Ndifumene i-nofap ngoSeptemba kwaye le ibe yinto yam yesibini ukuza kuthi ga ngoku, eyokuqala yam yayiziintsuku ze-10, ilandelwa yinto encinci ye-binging, ilandelwa yi-streak yam yangoku.
Ndandifuna ukubhala ingxelo xa ndandikwi-21days ... ngeentsuku ze-50 ... njl, kodwa andizange ndibe nexesha elaneleyo lokubhala "ingxelo" efanelekileyo, kodwa ngoku kwiintsuku ze-90 ndiya kwenza konke okusemandleni am ukufumana / ukunigcina nonke nikhuthazwa. 😉 Iingxelo zabanye ziye zandinceda nam, ngoko ke ndiziva ndifuna ukubuyisela into 🙂
Kulungile ke kuqala kulo lonke ulwazi malunga nam:
Ndinobuntu obuzaziyo. Ndajika i-26 kwiveki ephelileyo, umlutha we-PMO ukususela ekubeni ndandineminyaka eyi-13 ubudala, emva kokuba ndifumene i-PC yam yokuqala nge-intanethi. Ngoko phantse isiqingatha sobomi bam ndandichitha ixesha lokubukela i-porn. Ndandilikhoboka elikhulu. Ngokuqhelekileyo amaxesha angama-2-5 ngosuku, kabini oko ngeempelaveki. Kuze kube ngoSeptemba ndibe neqoqo le-porn elilingana ne-1.3 TB. Ndandine-HDD yangaphandle nje ye-Porn, ayikho enye into. Yayifana nobutyebi bam obuncinane, obuxabiseke ngaphezu kwayo nantoni na enye. Yonke into yayicwangcisiwe, ndilungiselele uludwe lokudlalwayo kuyo nantoni na endifuna ukuyibukela, njengeenkwenkwezi ezithile zephonografi, iindidi ezithile, kunye noluhlu lokudlala oluphezulu oluqulethe yonke into kwi-HDD endiya kuyisebenzisa kwimowudi yokutshixiza ixesha elininzi. Kuvakala ukuba kubikwe, ngoku xa ndicinga ngayo, kodwa ndikholelwe, loo nto yayifana nento engcwele kum.
Ubomi bam bubone ukunyuka nokuhla. Unyaka ka-2014 yayilelona xesha loyikekayo ebomini bam. Andiyi kungena kwiinkcukacha, kodwa ndikholelwe, ndiyibone kakuhle inzonzobila yobomi ngokwayo. Ekuqaleni kuka-2015 ndakwazi ngandlela-thile ukuba ndibuyele ezinyaweni zam. Ndaba nembono entsha ngobomi, ndafumana umsebenzi omtsha, ndafudukela kwidolophu entsha, ndadibana neqela labantu abatsha kwaye ndenza abahlobo abatsha (ndiyasokola ukudibana ne-ppl entsha kodwa ndakwazi ngandlela ithile, ngethamsanqa ndiyaqikelela). Ndaqala ukuya kwigym ngo-June 2015 ngenxa yokuba ndandihlile kakhulu emzimbeni ngo-2014. Ekuqaleni ndandisiya ejimini ka-3 ngeveki malunga neenyanga ezi-3.5, ndisenza i-full body workout. Ngoko kukho konke ndandisele ndisenza kakuhle, ndabuyela ekuweni endikubonileyo kwi-2014. Ngoko kutheni ndiqala i-nofap ngoSeptemba?
