Ndifuna ukuthi enkosi ngokuthatha ixesha lokufunda le post. Ndiyazi ukuba kuninzi lwethu siphendukela kule ndawo kunye nabanye abafana nayo ngenkxaso kwaye sinethemba lokuba siyakoyisa into eninzi kuthi ibe ngumqobo omkhulu ebomini (kwaye kwabanye abafana nam, owona mqobo mkhulu esakha sawenza. ubuso) kwaye ngoku ndiguqukela kuni nonke ukuze ndifumane uncedo kunye nokwabelana ngenxalenye yebali lam ngethemba lokuba linokunceda umntu okhoyo.
Ndineminyaka eyi-33 ubudala, ndibe likhoboka le-porn ukususela ekubeni ndaqala ukwaziswa kuyo ngama-mags ndisemncinane kakhulu malunga ne-8 iminyaka, iifilimu ze-porn malunga ne-11 kwaye ndadlulela kwi-intanethi ye-intanethi malunga ne-13. ukukhuliswa okunenkathazo kunye ne-masturbation kunye ne-porn yayisisiphazamiso sendalo kwiingxaki zam, ndandixhomekeke kakhulu. Andizange ndiyazi ukuba kutheni ndineengxaki ze-erectile dysfunction, ukususela kwixesha lokuqala ndazama nentombazana eneminyaka eyi-15 ubudala, ndandiqhwala ngokupheleleyo.
Ukutyhubela iminyaka amaxwebhu amaninzi, ii-urologists, i-endocrinologists, iingcali zonyango kunye neengcali zengqondo ziya kundixelela ukuba i-ED yam ibangelwa luxhala kunye okanye nokudakumba. Kwaloo gqirha manye angaqhubeka nokundixelela ukuba ukuphulula amalungu esini kuyinto eqhelekileyo kwaye kusempilweni ukuphulula amalungu esini, ngakumbi ukuba awubelani ngesondo. Ndineenzame ezingenakubalwa ukusukela kwixesha lam lokuqala ndizama, ngethemba lokuba ndingaloyisa “ixhala” lam nokuba ndinobudlelwane obuzinzileyo ungaqonda ukuba andizukuba novalo, khange ndizive ndinovalo kodwa bendithatha docs igama layo, kodwa i-ED yahlala. Bendirhalela ukukhangela ukuba kuqhubeka ntoni ngam, ndirhalela ukuphelisa lo mzabalazo. Ndeyiseka kwelokuba imele ibe yingxaki esemzimbeni okanye yamadlala. ndizamile ngayo yonke into endiyicingelayo.
Andizukuzama nokuzama ukudwelisa zonke izinto eziphambeneyo endizame ukuzama ukunyanga i-ED kodwa ndiza kuthetha ngento enye endiyenzileyo kwaye esi sesona sizathu sikhulu sokuba ndibhale esi sithuba ngethemba lokuba Ndiyakwazi ukuzolisa ingqondo yam ngandlela thile kwaye ndifumane intuthuzelo kunye nethemba lokuba into endiyenzileyo ayizukuba nefuthe elibi kwinkqubela phambili yam yexesha elide ngaphandle kwe-PMO. Kwiminyaka emi-2 eyadlulayo ndandibukele inkqubo yeTV ebizwa ngokuba yiStrangSex – yayiyingxelo yomntwana (uDylan) owayenamava e-ed from a blocked artery eya kwincanca yakhe. Wenziwa utyando olwathi lwahlengahlengisa ukuhamba kwegazi kwilungu lobudoda ukusuka komnye umthambo ukuya kumthambo owahlukileyo (i-penile revascularization). Ndagqibela ngokubhabha ndisiya eCarlifonia ukuya kwalaa gqirha wayendwendwelwe nguDylan, uGqr Irwin Goldstein. Emva kovavanyo oluninzi uGqr Goldstein uye wagqiba kwelokuba nam kufuneka ndibe nomthambo ovalekileyo, waqala wandibeka kunyango lwehomoni kwaye emva kokuqhubekeka kweqanda wanyanzelisa ukuba ndenze utyando, ndenza njalo.
