I think I found my peace again. A peace that was lost at around 12 y/o due to masturbating. 14 years man, 14 years of OVER-indulging in a natural habit made unnatural with the aid of porn. I feel hopeful, excited about my future again. I thought I would never feel that way again.
PMO made me feel sorry for myself. The more I PMO’ed, the worse I felt. I know this post isn’t as sexy as the “HEY, I LOST MY VIRGINITY!” ones. The funny thing is, the lack of sex life is what made me consider No Fap, and I thought not fapping would change that.
For me, it’s done considerably more.
I’d rather not go into details, but lets just say I’m a better person and overall human being. I just eliminated one of the biggest distractions in my life and I feel proud of myself. It wasn’t easy but I got it done. I don’t want to stop at 90 days either…
No, I’m not perfect…I still have a lot of things that I need to work on as a person, but I feel that I’m progressing towards being the person I want and need to be. I feel that I’m in the right frame of mind to accomplish all the things I want to accomplish.
I don’t struggle with anxiety, and I don’t feel as dull. My mind is sharp…Social awkwardness is far less frequent (I think as flawed humans this will never go away lol). I’m not as intense or impulsive emotionally…I’m spiritually and mentally stable.
Most importantly, my life doesn’t revolve around sex.
I’m a lot more committed to building relationships and trust with people. I’ve become a better listener, friend, brother, and hopefully it will translate to me being a great husband and father (I think it will). Maybe I’m thinking too far ahead with the husband/father thing, but a man can dream can’t he?
No Fap has made me a better man. I was such an anti-social lone wolf…I tried to do this by myself so many times, to the point where I just about gave up. Discovering this great community inspired me to give it one more go. Now I know that I’m done for good. 14 years, no more…