Here’s my story in a nutshell. I’m a 23 year old male in good physical condition. I started PMOing with high speed internet at the age of 15. I quickly escalated from normal porn to bukkake porn, transgender porn, femdom porn, incest, etc… I didn’t realize how much I was hurting myself. It wasn’t until I lost my virginity at 20. I had a problems achieving and maintaining an erection through the whole interaction. It seriously hurt my self confidence and made me fearful of sex.
I was able to have a few more experiences with other women, but with similar results.
I kept on PMOing, increasing frequency, length, and escalating to more disturbing fetishes. After about a year without sex, I tried to have sex with an attractive girl. I could only muster 20% of an erection and that lasted only about a minute. For the first time in my life, I couldn’t perform at all. It seriously messed me up in the head. I spiraled down a hole of despair for a year and a half. I started watching sissy hypno porn, and occasionally masturbating anally. I thought that I might have been gay, but gay porn never did it for me.
Feeling shameful after another porn session, I started googling why I was so messed up in the head. I found this subreddit and yourbrainonporn and started nofap. After a few relapses, I had finally made my 90 day mark. Within that time I have lost my cravings for all porn, especially extreme porn (I am truly disgusted by it now). At 87 days, I had my first date in a long time. At 96 days, I had my first bj since nofap. I had no problems at all, which is amazing because I used to get bored during bjs and lose my erection. And at 113 days, I had sex and performed better than I ever had. I had a rock hard erection the whole time.
It might be to early too tell, I probably have some more rewiring to do, but I feel confident that I will make it through this. I can honestly say that I will never watch porn or masturbate again. I have zero desire for either. I feel like I’ve been given a second chance at life. I have never been happier. I want more people to be aware of the dangers of porn. There are so many people who don’t know why they have ED. Just cut out the porn and let your brain heal itself!
LINK – 114 days… I think I’m Cured…
by Erdynn
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