Ndinama-IRC-Mates ama-2, omabini amalunga nobudala bam. Ndibazi bobabini ukusukela xa ndandineminyaka eli-14 ubudala ukusuka kwi-IRC-channels yabantwana ukusukela ngelo xesha. Okwangoku ndidibene nabo bobabini i-IRL amaxesha ambalwa, ke ndibathatha njengabahlobo. Omnye wabo ukhankanye i-nofap kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo kwaye wathi iyoyikeka "i-blabla superpowers, guys yinyani", kodwa elinye iqabane kunye nam sasifana "hahahahaha….nop, asizukuyenza loo nto". Oko kwenzeka kwiminyaka embalwa eyadlulayo. Ke ngoSeptemba ka-2015, ndaphinda ndathenga i-akhawunti yenyanga ye-1 kwiwebhusayithi ethile yokucofa-ihoster. Ngamanye amagama: i-porn flatrate, ukuba uyazazi iiwebhusayithi ezifanelekileyo ezibamba izinto zazo kule-hoster-cofa-nye. Ke bendine-horny kwaye ndikhuphela iigigabytes ze-porn kwakhona, njengesiqhelo. Ndixelele omnye umlingani wam ukuba angasebenzisa i-acc yam ukuba abambe amanyala. Impendulo yakhe yayintle kakhulu "enkosi kodwa akukho mbulelo, andizange ndiqalise i-fap kwixesha elidlulileyo". Oko kwandenza ndafuna ukwazi, kuba ndandisoloko ndimazi njenge-monster-fapping, njengam. Undixelele ngezibonelelo ze-nofap kwaye wandibonisa ividiyo ebizwa umfuniselo omkhulu wephonografi (ekufuneka niyazi nonke ngoku !!!).
Kule vidiyo kukhankanyiwe ukuba i-fapping inokubangela ukuphazamiseka kwengxaki. Nantso eyona nto indichukumise kakhulu. Into yile, ndafunyaniswa ndine-agment deficit disorder ngo-2014 kwaye ingcambu yazo zonke iingxaki zam kunye nokusilela ebomini kuye kwaba yingxaki yokungakhathali. Bendingekayithathi nayiphi na imedi (ndandiza kuyifumana kwakamsinya) kodwa bendisazi ukuba UKUBA le 'nofap' ibiyindlela yokuzinceda ngandlela thile (ngaphandle kwemfuno yeemedi) ke bendiya kuba sisidenge esinye ukuba andizukuyenza. noko yizame. Kwakhona bendisazi ukuba oku akuyi kusebenza ukuba ndingumnikazi we-hard drive equlethe yonke i-porn yam. Ngoko ndenza oko kwakufuneka kwenziwe. Le nto ndiyijonga njengendoda, kuba intombazana encinci yayiza kulila. Andisokuze ndiwulibale umzuzu xa ndigqibile ukubukela ividiyo yovavanyo lwe-porn kuYouTube, emva koko ndafaka i-alt-tabbi kwi-irc-client, ndixelela amaqabane am: "Bantwana, ndiza kuzama i-nofap ... ngoku ndiza kucima yonke iphonografi" , emva koko ndijonge kwi-drive yam yangaphandle… kunye nokufomatha yonke idrayivu. Leyo yayiyingongoma yokungabuyi 😉 (ndiyayithiyile iphonografi, ke i-hdd-porn yiyo yonke into endakha ndayisebenzisa).
Ok ke kulapho izinto zaqala khona ukuqengqeleka. Nonke niyazazi iintsuku ezimbalwa zokuqala zale mfazwe. Ewe, ndaphinda ndabuyela emva kweentsuku ezili-10. Ndiqale i-streak entsha kwaye ndilapha kwiintsuku ze-90 kwaye yonke into endiyithethayo kukuba: LIFE.IS.FUCKING.AWESOME. Ndingabelana ngeengcebiso ezimbalwa kunye namaqhinga ENINGAkwenza kube lula kodwa kuya kuhlala kukho UMLO ngokuchasene nezibongozo. Ezo zibongozo azikapheli emva kweentsuku ezingama-90. Ndicinga ukuba kuthatha iminyaka embalwa ukuzinyanga / ukuzicwangcisa kwakhona, kuba