Amabali okubuyisela kwakhona ku-ED 3 yinxalenye yoluhlu lwamaphepha ayi-8 aneeakhawunti ezimfutshane.
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Waziva Uthanda Ukunikezela Isibuyekezo
Hee wonke umntu, ndicinga nje ukuba ndiza kulahla ukunika uhlaziyo. Ewe, kwakukufutshane neenyanga ze-4 ezingenayo i-PMO kum, kwaye sinomqondo ogqithiseleyo kunene ndive ngathi ndifanele ndifumane uvavanyo ukuze ndibone ukuba ndiyitshintshile kangakanani ngeli xesha elingenayo i-PMO. Ngoko, ngobusuku bokugqibela ndagqiba ekubeni ndihlambulule ngaphambi kokulala. I-caveat ebalulekileyo apha kukuba andisetyenzisanga noonobumba (ngokucacileyo) okanye nayiphi na into engafaniyo. Isandla sam nje, kunye nemivimbo elula kakhulu kuloo nto. Akukho nanye kulabo bantu abanomdla obuninzi abasebenzisa i-masturbate usetyenziso.
Inqaku lolu vavanyo yayikukubona ukuba ndingaba nzima ngaphandle kwalo naluphi na uhlobo lwangaphandle ngaphandle koluvo. Umzuzwana ndibuyile ukuqala kwam kolu hambo, ndafunda iingxelo ezininzi apho isalathiso esihle sokubuyiswa kwakhona yayikukukwazi ukuphulula amalungu esini ngokuziva nje kwesandla sakho. Ewe, bendimangalisiwe KAKHULU ukuzama oku. Kwakunzima emva kwemizuzwana emi-2, kwaye ndithetha ukuba kunzima ngokwenene. Khange ndihlale xesha lide kule seshini. Ndandinethemba lokuphendula nje kwaphela ngaphandle koonobumba okanye ubumnandi, kwaye wow ndicinga ukuba impendulo ibininzi kakhulu.
Andizange ndiqiniseke, nangona kunjalo, kuba andizange ndihlaziye malunga neenyanga ezili-4. Mhlawumbi andizange ndihlale ixesha elide kuba khange ndiyenze okwethutyana. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuzama kwakhona namhlanje, ngeli xesha ndisebenzisa ikhondom. Ngaphambi kokufikelela kwiziphumo, kufuneka nditsho ukuba bekungekho ziphumo "zisukelayo" ezivela phezolo. Akukho mnqweno wokujonga iphonografi okanye ukucinga nge-porn namhlanje. Ewe, iseshoni yanamhlanje yayikhawuleza nje ngeentsuku zangoku. Ndibeka ikhondom ngaphandle kweengxaki, yayinzima kakhulu ngaphambili nasemva kwayo, kwaye bendingenangxaki yokugqibezela ikhondom. Ukuzivocavoca kwe-kegel ngokuqinisekileyo kuyahlawula kwakhona. Ndabona ukuqina okunzima kakhulu kanye kwi-bat, kwaye kwakulula kakhulu ukuzimisa kwindawo ye-orgasm kunaleyo ndiyikhumbulayo ngaphambili. Oko kuya kukonwabisa amantombazana exesha elizayo
Ndifuna ngokwenene uhlobo oluthile lokuzithemba lokuba ndiza kuba ngcono ngaphambi kokuba ndilale kunye nenenekazi kwakhona, kwaye ndicinga ukuba oku ngokuqinisekileyo kundinike lonto. Oku ndikubala njengempumelelo, kwaye kuhlala kukhethwa ukuba nenkumbulo yakho yamva nje ibe yimpumelelo kunokuba ungaphumeleli. Andizukuzonwabisa ngokuhlaziya amalungu esini kwakhona, eneneni ndiceba ukumisa kwakhona okwethutyana (mhlawumbi inyanga). Ndiza kuzijonga ngononophelo kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezizayo ngayo nayiphi na into enokubangela ukuba ubukele iphonografi. Ukuza kuthi ga ngoku andinanto ilungileyo.
