Ngemuva kwesikhathi esiningi nje ukubuka nokubeka amazwana nokunikeza ukusekela kwabalingani bethu, ekugcineni kwafika kimi.
Ngineminyaka engu-23 ubudala, ngichithe iminyaka eyi-10 edlule ngishaya indlwabu futhi ngivame ukungena kumawebhusayithi wezithombe zocansi, nginqume ukujoyina i-NoFAP neNoPorn ngenxa yalokho engithole i-PIED.
Akulula nakancane futhi ngangazi ukuthi ngeke kube njalo. Ezinyangeni ezi-3 ezedlule ngibe namaphupho emanzi angama-4 noma ama-5, futhi kube enye inyanga selokhu ngaba neyokugcina. Ngicabanga ukuthi umzimba wami uzama ukujwayela ukweqisa kwe-testosterone.
Ngokuvamile umngane wami phansi lapho evuka kanzima njengedayimane, isilingo siyeza nsuku zonke, ngezinye izikhathi ngiphinde ngiphuphe amaphupho. Ngesikhathi sokugeza nginesifiso esikhulu sokushaya indlwabu, namhlanje sengicishe ngibuyele emuva. Kodwa uma ngicabanga ukuthi angifuni ukuphonswa konke, ngiyayeka. Ngaphandle kwalokho, ukushayela kwami kobulili kwansuku zonke kuphansi kakhulu.
Izinto ziba ngcono empilweni yami yezenhlalo, ngaqala ukwenza izifundo zobuchwepheshe futhi ngenza abangane abasha, ngikhuluma kakhulu nabazali bami, odadewethu nabangane. Sengicabanga nokuqala umdlalo ojwayelekile.
Lokhu akuyona umgomo, kuyindlela yokuphila engiyikhethile.
Ngifisa sengathi wonke umuntu afinyelele imigomo yakhe, akulula, kodwa akunakwenzeka nakanjani. Noma nini lapho udinga usizo futhi udabukile, ngikukwazisa ukuba uthumele lokho ozizwayo lapha ku-SUB.
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