Lokhu okuthunyelwe sekusele izinsuku ezimbalwa, ngilungiselela ukuyihambisa ngomnyaka owodwa wokukhumbula kwami, kodwa ngimatasa futhi ngikhohlwa. Yebo, sekwephuzile kangcono kunanini ngaphambili.
I-1 YEAR, HEWU. Lokhu kuzizwa kungu-surreal lapho ngiqala lolu hambo angikaze ngicabange ukuthi ngingahamba ngaphandle kuka-PM ngisho nenyanga futhi angizange ngicabange nangonyaka owodwa. Kepha, ngokusebenza kanzima, futhi bekunzima, ngosizo lomphakathi waseNoFap futhi okubaluleke kakhulu ngosizo lwe- @Jagliana Ngenza unyaka owodwa. Ngifunde okuningi, sengikhulile kakhulu, sengishintshe kakhulu futhi ngaphandle kwazo zonke lezo zinto, bengingeke ngikwenze kuze kube namuhla. Ngifuna ukusho ukubonga umphakathi weNoFap nama-APs ami ayemi kimi futhi angisekela ngezikhathi ezinzima. Vele, ngifuna ukusho ukubonga okukhethekile kunkosikazi wami omuhle, omangalisayo, ohlakaniphile obemi ngakimi noma ngabe kwenzekani, ebubini nasebubini, lapho bekungafanele akwenze lokho. Ngonyaka odlule ngalolu suku wayenesiqiniseko sokuthi sesiqedile, ukuthi useqedile, ubenele ngokwenele kwami futhi ngeke akumele. Wayengenaso isizathu sokuma kimi, wayengenaso isizathu sokusekela mina, wanginika amathuba amaningi futhi konke engangikuqamba amanga, ngokuphindaphindiwe. Yebo, yenza indaba ibe mfushane kulo nyaka wonke sibe nezinkinga eziningi nezimbi, bekufanele sinqobe izithiyo eziningi, sifunde futhi sikhule ndawonye, futhi yilokho esikwenzile. Ngifunde ukuthi kusho ukuthini ngempela ukuba sothandweni, ukujabula, ukubonga, ngifunde ukuthi yikuphi ukuxhumana nokusondelana. Sengihlale nonkosikazi wami ngaphezu kweminyaka eyi-12 manje futhi iminyaka engu-12 bengicabanga ukuthi ngiyathandana, kepha bengingazi ukuthi yini ngempela, bengicabanga ukuthi ngijabule, kepha bengibuhlungu. Ngangiwuthanda umqondo womndeni futhi ngacabanga ukuthi yini esasiyitholile injabulo, kodwa ngangingalungile. Kwadingeka ngishintshe indlela yami yokuphila ukuze ngifake imodi yokutakula, hhayi nje ukuhlola amabhokisi. Noma nini lapho ngicabanga ukuthi kulungile ngithola lokhu, kukhona okunye engikufundile engikudinga ukukuguqula noma ukukufunda. Ukululama kungaphezu kokumisa i-PM kuphela, kunezendlalelo eziningi kakhulu futhi kuwo wonke umuntu kwehlukile, bekufanele ngithole okwami ngendlela enzima. Ngangingenawo ochwepheshe, noma amaqembu okusekela engingahamba nawo awakhulume, futhi anginalo umbhede. Umkami wayengumhlengikazi wami, umbhede wami, i-AP yami, nomeluleki wami futhi ngiyajabula kakhulu futhi ngiyajabula ukuthi ukhona lapho futhi ngafunda ukumethemba kungakhathaliseki ukuthi nginehloni necala elingakanani. Ngimtshele izinto ebengingakaze ngicabange ukuthi ngizozitshela umuntu. Wabuye waba ugqozi nokugqugquzela ukuqala ukuzinakekela, ngaqala ukuvuka ekuseni ngoba ngimbonile enza kanjalo, ngaqala ukulalela ama-podcasts namavolumu ashukumisayo kanye namavidiyo ngoba ngimbonile enza kanjalo futhi wabelane kakhulu kanye nami. Ngesikhathi ngithola ukukhathazeka