Im very happy to have made it this far. I have come across points where its been very tempting to cave in and lose myself in the pleasure of PMO but by being grounded and in control through exercise and meditation I was able to be the master. I feel more in control of my emotions and the amount of rejections I’ve faced is high but at the same time nofap is one of many platforms that has helped me maintain my frame to be in love with myself. Not in a narcissistic way.
I see the world for how sad it really is now. When I’m walking to my lectures there are so many people glued to their phones, scared to make eye contact and really focused on maintaining an image. As generic as that sounds. Another thing is how shy people are in stating their opinion in a lecture/seminar. I’ve accepting that I’m a stupid chimp who will say stupid shit but if I don’t say it no one will be there to correct or challenge me. I’m good at keeping an open mind but that doesn’t mean I don’t talk shit. I’m less attached my ego and who I think I am which has allowed me to not give a fuck (check out /r/howtonotgiveafuck its gold).
The best thing about nofap for me is I can take pleasure in the simple things and my level of stimulus is far lower. This allows me to be more fun and emit positive energy like a sun. Not sucking up energy like a black hole. I found I did this a lot when I was a PMO addict.