I am facing the prospect of reclaiming decades of my life at the age of forty. Starting again, to some extent. It’s not all about the PMO, not entirely. I’m not going to blame the PMO completely.
But what I do know is this: since I stopped over a year ago, everything in my life is becoming clear. My life is coming into focus, I am seeing myself for who I am, warts and all. PMO didn’t cause everything, but it stopped me from seeing. PMO made me blind.
My life is not all bad. I have a loyal, lovely wife and kids. But I have so badly let them down in terms of my career, a career I have masturbated away. They deserve so much better than this, and I hope to give it to them.
I will have to face some humiliations, or at at least some difficulties. I will have to take whatever job I can get to get my career back on track. It won’t be easy, but I have so much more energy since I gave up PMO.
What can I add? You may not know what PMO has done to you until you stop doing it – for a long time. That first day you ran away from the world into the hands of the false consolation of PMO, you started wrapping yourself in layers of delusion, layers it will take a lot of work to remove. The longer you have been doing it, the longer it will take.
Some surprising side effects: when I was a PMO user, I was always ill: flu, colds etc. Since I gave up I have hardly had a day’s sickness.
So if you are young and reading this, please don’t be a fool. Give this stuff up before it steals your life away. Do whatever it takes. It will be tough, but you won’t regret it.
And to all the people behind NoFap: you have saved my life.
LINK – Woke up. And I was forty.