ukuthi wayekhona lapho ukungitshela lokho futhi hhayi kanye, kwakudingeka alwe namademoni akhe ukuba angagcini futhi aqhubeke engitshela futhi angisekele. Ngiyazi ukuthi lokhu kulula kunzima kimi, ngiyazi ukuthi kunzima kakhulu kuye, zonke iziphambeko engizenzele zona ezintsha, okusho ukuthi angikaze ngicabange ngamaphutha ami, manje ngibonile ngaphandle kwe PM bezizwa zihlukile, ezintsha futhi ngangizama ukufunda kuzo. Kuyena, nokho, kwakuyinto efanayo naleyo ayeyiphile iminyaka futhi engasafuni, kepha wayekhona engisekela futhi engangisizi. Ngiyazi ukuthi usekhule kakhulu futhi, ushintshe kakhulu ngezindlela eziningi, yize engaziboni ezinye zalezo zinguquko kodwa mina ngiyazibona. Ngifuna ukumtshela ukuthi ngimthanda kakhulu futhi usho kimi ngaphezu kwanoma yini kuleli zwe. Wangisiza ukuba ngibe umuntu ongcono, umyeni ongcono, umngane ongcono, nobaba ongcono.
Njengoba ngishilo, unkosikazi wami wayeqede nami ngonyaka odlule futhi angikaze ngicabange ukuthi ngiphinde ngithole elinye ithuba naye. Nokho, unyaka kulokhu kululama ngambuza ukuthi angathanda yini ukunginika elinye ithuba, futhi ngiyajabula ukubika ukuthi uthe yebo. Manje, ukufika kulokho kwakungelula kuye noma kimi, kwakukhona amaphutha amaningi, ukubuyela emuva, kepha wabona ukusebenza kwami okungaguquguquki, ukuzinikela kwami kulokhu kululama, ukuzinakekela futhi yilokho okwaqinisekisa isinqumo sakhe. Luhambo olunzima, olungapheli futhi ngiyazi ukuthi ngisenomsebenzi omningi phambi kwami, kodwa konke kuwufanele. Angikwazi ukujabula kakhulu noma ukumbonga ngokunamathela kimi nokungisekela kulo nyaka odlule, futhi okubaluleke kakhulu ukukholelwa kimi nokusinika elinye ithuba.
Ngiyazi ukuthi ngisenohambo olude nolunzima ngaphambi kwami kodwa ngifunde okuningi endleleni futhi ngifuna ukusiza abanye nganoma iyiphi indlela engingakwazi ngayo, okungokuhlangenwe nakho kwami nokwelulekwa kwami. Nginentshisekelo yokuba yi-AP ETHEMBEKILE yomuntu osesimeni esifanayo (oshadile, onezingane) oqala, kepha ozimisele ngokwenza lokhu futhi angalindeli ukuthi kuzoshuba ushukela. Lokhu kunzima, kuyinto yansuku zonke (ushintsho lwendlela yokuphila), akukho zikhefu uma kukhulunywa ngokululama kwangempela. Kwakumele ngikufunde kabuhlungu lokhu, ngaba nenhlanhla yokuba nonkosikazi owayekhona ukuzongitshela lapho sengingena kukhathazeka, manje sengizimisele ukwenzela omunye umuntu lokhu, okudingayo. Khumbula, lokhu kululama kuzophumelela kuphela, njengobungako bomsebenzi nokuzinikela ozimisele ukukufaka kukho. Akekho ongakwenzela yona, kufanele ivele ngaphakathi.
Okuncane mayelana nami:
Ubulili: Owesilisa
Ubudala: 35
Indawo: USA (Isikhathi Sendawo YaseMpumalanga)
Isimo sobudlelwano: Ushadile iminyaka engu-12, izingane ezingu-2
Isifundo: Ngokuqondile
Inkolo: Akukho
I-Streak yamanje engekho PM: Izinsuku ze-374
Uma kukhona abanye abantu abashadile bephuma lapho, ngubani ofuna i-AP, ukhululeke ukungithumela umlayezo.
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