Ngigcwalise izinsuku ze-90 namuhla. Izinsuku zokuqala ze-60 zazikwimodi enzima. Ngingowesilisa oshadile oneminyaka engu-35 ovela eNdiya ngineminyaka engu-20 yokufayila neminyaka engu-10 yokufayilwa ku-Porn. Okuhlangenwe nakho kwami nemicabango: Ama-Superpowers avele ngesonto lokuqala kakhulu futhi angishiya ngokushesha usuku lwe-15.
Ukuhumusha kwami ukuthi i-1) ukuqhuma kokuqala kokwenza i-nofap kuyaphela futhi i-2) umzimba nengqondo yami kulungise isimo "esinamandla amakhulu" njengokujwayelekile okusha.
INofap yanginika ukuzethemba nesikhathi esengeziwe. Inkungu yengqondo iyahlanza. Kodwa-ke, angisebenzisanga amandla nesikhathi ngendlela enezithelo - ngadlala ngokugijima kweC25K nokuzivocavoca okuthile okuyisisekelo kepha angizange ngiqhubeke. Isimo sami sengqondo ngokujwayelekile sihle ngokwengeziwe.
Ngasusa i-TV empilweni yami. Ibonwe ukuthi yonke into ihlangana kanjani nezocansi. Funda izincwadi ezingaphezulu (i-Kindle yeza kakhulu). Ukulala okuningi nokuphuza okuncane. Ngilahlekelwe ngamaphawundi we-10.
Ubudlelwano bami noMfazi sebuthuthukile. Umshado wethu uneminyaka emithathu ubudala futhi izinto ezisembhedeni zazimbi impela. Angizange ngisebenze kahle (kahle duh) futhi izinkinga eziningi zomshado zavela lapho. Unkosikazi waya ekucindezelekeni futhi salwa kakhulu. Nganginokulindela okukhulu ngokobulili kuye futhi nganginomunyu wokuthi akaphakameli indinganiso yami ethonywe yi-porn. Ngemuva kokuqala i-nofap, ibheke ngakulungile. Umqondo wami usekude ukwelapheka kodwa inqubo yokwelashwa isiqalile.
Ngemuva kokukhathazeka, ngiphila usuku lwami nsuku zonke ngigcwele isifiso sobulili nokukhululwa okungafezeki. Ngandlela thile, le ngxabano engashintshiwe idala ukuzethemba, ubuhlakani kanye nesimo esidabukisayo. Angizimisele ngokugwema ukulwa noma izingxoxo ezinzima emsebenzini ngoba ngiphila kabi. Lo muzwa awubanga mubi kangako futhi uyindlela okufanele ube ngayo.
Angizibizi ngokuthi ngiphulukisiwe kepha akukho kungabaza engqondweni yami ukuthi i-nofap iyasebenza. Imikhuba emidala ifa kanzima futhi ngiyazi ukuthi kuthatha isiliphu esisodwa nemizuzu emihlanu ngaphambili kusuka kwi-inthanethi ukubuyela ku-zero. Fuck zero. Angizalelwanga ukudlala nami ekhoneni elimnyama lekamelo. Ngizalelwe kulo mhlaba ukubona, ukuzwa, ukuhamba, ukuzwa, ukuhlinzeka, ukushintsha nokwenza ngcono.
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