Mhlawumbi ubuchopho bam buziphilisile kodwa ngekhe ndazi ngokuqinisekileyo kude kube yintombi yam elandelayo. Ndihamba ngenyanga ngoko andikhangeli imihla ngalo mzuzu njengoko ndigqithile kuyo yonke into yesondo engaqhelekanga (sesinye isihloko) kwaye andifuni ukuqala ubudlelwane ndize ndibulahle ngokushiya imeko. Ndithetha nentombazana ehlala kufutshane nalapho ndiya kuhlala khona, ngethemba lokuba ndiza kuba nakho ukuqala uvavanyo lokugqibela kungekudala ndinayo le nto ithi, uloyiko lwam lutshintshile ekubeni ndingakwazi ukufumana ulwakhiwo lungahlali ixesha elide konele.
Ndiza kuthi ndaphiliswa ngoku. Ukuhamba iintsuku ezingama-30 ngaphandle kwe-P & M (indlela ebuyayo xa ubona ezithuba zangaphambili) kodwa ngoku M rhoqo, mhlawumbi kube kanye ngeveki, kodwa ungabukeli iphonografi. Iphonografi ngumbulali wokwenene apha IMHO. Kwakhona, ukuba iikhondom zibulala ii-erections zakho, qiniseka ukuba unazo ezifanelekileyo! Eyam yayixinene kakhulu kwaye yayinqamla ukuhanjiswa kwegazi, ke ndafumana ezikhulu. Ukuba iziva iqinile, inokuba kunjalo!
Ndicinga ukuba iiveki ezi-6 hayi i-P & M kwaye emva koko M kube kanye ngeveki kufuneka ahlele uninzi lwamadoda ngokuchanekileyo!
Iimpawu zokuphuculwa kwi-PIED?
Hee bafo ke bendisokola ne-PIED okwethutyana ngoku. Intombazana yokugqibela endandinayo ndandinokuyifumana kuphela xa indivuthela kodwa okwangoku ndibeka ikhondom kuyo yayiya kuhamba nje. Ndingu 22 ngoku kwaye ndibukele isantya esiphakamileyo se-intanethi ukusukela ndandineminyaka eyi-13. Okwangoku ngomhla wama-56 we-hardmode okwangoku, nangona bendikhe ndabona umbono wefoto yabantu abahamba ze amaxesha ambalwa kolu hambo. Kutshanje bendifumana ezinye zeebhoners ezinzima endakha ndazifumana ukusukela kwisikolo sam sokuqala samabanga aphakamileyo. Ngaba umntu unokundixelela ukuba lo ngumqondiso wokuba i-PIED yam inyangeka kancinci? Ndingathanda ukuva ngamabali akho kunye namava.
Ku philiswa! Kodwa umcimbi omtsha
Kulungile ke ndiyaphiliswa kwaye ndabelana ngesondo rhoqo kodwa umba wam omtsha kukuchama kwangaphambi kwexesha, ndihlala malunga nemizuzu engama-2-3 kwaye mhlawumbi isuntswana ngakumbi ukuba ndalala kwakhona njengesiqingatha seyure kamva, bendizibuza ukuba ingaba le izakuhamba okanye mna Kufuneka wenze into?
Ndiphulukene nokungena kwi-120, ndicinge ukuba ndiza kuyitsibela kude kube yi-150 kodwa kwenzeka into ephawuleka kutshanje. Imvelaphi: Ndingu-40 kwaye ndenza i-nofap ukunyanga i-ED yam. Ndandihlala ndedwa ndedwa ndinamava amancinci ezesondo. Ndine-SO okwethutyana kwaye sihlala sisebenzisa ii-ED meds ukuze silale. Emva kweentsuku ezingama-90 andizange ndiqalise kwakhona ukuze ndiqhubeke.
Usenayo i-ED kodwa i-SO yam ikwazile ukundisusa ngokulula ngolunye usuku. Oku kwakungakaze kwenzeke ngaphambili, intombazana indikhupha ngesandla, ke ndiyibiza ngokuba yinkqubela phambili. Ndiyaqala nokufumana ulungelelwaniso lwesiqingatha, akukho zilungiso zizeleyo kodwa.
Njalo, hlala apho, bazalwana, kuba lula xa uhamba, kodwa kufuneka sihlale siphapheme!
Usuku 10: Isikhumbuzo saseWashington
Ndonwabe nyani ngeziphumo, andikaze ndimbone umntu wam omncinci omelele kwaye esempilweni. Hlala womelele kuya kuba ngcono!
