When you fap to porn, your motivation is drained and you feel bad about yourself. You are victim to watching someone else fuck the girl of your dreams. A girl you would give anything to spend one night with. When you think about it, it is extremely depressing.
I have experimented with nofap for a long long time with streaks on and off for over 2 years now, and I can tell you one thing for sure; When I am doing the challenge, my thoughts of suicide and depression are significantly lower if not nonexistent.
You lose hope, you commit yourself to meritocracy. For me, I wanted to kill myself many times when I was in my PMO haze of a life. I had no hope of having meaningful connections with women, which, at the core, was all I really wanted.
Fapping detaches you from your humanity and feeds your animal like nature. It makes you stagnate and become okay with the shitty things in your life instead of acting and changing them. Don’t cheat yourself and make the change.
It’s tough but what is tougher is constantly cheating yourself with cheap, weak thrills. I went from a scared virgin, to a person that takes risks and exposes myself to the world. I still have a long way to go, but I am willing to take on these challenges and hopefully be successful. You have it in you, anyone can make meaningful change if they truly commit to it. Best of luck and god bless