emva kweMINYAKA yokuphulula amaphambili, awunakusuka ujike uhambe…. kuthatha ixesha elingakumbi ukwahlukana nalo mkhwa. Ke iingcebiso endikunika zona mhlawumbi ziyafana okhe wazifunda izihlandlo ezininzi kule sub, kodwa ngokunzulu le yindlela esebenza ngayo! Kuya kufuneka uhlale unento yokwenza, ungaze ungene kwimeko yokukruquka, kuba ngelo xesha iminqweno yakho iya kuba namandla. Ijim iye yacetyiswa kule sub amaxesha amaninzi. Kanye emva kokuba ndiqale i-nofap, ndonyusa indlela yam yokuzilolonga. Ndaqalisa ukwahlukana, ndibetha i-gym 5-6 amaxesha ngeveki (iintsuku ezi-4 zilandelelana, ikhefu leentsuku ezi-1, ndisebenza kumacandelo ahlukeneyo omzimba ngosuku ngalunye). Pheka ukutya okutsha UKUBA unexesha laloo nto. Yeka ukuhlehlisa izinto KUFUNEKA zenziwe. YENZE NJE, yiba yindoda ephoxayo, ingabi ngumntwana omncinci ongakwaziyo ukwenza izinto. Kwakhona ndiyathanda ukwenza umfanekiso wabantu abadumileyo okanye abalinganiswa ababi, kwaye xa ndisemngciphekweni wokunikezela kwi-fap, ndizama ukucinga "i-xy ingenza ntoni kule meko?". Umzekelo: Ukuba i-fapping yayilutshaba lwe-batman, i-batman yayiza kulwa ne-fap kwaye ingabi ngumntu olahlekileyo oza kunikezela. Ndiyathanda ukucinga izinto ezinjalo, ngamanye amaxesha kundinceda ukuba ndibe ngumntu.
Bendibona nentombazana ngo October. Kudala ndimazi le ntombazana, hayi kakhulu, kodwa bendiyazi ukuba ilungile kwaye zininzi izinto esifana ngazo. Impazamo yam kukuba besele ndimfake kwi pedestal. Ebegqibelele emehlweni am. Emva kweedate zethu zokuqala ezimbini ndiye ndamthanda kakhulu. Kwaye qho xa sidibana, ndandidla ngokulahleka emehlweni akhe kwaye ndicinge ngendlela agqibelele ngayo. Andingomntu wasetyhini, ndiye ndawadlala kakuhle onke amakhadi am, kodwa ke, bendimbeke kwi-pedestal, bendisele ndizama yonke into ukumenza owam. Nangona kunjalo. Wayexakeke ngokwenene, ngoko kwakukho iiveki ezimbalwa phakathi komhla wethu wesibini nowesithathu. Siye safowuna and text a lot kodwa. Ewe, kwezo veki zimbalwa xa singabonani, bendikhe ndanyusa iintsuku ze-2 ze-nofap. Ke xa sidibana kwakhona, bendisele ndiziva ngokwahlukileyo, bendiziva 'i-reboot' encinci ihanjiswa yi-nofap emva kweeveki ezimbalwa. Andiqinisekanga nge-21% ukuba oku kulandelayo kubangelwa yi-nofap okanye ukuba yayiziiveki nje ezimbalwa zokungaboni ngasonye KODWA, ngomhla wethu wesithathu, ndambona ngendlela eyahlukileyo. Ndaziva ngakumbi ngaye…aura? Umoya wakhe? Ubukho bakhe? Andazi ukuba mandiyichaze njani le nto, kodwa bendimva ngenye indlela. Yaye ngenxa yokuba ndakwazi ukwenjenjalo, ndaqonda ukuba andinamvakalelo ngaye. Ibindibhida nyhani ke lonto, ndidibene neyona ntombazana intle ebomini bam, ndisazi ukuba iligeza elincinane njengam, kodwa ngokuqaphela ukuba ayinguye, ndiqonda nje ukuba iyakuba bubudenge ukumleqa, nokuzama intshukumo. kuye. Ngoko emva koko, sayeka ukubonana. Sisathumela imiyalezo nangona kunjalo, kodwa sithetha nje ngezinto ezifana neMiboniso yeTV, iiMfazwe zeNkwenkwezi, iNintendo, njl., akukho nto inxulumene kakhulu.
