Ngineminyaka engu-18. Ngabona ukuthi i-PMO yayiyinkinga lapho ngishaya phansi. Ukuzulazula ku-crazy shit nokuzizwa ungaphatheki kahle ngemuva kwalokho. Ukuchitha amahora ukuhlela futhi ekugcineni kunqotshwe ku-ejaculation. Amahora amoshiwe. Ngizizwa nginjenge-zombie ngaso sonke isikhathi, ngibona abangani bami bakhukhuleka besuka kimi, bebona ukukhathazeka kwami kwezenhlalo nokungakwazi ukusebenza kahle. Bengifuna ukuzithuthukisa, senginakho, futhi ngiyaqhubeka nokwenza njalo.
Iziteki zigcwele, akusikho ukuthi ngilahlekelwe yimizamo yezinsuku ezingama-335, ngoba angikenzi. Into eyodwa embi ukwedlula ukubuyela emuva iphinda ibuye okwesibili, ngoba kulapho wazi ukuthi wehla phansi ukuvunguza kwe-PMO. Uma ngikhuluma iqiniso ngicabanga ukuthi ngeke ngiphinde ngibuyele emuva kodwa ngicabanga ukuthi ngazibonakalisa ngiphutha lapho.
Manje khumbula, njalo lapho ubuyela emuva kungenxa yezenzo zakho, akekho ophumayo. Umqondo wokubuyela kwami emuva wukuthi i-gf yami yanginika i-handjob, eyangibeka emuzwa we-orgasm. Lokhu kungenze ngazizwa ukuthi ama-orgasms azizwa kanjani (ngemuva kwezinsuku ezingama-335 ujesu kristu ngaqhuma), futhi kwangenza ngathambekela kakhulu ekufuneni ukushaya indlwabu. Ngingasho kalula ukuthi cha ku-handjob, ngingavele ngilale embhedeni wami ngaphandle kocingo lwami lungivumele ukuba ngilale ngokushesha futhi ngaleyo ndlela ngingajwayele ukushaya indlwabu. Kwakungenxa yezenzo zami ukuthi ngingu-PMO'd.
Engikushoyo kumayelana nezinketho zakho zendlela yokuphila ezinquma amathuba okubuyela emuva. Imayelana nokwazi ngokucophelela izenzo zakho kanye nemithelela yalezo zenzo.
Ngingumuntu ohluke kakhulu ngokuqhathaniswa nami ezinsukwini ezingama-335 ezedlule. Sengizuze okuningi, futhi bengingeke ngibe sesikhundleni engikuso manje ukube bekungeyona i-nofap. Ngisho nangosuku olulandelayo (namuhla), ngizwe inkungu encane yekhanda nokuntuleka kwesisusa, hhayi ngezinga elinzima kepha bekubonakala. Angikwazi ukuhlala kahle ngaphansi kwe-PMO, ukwazi ukuthi impilo injani ngaphandle kwayo kungenza ngifune ukungabuyeli emuva, ngaphandle komzuzu wenjabulo owutholayo. Ingqondo yami iyashintsha njalo, ikhula ngokungaguquguquki. Angifuni ukungcolisa lokho kukhula nge-PMO.
Lokho engikufunde ngempela kuNofap ukuthi ukukhetha kwakho empilweni okugcina kunqume ukuthi ungubani. Uma ufuna ukuzethemba okuthuthukile, ukugqugquzela okuthuthukile, futhi ukuze uzizwe ungcono ngokujwayelekile, ungagwema i-PMO, kepha lokho akuyona ukuphela kwento okudingeka uyishintshe.
Njengoba kushiwo ngokudumile kule sub, buyela esihlalweni uqhubeke. Kuluhambo oluncane KAKHULU ohambweni lwami lokuphila, futhi akuyona into ongazizwa kabi ngayo.
Ngiyacela ungibuze noma imiphi imibuzo onayo, bengilwa nalokhu iminyaka embalwa manje futhi ngifuna ukunikeza ulwazi oluningi kubantu abangaqondi ngempela ukuthi iNoFap ingaba namandla kangakanani.
Angikwazi ukuzivocavoca iminyaka emi-2 edlule ngenxa yokulimala ehlombe ngakho-ke angikakuboni nhlobo ukuthuthuka kuleyo ndaba. Yebo nginezinwele zobuso eziningi kepha kungenxa yokuthi ngisakhula (ngingu-18). Ngizame ngobuhlakani ukuthuthukisa ukuma kwami futhi ngibe nezinombolo eziningi zabantu abangitshela ukuthi nginokuma okuhle futhi bacishe babonakale benomona. Ngibe namazwana anjengokuthi 'ukhule kakhulu ezinyangeni ezimbalwa ezedlule' futhi 'usuqala ukuphuma igobolondo lakho' futhi ngibonile isihogo sokuncoma okuningi emsebenzini, inhlonipho eyengeziwe ngokujwayelekile, mhlawumbe ngenxa yekhono elithuthukisiwe.
Ngizizwa sengathi amazinga ami wamandla ayisisekelo akhuphukile, futhi aguquguquka kuye ngokuthi kwakungosuku luni. Umehluko ohlaba umxhwele kakhulu engiwubonile ngukuthi ngikwazi ukusebenza amashifu e-10 cishe ngaphandle kokukhathala kanti ngaphambi kokuthi ngifane 'nokufenda lokhu engifuna ukuya ekhaya', ngijabulela ukusebenza isihogo sokunye okuningi. Nginamandla amaningi kakhulu ngokungangabazeki.
Ngokuqondene ne-porn, ngangihamba izinsuku, noma amasonto ngingakuvusi engqondweni yami. Noma ngenkathi ngenza, ngawuvala ngokuzenzakalelayo umcabango phansi, njenge-super ngokushesha. Benginalo mandla amakhulu okuqaphela imicabango engadingekile, futhi ngiyisuse, ngibe sengathi incane.
Ukube bekungeyona eyokwanda kwami i-sex drive angingabazi ukuthi ngabe ngabe ngiqale ingxoxo naye ngaphandle kokushaya.
Uma nje ngisaphila ngifuna ukuba sesimweni esikhiqizayo, nesikhuthazayo. Ngoba kungenza ngizizwe ngimuhle kakhulu ngaso sonke isikhathi. Ngiwudelela impela umuzwa we-PMO ngoba ngiyabona ngobuqotho ukuthi ungithinta kanjani. Akuyona into oyenzayo ngokulinganisela, i-PMO inamandla kakhulu kulokho, i-PMO eyodwa iholela komunye bese uzitika, bese uzizwa ukuzisola okukhubazekile ngemuva kwalokho kulandelwe amasonto adingekayo wokululama. Udinga ngempela ukungena konke uma kukhulunywa ngeNofap. Udinga ukukushisa ebuchosheni bakho ukuthi i-PMO ikuthinte kabi nokuthi ayifanele umzuzu wesikhathi sakho, noma ngabe isesilinganisweni.
Ngokwethembeka ndoda, into yokugcina engifuna ukungena kuyo yi-PMO binge, cishe kufana nokuzinika igciwane. Sengivele ngithole inkungu yobuchopho obuncane kanye ne-libido eyehle kakhulu namhlanje, futhi ngiyazi ukuthi lokho kuba yimiphetho emibili uma ngiqhubeka nokukwenza.
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