perfectly described all my problems so I tried it over and over again but failed every time. I had streaks up to 70 days. But it was never a “clean” streak I still looked up to bikini pics on facebook, instagram or nsfw on 9gag and all this shit just to give me a little “rush” to make it easier.
Last year in october I got to know a new girl and the relationship (again) failed because of my PIED, although I managed to have sex with her three times (but almost died of viagra poisoning …) I tried to avoid every intimate situation with her because I knew without a shitload of viagra or cialis I cant get it up.
This was the point where I knew I cant live this way any more and if I fail this time I will simple commit suicide since there was no reason for me to be alive with this awful addiction.
So I observed my habits, my daily life, my triggers and the point where I just gave in and relapse. I really dont think that you can overcome a heavy addiction like mine which started as a child and literally programmed my sexuality to porn with motivation and discipline. I think of myself as very disciplinated, I work out since 16, eat very good, always had good grades, clean room, took care of myself etc., but this was different, I went on a streak and then it felt like a different person taking over and I watched porn and fapped and afterwards I felt like a werwolf coming back to normal sitting there thinking: “WTF did I just do?”.
So I knew I need to eliminate the source of my addiction which is porn. Where can I get porn ? Right in the internet! So I took a drastic step, sold my smartphone which I always thought I need so much. Thats bullshit this device is a killer for your social life and your energy level, just looking at this screen all the fucking time doing random useless stuff. The next step was to limit my internet usage so I talked to my internet provider and the have a “child security setting” where you can limit the time and amount of internet usage. I limited to 30 minutes per day, saving it with a password that I threw away afterwards.
So this 30 minutes a day I use exactly for: university & mails and reading some news. Trust me its the best fucking thing I ever did. No more facebook, instagram & whatsapp checking all the time although you know there is nothing new and interesting. No more relapsing to nasty porn since I have so much stuff to do in this 30 minutes that I dont get bored and click around random sites.
I am thousand times more productive then before and although I always thought “come on we live in 2014 internet is the world and so important” I just dont need it.
If you have troubels with relapsing give it a try, you cant fight an addiction with the source of your addiction right in front of you 24/7. An alcoholic can never get sober with a fridge full of beer and vodka neither can a porn addict who is hanging around the internet all the time.
LINK – The internet is your enemy (PIED, OCD, hardcore porn addiction success story)
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