Ngonyaka edlule..
Ngangingenathemba.
Ngangindikindiki.
Ngilahlekelwe yilo lonke uthando lwami nentshisekelo yempilo.
I-libido yami yayingaphansi kwedwala .. ipenisi yami yayingaphili futhi ngisho ne-porn ayikwazanga ukugcina ukwakhiwa kwami. Izinkuni zasekuseni zeZero futhi zazincane kunangesikhathi ngisemncane.
Intombi yami yeminyaka engu-4 ingishiyile ngoba ngakhetha i-porn, izinhlelo zokusebenza zokuphola, kanye nobulili obungenangqondo kunothando lwayo lokweneliseka okungabizi ngokushesha. Ngangimphatha okomuntu ocasulayo .. futhi wayeyintombazane emnandi kunazo zonke eyayingithanda ngempela.
Ngangingenawo umkhondo wokuthi kungani nganginje .. futhi bengazi kuphela ukugcwalisa izinsuku zami ngentukuthelo enkulu, ukudangala, ukuzisola, ukuba necala nokukhathazeka. Uyazi ukuthi kunjani lapho uzizwa wephukile ngaphakathi, engqondweni nasemzimbeni. Umuzwa wayo omubi kakhulu emhlabeni wonke. Futhi ukuze ngibalekele le mizwa, ngaphendukela entweni eyodwa engifikise kule ndawo .. izithombe zobulili ezingcolile ezinzima. Futhi lo mjikelezo uya ujula futhi ube mnyama emgodini ongenamkhawulo. Ngangikulungele ukungabe ngisaphila .. ngaze ngathola iGabe deem neNowa Church ku-youtube.
Ukwazi ukuthi angingedwa kwaba impumuzo enkulu. Kepha kungithathe izinyanga ze-8 zokuzama njalo nokubuyela emuva njalo emavikini ambalwa ukuqala i-streak engikukho manje. Nganginomlutha omkhulu wezinhlelo zokusebenza ze-instagram nezokuphola okwangibangela ukuthi ngibuyele emuva kaningi. noma ngabe i-streak yakho yinde kangakanani, kuthatha kuphela ukubuyela emuva okumbalwa ukuthi uzithole usuphansi kwentaba futhi. Nganginesizungu kakhulu .. okwangenza ngakhuluma namantombazane online noma ngibuyele kumasayithi we-porn. Ngithole ithuba lokulala nentombazane enhle engihlangane nayo kuhlelo lokusebenza lokuphola ezinyangeni ezi-4 ezedlule futhi ngingenasidingo sokusho .. Ngehluleke kabi.
Ngemuva kwalesi sehlakalo ngathatha isinqumo sokushintsha ngempela. I-PMO yayingeyona inketho kimi manje .. noma ngabe izinto zazinzima kangakanani. Bengigula futhi ngikhathele ukweqa emizweni yami nasempilweni futhi nginqume ukubhekana nalolu hambo ngokuzinikela okungamaphesenti ayi-100. Uma ngibheka emuva kuyo, ngifisa ukuthi ngabe ngabe ngasithatha lesi sinqumo emuva lapho ngiqala. Ukuphakathi kwale ndlela noma ungekho. Akukho phakathi.
I-Flatline yangishaya njengeloli kusukela ngosuku 1. Futhi yaqhubeka .. yaqhubeka .. kwaze kwaba usuku lwe-96. Ngangiphuke ngokuphelele. Kodwa nganginomgomo ocacile wokuthi angisoze ngabuyela endleleni engangiyiyo. Ngenze konke engingakwenza ukuphuma kule flatline futhi ukwenza lezi zinto kulithuthukisile impela izinga lempilo yami kanye nempilo yami yengqondo nengokwenyama. Sonke silapha ukuze ekugcineni sishaye umlutha wezocansi kodwa ngikholelwa ngokweqiniso ukuthi izinzuzo zangempela ze-nofap zivela ekuzikhuzeni kanye nazo zonke izinguquko ezincane ozifaka empilweni yakho yansuku zonke ekwenza ube ngumuntu ongcono.