Iiveki ezisixhenxe namhlanje nge-no mb okanye p. Iiveki ezintlanu ukuya, Ndiyi-sooo, ngokukrakra ngokwesini kuyandicaphukisa. Ndibona iziphumo zokubulala. Le nkqubo iyasebenza ngokwenene. Into ekufuneka ndiyenzile kukucinga ngesenzo sesondo kwaye kusiba nzima… kunzima ngakumbi kunangaphambili ... kwaye oko yayikukuvuselelwa komzimba. Iziphumo zilungile kakhulu, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba ndiza kuyenza ibe sisiphelo kwaye andizukuphinda ndibuyele umva, kodwa kuyacaphukisa ukungakwazi ukwenza i-orgasms. Ngokunyaniseka le nkqubo iba nzima njengoko ixesha lihamba, ubona ngcono iziphumo ezingcono veki nganye. Kwaye ukuba ndinazo ezi ziphumo zihle ngoku cinga ukuba kuya kuba njani xa ndigqiba inyanga yonke ye-3, kodwa ukukhathazeka kuyakha kwaye kwakha. Inxalenye enzima ayihlali kude ne-porn ayisiyiyo imbing. Ndiyazi ukuba esi sithuba sinesizathu esibi kodwa bendifuna indawo apho ndingathumela khona ukukhathazeka- haha. Gcina abantu abomeleleyo, ndiza kunibona kwelinye icala.
Ukuphulula amalungu esini ayilo bali lipheleleyo, okanye elona candelo likhulu ebalini. Ndingakulungela ukubheja imali uninzi lwamadoda ophulula amalungu esini kwi-porn, kunokuba ngaphandle kwalo. Susa iphonografi kunye nokuhamba rhoqo. Ndiye Kwakhona sifika kwisigqibo sokuba ukuphosa i-masturbating ngaphandle kwe-pornography akuyona nto inobungozi kwi-drive drive. I-porn kunye ne-masturbation engumbulali we-libido.
(Ubudala 20) 17-20 yeyona ininzi. Nangona bekukho nje amakhulu amathathu eevoti ngaphandle kwento enokuba ngamashumi asibhozo amawaka dibanisa. Nokuba zimbini nje iivoti. Ndiya kuhlala ndothukile.
Ukususela ekubeni ndingu 15 ukuya kwiinyanga ezi-3 ezedlulileyo (xa ndafumanisa i-nofap) ndacinga ukuba ngumntu kuphela ohlangabezana nale ngxaki. Ndiyazi thats kinda nieve ukuvumela ukuba ndiyikholelwe loo nto, kodwa umntwana okwishumi elivisayo onengxaki yokungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile luhlobo olungaqondakaliyo. Ndonwabile kwaye ndinombulelo kuba ndafumanisa i-nofap kuba ndakwazi ukuzikhupha kwi-porno eyandenza ukuba ndihlupheke iminyaka eyi-5. Yinto entle ukuba nayo yonke le nkxaso apha.
Njengomntu ophazamisa ikhefu phakathi kwexesha le-intanethi ye-intanethi, kunye nexesha eligqithiseleyo lezononophelo, ndinokuxelela ukuba andinayo ingxaki kubandakanye ngesini kunye nokuhlaziya i-masturbation kwimiba yam enkundleni ukuya ekuqaleni kwee-90. Xa ndiqala ukungena kwi-intanethi yevidiyo ye-intanethi ngasekupheleni kweminyaka engama-XNUMX ukuya kwii-oughts, yilapho i-dysfunction yam iphuhlisiwe. Ukuchithwa kwexesha elidlulileyo kwakuyinkathazo enkulu: andisayi kuphinda ndenze i-orgasm kwisini somlomo kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndibe nobunzima nge-orgasm kwisini. Ndazifumana ndifanele ndihlaziye emva kokulala ngesondo nomfazi wam ngenxa yokuba andinakukwazi ukuphuma ngenye indlela, kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ukukhwabanisa akuzange kusebenze konke oko. Kwixesha langaphambi kwe-intanethi, xa ndandineengcinga zengqondo yam kuphela, ukuphulula amalungu esini yinto endandiyenza rhoqo, kodwa isantya esiphakamileyo se-porn satshintsha yonke into-bendisenza ngaphezulu kwesihlandlo esinye ngosuku. Ukuba andivanga ngathi ukuphulula amalungu esini, kodwa ndifuna ukukhulula uxinzelelo okanye ukulala, iphonografi yandinceda ndavuka. Ndade ndafumanisa ukuba ndibukele iphonografi ngaphambi kokuba ndilale nomfazi wam, ukuze ndivuke kuba engenakukwazi ukundenzela yona, kwakhona. Nje ukuba ndiphelise iphonografi kwi-equation (engakhange ibe lula), isantya sam sokuphinga amalungu esini saye sawela kwaye ubomi bam besini baphucuka.