Ndikhe ndabona imisonto engenakubalwa yobudenge kule subreddt mva nje ngathi "Ndisandula ukwabelana ngesondo", "Ndisandula ukudibana nentombazana", "onke amantombazana ajonge kum". Ayisiyiyo le nto kufuneka ibe malunga nayo. Ngokuqinisekileyo inokwenzeka kodwa ayifanelanga ukuba yinjongo okanye nantoni na. Andiqaphelanga nawaphi na amantombazana ajonge kum okanye nantoni na kodwa ndiye ndaqaphela ukuba andinantloni kwaye ndixhalabile malunga nobudlelwane boluntu. Ndandidla ngokuphepha yonke into kwaye ndibambelele emva kwePC yam, ndintywila kwiMMORpgs kwaye ndizimele ebomini. Ndingatsho ukuba ndijike i-180 ° kwaye ngoku ndingumntu okwaziyo ukusondela kwabanye, ndiphume kwaye ndibambe imini kwaye ndiphile ubomi. Kwaye ndicinga ukuba yinto enokuthi inikwe i-nofap. Uya kukwazi nje ukwenza indoda kwaye ungoyiki izinto zemihla ngemihla. Uya kuziva ukhululekile ngakumbi kulusu lwakho.
Ezinye izibonelelo endiziqapheleyo (sele zingekapheli inyanga yokuqala):
- Irhashalala yobuso bam iphantse yaphela.
- Andinangxaki kangako yokuphuma ebhedini kusasa.
- inkungu yobuchopho iphelile
- ukudinwa kancinci jikelele.
- ungabinamdla wokwenza "umsebenzi" izinto. Ndiyakwazi ukwenza izinto, kwaye ndizive ndonwabile emva koko. Ndandisoloko ndinengxaki yokuqalisa into.
- Ndiyakholelwa ukuba indincedile kwingqwalasela yam yokusilela, kodwa andiqinisekanga nge-100%.
izinto ozuza kuzo emva kosuku1: IXESHA ELININGI EZANDLENI ZAKHO, I-PMO YINKCIKO YEXESHA!
Yintoni enye endinokuyithetha ? Bendihlala ndikhangela le subreddit kakhulu ngeentsuku zokuqala ezingama-30 zomkhondo wam wangoku. Ndikhumbula omnye umfana ethumela kanye emva kokuba ebuyele, echaza zonke iimvakalelo zakhe kunye nendlela awayeziva ngayo ngela xesha. Eso sithuba sinye sandinika amandla amaninzi. Nanini na xa iminqweno yomelele kwaye ndiphantse ndanikezela, ndiye ndicinge ngeso sithuba, ndichaza iimvakalelo zokusilela emva kokuphinda ndibuyele. Oko kwandisindisa amaxesha amaninzi, kuba ingqondo yam yayiza kuba nomfanekiso wam, ndiziva njengekaka, kwaye ibiya kuba bubudenge ngokwenene ukunikezela. Lo mzuzu uneempembelelo, uyeka ukucinga kakuhle. Zama ukugcina iinjongo zakho emehlweni, rhoqo!
Andazi ngenene ukuba ndithini enye into. Zigcine uxakekile, ube nemveliso, ungachithi ixesha elininzi phambi kwePC (yazi imida yakho!). Akufanele uyeke ukwenza izinto zePC, kodwa ukuba uhleli phambi kwePC kwaye uqaphele isibongozo emva kwethuba, mhlawumbi uchithe ixesha elininzi kwiPC haha. Iinketho ezintathu onokuthi uzenze ukuba oku kuyenzeka:
1: Thatha ishawa ebandayo
2:Nxiba uphume endlini uyobethwa ngumoya. Izibongozo zihlala zihamba ngokukhawuleza xa ungaphandle kwendlu yakho.
3: Nxibelelana. Hlangana nomntu, uhlale nabanye abantu.
Ke ewe, ndicinga ukuba le yingxelo yam ye-90days 😉 qhubekani ninjalo bafana, cima iphonografi yakho, ndoda!
Ndixolele ngayo nayiphi na igrama okanye iimpazamo zopelo. IsiNgesi asilolwimi lwam lokuqala, kodwa ndicinga ukuba ndenze umsebenzi olungileyo kwesi sincoko haha.
LINK - Nantsi ingxelo yam yeentsuku ezingama-90. Inkwenkwezi eluhlaza icocekile 🙂
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