In these 100 days the #1 thing I’ve found to have changed that I am most thankful for is the fact that I no longer like disgusting abuse porn. When I was addicted to PMO I would seek out the most deviant sites I could find and I didn’t care who the girls were or what they were going through.
I wanted to see their insides ripped out, I wanted to hear them screaming. I wanted to see men with massive dicks and women getting penetrated by 3-4 men at once. I was a sick puppy. I even had thought about doing these things myself. The addiction was stronger than I thought and it was twisting and controlling my mind.
Now after just 100 days I’m clean. I love women instead of lust them. I want to see happy women with fulfilled lives. I want to see their faces and their curves. I want to see their eyes sparkling and know that they are going home and sleeping happily at night with a loving husband, just like my wife does. I don’t even have the desire to look at porn anymore. I have my wife and she is more than enough for me. If I didn’t have her, I’d be looking for her.
Nofap does wonders. Don’t give up and don’t give in. Some of my many other improvements:
-I exercise daily
-I gained mass from 170 lbs to 205 lbs (I’ve always been a skinny runt)
-I no longer bite my nails at all
-I look people in the eyes
-I never masturbate
-I don’t get desperate for sex
-I sleep well