Ndingatsho ngaphandle kwamathandabuzo ukuba inyange iphonografi yam ibangele i-ED. Ndineentsuku ezimbalwa ze-90, kwaye ndaya ngaphaya kwe-100 ngoku kutshanje. Ndingalala nomfazi wam ngaphezu kwesinye kanye ngokuhlwa kwaye andinangxaki yokufumana ulwakhiwo. Ndineminyaka yeengxaki ze-ED ngaphambi kokufumana indawo ye-YBOP. Ndikule nto ngaphezulu kweminyaka emi-2 ngoku. Unyaka wam wokuqala wawunzima, kwaye andizange ndiphiliswe ngokupheleleyo kwi-ED kude kube kulo nyaka odlulileyo.
Ngokwenyani bendinegqirha leCialis kwiminyaka embalwa eyadlulayo kwaye bendiyithiyile ukuyisebenzisa. Nokuba ukuya kugqirha kundenze ndaziva ndineentloni kuba ngaphakathi ndicinga ukuba ndiyazi ukuba yayingu-PMO obangela ingxaki, kwaye oku kwakungaphambi kokuba ndibone i-yourbrainonporn.com.
Molweni nonke,
Ndingathanda ukuhlaziya imeko yam, njengoko ndicinga ukuba kunokukhuthaza abanye benu. Ndiza kuzama ukuyigcina njengento emfutshane kwaye kulula ukuyifunda ngokusemandleni.
Ndifumene le ntambo ngomhla we-3 kaJanuwari-umhla weposti yam yokuqala-kwaye ngalo mhla ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiza kuya okungenani iinyanga ze-2 ngaphandle kwe-porn okanye i-masturbation. Ndenze njalo; Iinyanga ezi-2 ezinesiqingatha zichanekile.
Ngeli xesha i-libido yam yayihluka kakhulu. Uninzi lwexesha lalingekho, kodwa emva koko, zonke iiveki ze-3 okanye njalo, yayiza kuphakama iye kumanqanaba angazange abonwe kwaye ndiziva ndihle kakhulu (isenzo sokuhamba ze ndihlambe siyakundifumana HUGELY nzima). Oku kuya kuhlala iintsuku ezingama-3-4, emva koko libido ibuyele kwi-zero. Ndikhumbula ukuba lusizi koku. "Iyintoni inqaku lokuyeka, ukuba i-libido yam iphantsi njenge-90% yexesha?"
Emva kweli thuba ndibuyele ekhaya (bendisebenza phesheya), oko kwakuthetha ukubuyela kwintombi yam. Kwaye ezinye izinto zibuya nayo-imvakalelo yendoda yam yokuvavanywa, uxinzelelo kunye neengcinga zokuzibulala ngaphambi kokudibana nayo, njl.
Umqondiso wokuqala wokutshintsha kwakuyi-libido. Ukusuka ekubeni phezulu kwiiveki ze-3, yaqala ukuphakama kwiveki nganye.
Ke nge-2 ka-Epreli, oko kukuthi, kwiiveki ezimbini ezidlulileyo, kwenzeka eyona nto imangalisayo. Ngokuchasene nolindelo lwam, kwaye ndilandele ingokuhlwa kwamathandabuzo kunye neengcinga ezingalunganga nangona bendikunye naye), mna nentombi yam saba ... Ndithetha ukungena. Emva kokukhohlisa ebhedini ipenisi yam yayinzima. Wayekwazi ukuyifaka kancinci, kodwa akuba eyenzile kwaye waqala ukushukuma esenyuka, kwakumangalisa - ndaye ndachongwa kumzuzwana we-2. Kuni nonke eningakhange niyizame, ndiyakuxelela ukuba ukubetha kwelungu lobufazi kunokuba yinto entle kakhulu. Kufana nokuba yayakhelwe ukwenza ipeni ejaculate.
Emva koko le libido yam iqhubekile ephakamileyo ixesha elide. Kwakuqhelana neveki ephelileyo, kwaye ngoLwesihlanu ndadibana nentombi yam, kwaye kwakhona sakwazi ukufumana isondo eyanelisayo. Ikhethiwe kabini, okwesibini ngenxa yokungena. Ngentsasa elandelayo, ndandinomnye wemithi enkulu endiyifunayo. I-libido eqinile kunye neenkuni ezinamandla ziye zaqhubeka kulo lonke iveki kwaye ngeli xesha.