Phakathi nalolu hambo, lezi bekuyizinto ebengizama ngazo zonke izindlela ukuzenza nsuku zonke futhi ngikholwa ukuthi zingazuzisa noma ngubani .. ikakhulukazi labo abaqala kabusha:
Ukuzivocavoca kwe-Wim Hof (okungcono kakhulu ekuseni)
Imvula ebandayo (imizuzu emi-2-5 ekuseni)
Ukusebenza kwe-HIIT nama-calisthenics (100-200 pullups + 2-300 dips + pushups + 10 minute ab routine)
Azikho izidakamizwa, ukhula, i-nicotine ne-caffeine
Susa yonke imithombo yezokuxhumana nezinhlelo zokusebenza zokuphola bese uvimba wonke amasayithi we-porn.
AKUKHO ukusetshenziswa kwefoni ngemuva kwe-8pm futhi AKUKHO foni embhedeni.
Lala ngaphambi kwamabili bese uvuka ngaphambi kwehora lesishiyagalombili ekuseni.
Yiba nomagazini wenqubekela phambili ovela esikrinini. (bhala phansi ukuthi uzizwa kanjani, yini eshintshile, i-libido, izinkuni zasekuseni, njll.) kulula ukukhohlwa uma wenza kahle kule rollercoaster yohambo. Izikhathi ezinzima ziza ngamagagasi amakhulu futhi lezi zinto zizokusiza ukuthi uzishise phezu kwazo.
Ngiyazi ukuthi lolu hlu akulula neze .. bekunzima kakhulu kimi ukwethembeka. Ukubona le nkathi njengomhlatshelo omncane ngekusasa lami eliqhakazile kwenza izinto zaba lula ukubekezelela.
Manje ngikuSuku 120 ohambweni lwami .. futhi izinto zihluke kakhulu ukusho okuncane.
Ngikhululekile ekucindezelekeni nasekukhathazekeni .. futhi ingqondo yami nokugxila kwami kucacile. Ngokomzimba angikwazi ukuba sesimweni esingcono. Manje sengiyazi ukuthi injabulo yangempela ivela othandweni lweqiniso nokuthola injongo yami empilweni, esikhundleni sokuyifunisisa ngezinjabulo zesikhashana. Ngingayazisa ngempela yonke imininingwane emincane empilweni ebengindikindiki ukuyivuma ngaphambili futhi angikwazi ukubonga kakhulu. Ngiyekile ukuphunyuka ebunzimeni impilo engishaya ngabo futhi ngiyazethemba kakhulu ekuthatheni izingozi eziningi nezibopho. Angisazami ukungawunaki umuzwa wami futhi ngizame ukubhekana nawo ngokubheka ukuthi angithinta kanjani. Angikwesabi ukuba sengozini kubantu abasondelene nami, okungenze ngaba ngumuntu ovulelekile futhi obala. Ngafinyelela entombini yami yakudala ngamvulela konke engangibhekene nakho nokuthi usasho kanjani konke kimi .. wajabula kakhulu ukuzwa kimi futhi wabekisa indiza yakhe ngesikhathi socingo lokuthi eze azongibona. Sahlangana ngosuku lwe-114 lohambo lwami lwe-hardmode futhi saba nobulili obumangalisa kakhulu .. futhi wayenengqondo ngokuphelele. Benginesiqiniseko sokuthi ipipi lami belisaphukile kodwa ngake ngambona ngezwa uthando esasinalo yonke into lwavele lwashabalala futhi ngangingenankinga ekamelweni. Manje sesibuyelene futhi ngizomnika konke kusuka manje. Ngikhuthaza noma ngubani owesabayo ukusondelana nentombazane ngenxa yezinkinga ezihlobene nocansi ezibandakanya ezocansi ukuze abeke engcupheni uma ukwazi ngokwanele ukuqala kabusha kwakho. Kwesinye isikhathi ingakhahlela ukuqala kwakho i-libido bese ibeka ukuphela okuqondile ku-flatline yakho. Kuningi kakhulu ongakuzuza kunokulahlekelwa ngokuzama.
Ngisenezinzuzo eziningi ezingaphambi kwami njengoba ngizoqhubeka kulolu hambo. Into eyodwa ngokuqinisekile ukuthi bengingeke ngikwenze lokhu kuze kube manje ngaphandle kukaGabe Deem nabantu abakulesi sithangami ngakho-ke ngiyanithanda nonke.
NGICELA UKWAZI UKUTHI UZOPHILISWA.
Ufanelwe ukujabulela impilo egcwele uthando nenjongo. Vele ungabuyeli ezindleleni zakho zakudala .. Singcono kakhulu kunalokho.
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