http://i.imgur.com/UPYjkwL.gif I wish I could say something classy and inspirational, but that just wouldn’t be my style. However I feel like I owe it to this community to at least try.
So here it goes… 28, male, unsullied, working from home. Second go at nofap. I’d say I discovered porn how lots of people do, coming across it on cinemax when I was 9-10 years old one late night. I was intrigued, but didn’t start to fap. Fast forward to 7th grade, friend brings a playboy to school. Again, I enjoy looking, but it stopped at that. Enter high school years, 15 and I discover internet porn and BAM, I was hooked.
For me PMO was an outlet to aide in remaining abstinent, but I did the math and over the past 13 years I PMO’d at least 10,000 times. Until recently (when I watched the movie Don Jon in December and it led to finding the Ted talk on P and then nofap) I had no clue how P was effecting my brain, mainly with depression and general mood.
Why did I/am I continuing to do this? Number one* reason was to help with my depression, as I am a manic depressive who doesn’t take meds. And let me tell you, it worked. Now whenever I feel depressed I think about WHY I am and for some reason I start to laugh and feel better. Basically, I no longer even go more than a day (at worst) feeling sad and/or depressed. So why stop this journey? It would make NO SENSE AT ALL to go back. My medication has become cold showers followed by hitting the gym, at least 5x a week.
- Much more calm and generally a happier person
- Feelings of emotions are much more intense and pleasurable
- Beginning to love and respect myself more and more with each passing day
- It takes a lot to anger and/or upset me now. Basically if it’s something not in my control, I don’t give a fuck.
- Mind no longer goes to those place when I see a woman I find attractive. I now appreciate her for more than just her body.
- No more brain fog. Much easier to concentrate.
All in all, I just see no reason at all to fall back into this old habit. PMO is in the rear view mirror and eventually I hope I wont even be able to see it anymore.
tl;dr: PMO addict of 13 years. Nofap all but cured my depression and I’m generally a happy person now.
PS – I completely forgot to mention the most important thing. Thanking all of you and this wonderful community! I really don’t think I could be doing this without you guys. Feel free to ask me anything.
edit: Number one reason, not one reason in 4th paragraph
LINK – 100 days: monk mode.