Le ibali kude kube ngoku. Nazi ezi ngongoma eziphambili:
1) Iinyanga ze-2 ezingekho zoononophala kwaye akukho masturbation ibonakala iyimfuneko ukuze ibuyiswe. Kwakunzima ngamanye amaxesha, kodwa ndaziqonda ngokwenza oko. Ndandixakeke ngezinye izinto ngelo xesha, nto leyo eyandinceda ingqondo yam ingabi neengcamango.
2) Ngeli xesha, i-libido ibonakalise amaxabiso agqithisileyo, ukusuka kwisibhakabhaka esirhabaxa ukuya kungabikho. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba le yinto eqhelekileyo kwaye yindlela nje yokuphendula komzimba kukungabikho ngesiquphe kweP & M yokuvuselela.
3) Emva kwexesha leenyanga ezi-2, i-libido ibonakala ibuyela esiqhelweni, ephezulu kakhulu, okanye iphakame kakhulu ixesha elininzi. Utshintsho olukhulu endiluphawulileyo kukuba, enkosi kumgaqo-nkqubo we-porn, uninzi lwamantombazana esitratweni akhangeleka enomtsalane kwaye andenza ndafuna ukulala nabo. Oku akwenzekanga ngokungathi ndijonga iphonografi. Kwaye ndiziva ndikulungele ukwamkela kwaye ndonwabele umzimba wentombazana “oqhelekileyo,” kwaye ndonwabe ngakumbi nangowam umzimba.
I-4) Emva kwexesha leenyanga ezi-2, ndaphinda ndabuya kwakhona kwi-porn kanye, kwaye ngoku ndinenjongo yokuqhubeka ixesha elide ngaphandle kwayo. Ngokuphathelele ukuphulula amalungu esini, bendikwenza oko kube kanye ngeveki. Ndicinga ukuba oku akuyongozi, kunokuba luncedo "ukugcina umatshini usebenza"; nangona ndingahamba ngomjikelo omde, yithi rhoqo kwi-2 okanye kwiiveki ze-3. Xa ndiphinga i-masturbate, ndisebenzisa ukukhanya okulula ukuze ndingayifuni i-penis.
I-5) Ukuba nentombazana eyayixhasa inkxaso kwathatha isigqibo; kuluncedo kakhulu ukuba umntu aphumelele kwaye, ukuba zikhona iimpawu zoxinzelelo, njengoko bekunjalo kwimeko yam, ndiyakholelwa ukuba kubalulekile. Wayenza yacaca ukuba uzokuma ecaleni kwam kwaye akandifakanga kwanto. Kwaye uhlala yedwa (abazali bakhe bahamba ixesha elininzi), oko kuthetha ukuba singayisebenzisa indawo yakhe kuhambo lwethu lwasebusuku lokufumanisa kwabanye abantu ngesondo, ngaphandle kobunzima.
Ke ithini inqaku lam?
Injongo yam kukuba kunokwenzeka, bafana. Andicingi ukuba ndiphelelwe lihlathi okwangoku, kodwa ndiziva ndibhetele kakhulu. Iresiphi ifumana intombazana, iyeka ukuphulula amalungu esini iinyanga ezi-2 emva koko uyenza rhoqo ngoku (rhoqo kuya kuxhomekeka emntwini, injongo kukugcina i-libido yakho iphakamileyo), kwaye uhlale kude ne-porn, ukuba kunokwenzeka ngonaphakade. Ngonaphakade. Yonke into eyenzayo iyingozi.
UNGAYENZA.
Ndikumhla wama-70. Ukuba ndizijonga ngokwam ngokunyanisekileyo, kufuneka ndivume ukuba ukuqala kwam le nkqubo bendinomdla kakhulu ekukwazini "ukwenza" kwakhona. Ndifuna i-libido yam ebuyayo, kwaye ndifuna ukulungela isenzo.
Kodwa namhlanje, ngaphezulu kweenyanga ezimbini kamva, ndifumanisa ukuba i-libido yam ayinamsindo.