Lutyando oluhle olundilisekileyo, iiyure ezi-6 zokusika umthambo esiswini sam kunye nolunye utyando olungene ngamasende kwinto echazwa nguDr. Goldstein njengoko "Ukuguqula incanca yakho ngaphakathi ngaphandle". Uqhaqho luhambe ngokugqibeleleyo yiloo nto uGqr G. wayeyithethile, ngoku ngumdlalo nje wokulinda kwaye kufuneka ndibone ukuba ukumiswa kwam kubuyela kwimeko yesiqhelo phakathi kweenyanga ezi-6 ukuya kunyaka omnye. Ndalinda ngomonde, kodwa akukho nto kwaye eneneni, ndaziva ngathi ndifumana ixesha elinzima ngakumbi ngokumiswa kwam !! Ndixakiwe kengoku mna, ndenze ntoni?? Kwinto ebekumele ukuba ipholise ingxaki yam, ndiye ndavumela ugqirha wotyando wandisika ndade ndaba worse ke ngoku ngaphambili!!
Ndaye ndabhabha ndaya eziofisini zakhe emva konyaka ndamxelela indlela endiziva ngayo ngathi andikho mva njengoko ndandiqhele ukwenza kwaye ndiziva ngathi kunzima ngakumbi ngaphambi kokuba ndifike kunye nokuvuka. Uye wandenza uvavanyo olungakumbi kwaye wandixelela la mazwi "Ndiyitshintsha indlela oxilonga ngayo ukuba ibe kukungalingani kwehomoni kwaye hayi ukungahambi kakuhle kwegazi," ndaphelelwa ngamazwi kula mazwi. Umntu angandiqinisekisa njani ukuba kufuneka ndenze olu tyando kwaye ndibeke kakhulu emgceni kwaye andixelele ukuba ngaphandle kotyando endingasoze ndibe yinto eqhelekileyo, hlala apha kwaye undixelele ukuba "uyatshintsha ukuxilongwa kwam" !!! Ndandisoyika, ndafikelela kwinqanaba lokuba ndizive ndenze impazamo enkulu kangangokuba andinakukwazi ukuyiphelisa. Utyando lwenze okwahlukileyo, ngoku yinto endiza kubambelela kuyo ubomi bam bonke.
Ndaziva ndidandathekile kakhulu, iingcinga zokuzibulala ngoku zaziyinxalenye yobomi bemihla ngemihla. Ekuphela kombuzo yayikukuba, yeyiphi indlela endandiza kugqiba ngayo ukuphelisa ubomi bam. Andizange ndiyibone injongo yokwandisa ubomi bam obunzima kwaye lixesha lokuba ndibuphelise. Ngoku, andizigqali njengomntu odandathekileyo. Enyanisweni ndinentsikelelo ezininzi endizibulela kakhulu ebomini bam. Ndandingathandi ukuba nezi ngcinga zoyikekayo. Khange ndibaxelele abantu ngabo (omnye ke umntakwethu). Bendingajongi ngqalelo kakade. Ndandikufuna ngokwenene ukufa kuba ngelo xesha ndandingasaliboni ithemba lokulwa.
Andikhumbuli ukuba yenzeke njani, okanye kufuneka ndiyifumene kuGoogle, kodwa ngenye imini ndadibana ne "yourbrainonporn". Ndibukele ividiyo emva kokuba ividiyo ifunde amabali amaninzi kwaye yakhawuleza yaqala ukucofa, Kwenzeka njani ukuba ndibe sisidenge? Imean iphantse yabonakala ngathi ngoku ndijonge ngasemva ukuba yayilapho ngasemva kwengqondo yam njengokusebeza okuncinci okuye kwarhaxwa yiyo yonke ingxolo yokubhideka - impendulo yi-porn !!! Kuluyolo lwam oku kundizisela iintlungu ezingaka. Ndagqiba ekubeni ndizinikele kumsebenzi we-NOFAP. Ndenze ngaphezulu kweentsuku ezingama-45 ngexesha elinye. Yayiyimpumelelo gqitha le kuba eyona nto yayinde ndakha ndayenza ngaphambili yayiyiveki.
