It’s been a long time ago that I have been without any relapse for such a long time. I have been before but during those times I wasn’t really free of addiction, I just changed to an online shopping, movie or gaming addiction. The results have been quite drastic (in a good way).
I have a lot more energy than I used to but what surprises me most is how much I enjoy being productive. I still sometimes procrastinate but usually I don’t want to anymore. I enjoy getting stuff done! I think a few months ago I’d still be afraid of checking off my list. Calling customers, suppliers, dealing with little problems but I’m not afraid anymore. Well, maybe sometimes still a little but it’s fading and fading. I never thought fear was such a big consequence of a porn addiction.
As I look back on the last few weeks the biggest question comes up in my head: what would my life have been like if I didn’t ever have an addiction at all? I’m so motivated and productive now. No wonder I’m way behind on my career! The good news is…..I’m not dead yet and it’s never too late to change.
Props to everyone here not giving up. Addiction sucks! It sucks for all of us. Just think about it………millions of people have a porn addiction and the industry is still growing. It’s time we show those bastards what we’re worth.