Ndiziva ndibuhlungu gqitha, kuba kukho inxalenye encinci yam enomdla ngokuhlala ndicinga ngayo yonke into edibeneyo ndiyifumana, kwaye iqhutyelwa ngolo hlobo olukhethekileyo loononophelo olwamthandayo, kwaye ndandipha, ndisa, ndiva Ndandithanda ukuba ndiyanyunyibilika ngenxa yokuba ndandidla.
Ndiyabona ngoku – konke oko bekungusana. Kukusana ukuba uxakeke kakhulu kukukhululwa ngokwesondo. Emva koko, yonke iminqweno iyanyamalala, kwaye ukuba awumthandi umntu onaye, uyakuqaphela kwangoko inkohliso emehlweni abo, kuba uthuli lwengelosi oluye lwafefa kuyo yonke into ngezigidi zeminyaka yendaleko luya… .POOF… kwaye ujonge kubomi bokwenyani, obungasoloko buhle kwaye bumnandi.
Kuni batyhololi abancinci, "uthuli lwengelosi" sisiyobisi, kwaye ndicinga ukuba licebo elilungileyo ukucinga ngokuvuka njengesiyobisi. Kungenxa yokuba iyayigqwetha inyaniso. Kwaye siqala ngokutsha sonke saba ngamakhoboka kuyo. Kwaye wayehlala kuyo. Kwaye ke izinto ezithile ezisisiseko zomzimba ziye zangqubeka, yiyo loo nto silapha sincokola kule ndawo.
Kodwa inqaku leli, ndiziva ngathi amanqanaba am ngokuhlwa aphume okokuqala ebomini bam, kwaye ubudlelwane bam nendalo yam yesini buyatshintsha bube ngcono. “Hee, isini besingafanelanga ukuba siginyise bonke ubuntu bam! Yinxalenye yobomi! ”
Sukuba nexhala nangona kunjalo. Oomatshini bayabuya nokuba uyipansy njengam. Kwezi ntsuku, ngamanye amaxesha kuye kufuneke ndihlale emotweni okomzuzu okanye emibini xa ndifika ndaweni ithile kuba, ndilungile kancinci ukuba ndithathe amanyathelo. Olu hlobo lwento khange lwenzeke ixesha elide. Ezinye izinto ziyenzeka ngoku, kodwa andizukubhala ngayo yonke loo nto, kuba ayisiyiyo eyona nto ibalulekileyo emhlabeni.
Hlala apho kwaye uya kufika apho. Qaphela malunga nayo. Ndiyathemba ukuba nawe uya kuyifumana ibhalansi entsha, kuba uya kuziva womelele, kwaye uzive ukhululekile xa uwedwa, kwaye uzilawula ngakumbi, kwaye, ndoda, loo nto imnandi kakhulu.
[Yongeza] Ndiyoluvo lokuba ixesha elide lokuziyeka liyindlela engcono yokuhamba. Ndenza uhlobo olungaqhelekanga lwento yokuqala yokuqalisa. Ndiya kwenza i-PMO okanye iMo malunga neentsuku ezimbalwa, ke uye kwiveki okanye ezimbini ngaphandle. Emuva nangaphandle unyaka okanye njalo. Ayibonanga phuculo kuyo yonke. Ndicinga ukuba inene kakhulu.
Andizange ndiqale ukuziva ngathi izinto zaziphilisa de ndayeka i-PMO ngokupheleleyo kwaye ndaya kwixesha elincinci. Emva kwenyanga okanye ndaqala ukuphawula utshintsho olulungileyo. Ngoku ndineenyanga ezimbini kwaye ndiye ndaphucula ngakumbi.
