I’ve posted here a few times explaining the troubles with my SO. In short, PIED was causing a lot of turbulence. The sex portion of our relationship didn’t exist and it was making both of us very unhappy.
Every time we tried, I failed.
Today marks the 97th day of NoFap for me. I slipped a couple times but always managed to catch myself, and I have to say the struggle was totally worth the results.
Two days ago, my SO and I had successful sex for the first time in about 10 months. Then we woke up and did it again in the morning. It was amazing. There was so much more passion on my end. I know she felt it. It felt so real. The first time I ever had sex was when I was 18, probably 5-6 years after I discovered PMO. In all the years I’ve had sex, nothing has ever felt so authentic.
The battle isn’t over. I still have to prevent myself from relapsing because I know that the PIED will come back quick. Paths of addiction in the brain though abandoned, are still as wide and well-paved as you left them.
Thank you all for the support and giving me a community to relate with.