Ndaziva ngathi izinto ziyaqala ukuhlangana: ndawugqiba umzabalazo wam omkhulu wenkungu yengqondo, bendinenkuni yasekuseni okokuqala ngqa kwishumi leminyaka, bendilele ecaleni kwentombi yam ngelo xesha kwaye bendiza kuba nzima ndingqengqe apho ecaleni kwayo. yena. Ndandichulumancile ngolu tshintsho kangangokuba kwakuza kufuneka ndiyeke ndiphefumle ndize ndiziqinisekise ukuba andiphuphi ukuba ezo zinto zenzekile ngokwenene. Ndiye ndagqiba ekubeni ndiphinde ndibuyele emva kwaphinda kwalandela enye. Udandatheko lwam lwabuya ngamandla. Inkungu yam yayingathi iqatsela. Ndandijongene neengxaki zam kwaye ndazifumana ndiphendukela kwi-vice yam yakudala yokunciphisa uxinzelelo. Ndandizicaphukela. Ibindicaphukela into yokuba ndibuyele kwinto endiyithiyileyo. Ndifumene isibindi sokuqhubeka nomlo kwaye ndomelela kwaye ndomelele kunangaphambili.
Ngoku ndikwelona khondo lam lide leentsuku ezingama-60. Ndikwi-flatline yokwenyani, nangona kunjalo, ndiyibonile enye into endinokuthi ndiyithathele ingqalelo ukuphuculwa okumangalisayo. Ndikhe ndaneenkuni zasekuseni izihlandlo ezimbalwa ebezichukumisa kakhulu. Ndinamaxesha ambalwa ndivavanya i-erections yam (ngaphandle kwe-porn) kwaye ndafumanisa ukuba i-rock hard kwaye ikwazi ukuyigcina naxa nditshintsha indawo yam ukusuka ekubekeni phantsi ukuya kuma ukuhlala phantsi. Ngaphambili kwakungenakwenzeka ukuba ndiyenze le nto. Ndiyazi ukuba ndikwi-flatline kwaye andinamnqweno wesini ngoku kodwa ndiziva ngakumbi nangakumbi imihla ngemihla ukuba ndingumntu owonwabileyo, ophumayo ngakumbi. Ndiyakuthanda ukukwazi ukucinga ngokucacileyo kwakhona kwaye akufuneki ndilwe nenkungu yobuchopho, njengoko bendinzile iminyaka emininzi. Izinto zicace ngakumbi kwakhona. Ndisafumana ezo ngcinga zithandabuzayo entlokweni yam rhoqo ngexhala lokuba ndenze into ngotyando olwenze umonakalo wexesha elide, kodwa ke ndiyabona ukuba ndenze inkqubela phambili kwaye ndizama ukuziqinisekisa ukuba ndisemzimbeni. kuhle, ukuba ukuphinda kufakwe iintambo kuya kubonakala kuyindlela yokuphilisa kwaye utyando alunakuba neziphumo ezibi kum kwaye mhlawumbi luzenze ngcono izinto.
Ndiyathemba ukuba ukuba uye wathatha ixesha lokuyifunda le, ukuze uthabathe kuyo ukuba sonke sibe nobunzima bokuboyisa ngolu hambo. Ukuba ngamnye wethu ubandezeleka ngeendlela zakhe, ukuba eneneni asodwa kwaye kunye sisebenza njengengqondo enye ukuzisa ulwazi kulo bhubhani. Ndiyanibulela nonke enithe nabelana ngamabali enu. Ndiyazifunda kwaye ziyandomeleza kwaye ndikhuthaza nabani na kuni okhe wacinga ngokwabelana kodwa ongekawathathi amanyathelo okwabelana ngebali lakho ukuba enze njalo. Ukuba akunjalo ngenxa yakho ke ngenxa yabanye abanokuthi bazuze ngokuva ibali elifanayo nelabo. Ndiya kuzifunda ngovuyo kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kuthatha into kuye ngamnye wenu kunye namabali enu njengoko ndiye ndawasusa kwabanye abaninzi kunye namava abaye babelana ngawo.
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