(Usuku 44) Yonke imihla, iintsasa zam zakusihlwa ziyaqina kwaye zomelele. Xa ndivuka, ndinxilile ngokusisiseko. Le yimvakalelo entsha ngokupheleleyo kum; Andizange ndizive ngale ndlela ngaphambili. Xa ndivuka izandla zam zikwi-autopilot ngandlela thile kodwa ndiyazilawula kwaye ndinqande ukuphulula amaphambili. Ngomhla we-40 Ndine-erection eyomeleleyo endinokukhumbula ukuba nayo ebomini bam. KWAKUKHULU !!! Ngelishwa, andinakukwazi ukumelana nomnqweno wam wokuhlambalaza, kwaye ndaya kwi-orgasm (akukho noonobumba bezobugcisa) Ukuphumla kwemini, kwaye ndaziva ukuba iihormones zam zidlala kabuhlungu neemvakalelo zam, nazo. Ndandinomusa kwaye ndonwabile ngomhla we-41, phantse ndidandathekile. Yimeko yengqondo endingazange ndibekho okoko ndaqala lo mceli mngeni, kodwa ngoku xa ndijonga emva ebomini bam xa ndandingu-PMOing ndandikuyo kakhulu. Umoya wam waxhoma usuku lwe-42 kwaye ndicinga ukuba ixesha lahamba nje ukusukela ngoko kuba namhlanje ngumhla we-44. Ndiphaphame ndilungiswa kwakhona namhlanje kwaye andinakukunceda ukuhleka ngokuvakalayo. Ndiziva ndonakele kakhulu, ubomi akufuneki bube lula, kodwa kunjalo kwaye isisombululo sasilapho phambi kwam lonke ixesha !!! I-DOH =)
[Iinkcukacha ezingaphezulu] Ndicinga ukuba ndisekwixesha lam eliphantsi, nangona ndiqala ukubona ukukhanya ekupheleni kwetonela. Ndizimisele nge-1000% ngokungasebenzisi iphonografi. Ngokunyaniseka, andinakuyenza loo nto kum ngoku, ndibone utshintsho olwenziweyo kukuyeka. Xa ndivuka kunye nolwakhiwo, bendifuna ukufumana ukukhutshwa. Andikhumbuli ndakhe ndalungiswa ndomelela, kwaye ndingazi ukuba ndenze ntoni ngayo. Njengoko ndiqhubeka nale ndlela ndicinga ukuba ndiza kufunda ukumelana nazo. Ndiyi-22, kwaye ndibukele iphonografi ukusukela nge-15, ke ngokusisiseko ukuba bendikhe ndabelana ngesondo. Kuyaphambana ukuba iindlela zam zomelele ngoku kunokuba bezikwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, kodwa ndiyakholelwa ngokwenene ukuba iphonografi yenza inani kwi-neurochemistry yam ngelixa ndikhula.
Ndiyazi ukuba ndiseseflethini ngenxa yokuba yile nto ndiyithandayo emzimbeni wam. Xa sele ndilungile, ndiza kuyazi. I-flatline yam yayinzima kwipenisi yam. Andicingi ukuba ndinokulungiswa kude kube ngumhla we-30 okanye njalo, emva koko kube kusasa kuphela. Iiveki zokuqala ze-2-3 zancipha kodwa andikhange ndiyihoye kakhulu. Ukuba uyakhumbula, bendinengxaki yokuyeka iphonografi izihlandlo ezimbalwa ngaphambi kwalo mzamo, ndiye ndakhumbula amanqanaba okuqala, awayefana. Ngexesha elide nangona kunjalo, ndaqala ukufumana ukulungiswa kwakhona, nje ngamaxesha athile, kungakhange kubangele nantoni na. Kwaye ipenisi yam yawa phantsi kwakhona yabuya yazala kwakhona. Izilungiso zomelele kwaye zomelele ngakumbi. Usuku 40 Ndavuka kwaye ndingaba ndigwaze umntu ngale nto. Kwaye loo nto yayingengombono wam wokwenyani kude kube ngoku.
Ukusukela ngemini ye-40, imeko yam ibuyile ngokukhawuleza, kwaye ndaphinda ndaziphindaphinda ukuzibophelela kwam - akukho kuchukumisa kakhulu kwilungu lam lobudoda ngeentsuku ezimbalwa, ixesha. Ndicinga ukuba umthambo uyanceda kule meko. Nangona kunjalo, ukulungiswa kwam akubuyanga kumandla afanayo, okukhathazayo, kodwa ndilindile. Ndikhe ndasela amanzi echibini imini yonke kule veki, inokuba isuka kuloo nto. Andiyonto yokusela. Ndiza kukwazi ukuthomalalisa ukusela kwiveki ezayo ukuze sibone ukuba kwenzeka ntoni emva koko.
Ndiza kujonga ukujikelezwa kwamandla kwaye izikhokelo zesithombeni ukuphuma, kodwa mhlawumbi ndiza kuncitshiswa okwexeshana. Ukuqala kwam oku bendicinga ukuba ngekhe kubekho ndlela ndinokubetha ngayo nakwiintsuku ezingama-30, kodwa ngoku ndingathanda ukunika uthando emzimbeni wam kwaye ndinike ixesha elininzi njengoko kufuneka. Ngokwasentlalweni nangokweemvakalelo, bendikhe ndayibulala, ke andihambi ngokukhawuleza.
