A bit of background: Started “masturbating” from an early age, and then started having sex from age 17-19. Had my first orgasm from masturbation at age 19 and began my descent into porn addiction from that point on. Started off with masturbating to thoughts of my ex gf, then more sick fantasies then full blown pornography. It became a serious addiction where I couldn’t stop thinking about it.
I’d be sitting there trying to enjoy a hobby or watch TV and my mind would constantly wander to porn. Eventually my fetishes got more extreme and I myself became more depraved.
I stopped caring after a while and started living like a complete slob shut away in my bedroom 24/7. Addicted to weed and video games and eventually had an alcohol problem. I’d fap every day and edge for hours. I finally made the choice to quit porn when I realised how serious my problem was 6 years later, and I met a girl online and made the big choice to change my life.
Started rebooting/NoFap around the end of February, had multiple mini-relapses early on and several more serious relapses half way through (never orgasmed once though apart from wet dreams).
5-6 months later I’m no longer addicted to weed, rarely ever drink (if I do it’s lightly) and not socially isolated and shut in. I went from 118kgs in weight to 78kgs at 6’2.
I could write a lot more but I’ll just leave it at that I was in the darkest of holes and truly was addicted. I sincerely believed I’d never get past this and now here I am.
I know the pain of doubt and fear when you’re just starting a reboot, so to all the new people and people still struggling, feel free to ask me questions.