Umbiko we-Day 71: Isikhathi eside lurker, okokuqala ukuthumela
Isendlalelo: Ngingumfana oneminyaka engu-23, ngiqala ukubukela i-porn ngasikhathi sonke se-13-14
Kuyo yonke le minyaka ngibone ukwehla okuphawuleka ku-drive yami yocansi nesifiso sokulala nabesifazane “bangempela”
Angikaze ngibe nobunzima ekutholeni amantombazane kodwa amantombazane ayengithanda ayengayona into engiyithandayo, kuthi lapho ngithola intombazane ekhangayo ngigcine ngiqala ukukhetha izinto ezincane ngaye bese nginquma ukuthi anginaphutha ukucabanga ukuthi wayephelele kakhulu ekuqaleni.
Ngiye ngathandana nawo cishe onke amantombazane ahlukile e-15 selokhu ngiqala ekolishi kodwa angikaze ngikujabulele ngempela ngaphandle kokuthi bengiphuza noma ngisebenzisa izidakamizwa. Ngaphandle kwalokho ngizoya ocansini ikakhulukazi ngoba yilokho abantu “okumele bakwenze,” ngizozazisa ukuthi sengingene kulokho
Lapho ngingedwa futhi ngangicabanga ukuthi ngizoba yini amanye amantombazane kusuka ekuhambeni kwami kwakudala / ebudlelwaneni lapho lokhu bekungaphenduki ngokwanele ku-porn
Lapho ngiphela umlutha wami, ngangibukela i-porn kaningi ngosuku… ngangiqala ukubuka ocingweni lwami ngaphambi kokuba ngilale.
Uhlu lwezinzuzo nezinguquko kuze kube manje: (alwelwe)
I-1 - Ngingaba nezingxoxo ezijwayelekile ngaphandle kokuhamba ngicabanga ngokuxhumana konke kaninginingi, esikhundleni salokho ngivele ngihambe futhi ngibuyele emuva ngicabange nganoma yini ebengisendleleni engizoyenza.
2 - Kusukela lapho ngibuka khona umhlaba manje, angikholwa ukuthi ngichithe isikhathi esiningi ngibuka izithombe zocansi… angifuni ukuchitha omunye umzuzwana kuso
I-3 - Izinhloso zami zesikhathi eside zihunyushelwa kalula emisebenzini yansuku zonke, futhi angisazizwa sengathi ngichitha isikhathi kuze kuphele usuku
I-4 - Anginaso isifiso esinamandla sokubheka izithombe zobulili ezingcolile noma i-fap (okwamanje) ikakhulukazi ngoba ngiyibona ngenye indlela manje, ngiyakwazi ukuzibuza ukuthi "kungani ngikwenza lokho, ngizotholani lokho kuzokwenza isimo sami sibe ngcono? ”
Izinhloso zami zinengqondo, futhi sengidedele ukwesaba nokuzithemba obekukhawulela umkhawulo wami wezenzo zami. Isibonelo: Bengijwayele ukubeka izinto ngokulandela:
"Ngingawuthola lowo msebenzi kodwa ngizobe ngingenza imali eyanele futhi kuzoba imfucuza ngoba ayihlobene nenkambu yomsebenzi engiwifunayo vele, sengichithe iminyaka eminingi kakhulu, angisakwazi ukuthola kulokhu ”
Manje umqondo wami wamanje ngu:
"Lo msebenzi kuzoba yindlela enhle yokuhlangana nabantu abasha futhi ngisebenze kanzima ukuthola imali esheshayo ngenkathi ngithuthukisa amakhono amasha, kungaphandle kwendawo yami yokududuza futhi kuzoba ngejubane, futhi ngingasebenzisa lokhu ukuthola umsebenzi ongcono esikhathini esingaphansi konyaka, ngaso sonke lesi sikhathi ngisebenza emsebenzini wami wesikhathi eside nezinjongo zemfundo ”
I-5 - Anginamathele kangako kubantu abanobuthi, kanye nabantu abangeyona ingxenye enhle yohambo lwami lokuya lapho ngifuna ukuya khona. Angizondi noyedwa wabo, empeleni ngibafisela konke okuhle, izimpilo zethu zivele zadinga ukuhlukana ngezindlela. Ngaphambi kokuba ngizizwe kabi ngokungabhaleli abantu abathile imiyalezo, ngibameme nabanye abangane njll. Ngingagwema ukubangisana futhi ngizame ukujabulisa wonke umuntu. Manje sengikhuluma okusemqondweni wami futhi ngimema nabanye ukuthi benze njalo futhi, ngiqonda ngqo engxabanweni ngiyibhekise kubo ngaso leso sikhathi.
6 - Nginokuzithiba okungcono kuzo zonke izindawo futhi ngizithola ngicabanga izinto ezinjengokuthi “kulungile eminye imizuzu engu-10 bese ngingenafoni kuze kube kwenziwa lesi sabelo futhi sihanjisiwe” Lesi yisici / umkhuba engiwuqaphele bonke abangane bami “abaphumelele” . Angikhathazwa ama-instagram posts avela kuma-exes / amamodeli / izinkanyezi zami ezingcolile noma nge-porn ku-twitter / snapchat
Ngiyaxolisa ngokuqala ngeposi ende kangaka, ngiyathembisa ukuthi ngizolinyusa izinga ngokuzayo.
Ngifisa nina bafana namantombazane konke okuhle kulolu hambo oluhlanya…
LINK - USUKU 71 izinzuzo ezinde nezinguquko zombiko
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