[EyoKwindla] Kwaqala ukuhlaziya i-masturbating xa ndandineminyaka eyi-12-13 ubudala. Intsapho yam yaphuka ngexesha elifanayo kwaye mhlawumbi ndasebenzisa i-masturbation njengendlela yokubalekela inyaniso. Ndisoloko ndihlazo kunye namantombazana kodwa ngokusoloko ndithandwa. Ngandlela-thile ndicinga ukuba lo mlutha unxulumene noloyiko lolwalamano lwangempela.
Intombi yam yokugqibela yayibuhlungu gqitha xa ifumanisa ukuba ndineqoqo lezonunu. Ndakuzimela mna kwaye ndathi le nto iyinto eqhelekileyo, kodwa ke wayethukuthele ngokwenene xa efumene i-bill ye-sex-sex. Ubudlelwane buphela emva kweminyaka eyi-5 kwaye umlutha wam ubuhlungu kakhulu emva koko. Ndiyiminyaka eyi-31 ubudala kwaye ndifumana i-ED kunye nexhala xa ndizama ukulala ngesondo. Wabeka ubusuku obubandayo iiveki ze-2 ezedlule emva kokungaphumeleli kwesinye isilwanyana kunye nentombazana enhle.
Ndiyekile ukusebenzisa iicic ye-nicotine i-2 iiveki ezidlulileyo ngoko ndifumana iimpawu zokuzikhupha ngokuphindwe kabini: Imilenze engenasiphelo, ukulala okubi, umsindo, ukudandatheka kunye nesizungu. Ngecala elihle ndilapha: ukuqeqesha ngakumbi, ekuqaleni kokulala, ukugxininisa ngakumbi kunye namandla. Kubonakala ngathi iimvakalelo zam zombini ziphahleni kwaye zihla ngaphantsi.
[UCanzibe] Lo ngumzamo wam wesibini wokwenene ekubuyiseleni, kwaye ndahlala kwiiveki ze-4 ngexesha lokuqala. Ngexesha lokuqalisa kwakhona kwam, ndandinyamekela kangcono ngokwam umzimba nangokwengqondo. Kungase kuzwakala kungenangqondo kodwa kwindawo ethile ngexesha lokuba ndiqale ukuzihlonela. Abantu baqaphela loo nto kwaye ndafumana ingxelo emihle evela kubahlobo, intsapho kunye namantombazana. Eli xesha lijikeleze ndiya kuyeka utywala ngokupheleleyo ngexesha lokubuyiselwa kwakhona. Andiyi kuthatha namathuba ngeli xesha ngokwenza izigqibo ezibugugu xa utywala.
[Ukuphela kukaJulayi] Ngoku ndikhululekile kwi-PMO ukusukela nge-Julayi yokuqala, ewe phantse inyanga. Iyahlekisa indlela esebenza ngayo le nto, kodwa ndiye ndanomtsalane ngakumbi ekuqhubeni kwamantombazana. Ndadibana nentombazana entle yokwenyani iiveki ze-2 ezidlulileyo kwaye saphela silala kakhulu ngaphandle kwe-orgasm. Iingxaki zam ze-ED zazilungile uhambe kwaye kwenzeka ngokoqobo.
Sadibana kwaye sabhukuda ndawonye elunxwemini emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa. Kwafuneka ndihlale ndedwa emanzini abandayo emva kokumangazela malunga nemizuzu eyi-5, ngaphambi kokuba ndihambe ngephonkco ebanzi. Wayehleka kwaye ujabulela imeko ngokuqinisekileyo ndizama ukulahlekelwa ukulungiswa kwam. 😉
Ukuqalisa kwakhona kube lula ngakumbi kunokuqala, kwaye ndisondela kwirekhodi yakudala yeeveki ze-4 ze-PMO simahla. Ndandinomvakalelo ongaqhelekanga wokuhamba kwamatyhalarha am emva kweentsuku zokulala ngaphandle kwama-O, kodwa ngoku ihambile.
Enye yeekholeji zam ibingathi ndibonakala ndinendawo yokukhathazeka esezantsi (akazi ngale nkqubo kunjalo) kodwa naye uyalithanda eli cala lam. Mhlawumbi le nto ye-PMO indikhubazile ukuba ndibe yi-pussycat enhle kunye noxinzelelo? Oku kuwa ndiza kubuyela esikolweni ukugqiba isidanga sam semasters. 🙂