Ndiye ndahlala kwi-NoFap malunga neenyanga ze-4 ngoku, kwaye ndiye ndazikhulisa ngokuthe chu ukusuka kwi-PMOing 3 ukuya kumaxesha e-4 ngosuku kuzo zonke iintsuku ezimbini ukuya kwiveki yonke ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ndifuna ukuyigcina iqhubeka ixesha elide.
Ndiqala ukuba nomkhwa wokuthumela mihla le. Ndicinga ukuba kuyanceda ekufumaneni enye indawo yokujonga imeko yam, okanye ndize nje ndizise abantu okanye nantoni na enye enokuyifumana kwezi zithuba.
Ndifuna nje ukuthetha enye into. Abantu ixesha elininzi baya kuthi izinto ezinje ngo "OLD OWAM ngekhe ndenze lonto kwaye ENTSHA andinakuyenza". Andijongi njalo. Mna ophuma ngoku ngenene NDIMNANDI phambi kokuba ndiqale ukuba likhoboka. NguNdalo ngokwam. Nokuba loluphi ulusu olubolayo endilukhuphileyo ngoku lwaluyi-facade, intlekisa ngexabiso eliphantsi lemodeli yokwenyani. Nditsho kuba xa ndandisengumntwana, ndandithetha naye WONKE UMNTU ngokwendalo. Ngoku, oko kubuyela kum.
Ngapha koko nantsi:
- Ukuthetha nabantu ndiyaqonda ukuba ngolunye usuku ndabona utitshalakazi wam waseTshayina ukuba ahambe eofisini yakhe. Phambi kweNoFap bendimane ndigqitha kumjonga, kodwa ndajika ndahamba ndayokuthetha kamnandi naye kangangeyure.
Andikulindi umgama ongathandekiyo xa ndibona abantu abavela kude. Ngokwesiqhelo, ukubona abantu abakude kwaye bekhwaza besithi "hi" okanye basingise nje isandla kubenza babe nobubele kum.
- Ndiyakwazi ukuthetha nentombazana eyandigatyayo kulo nyaka uphelileyo ndingenaxhala.
Kunyaka ophelileyo, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndinyuke ndiye kuye ndimbuze umbuzo ophambili, "Ngaba uthandana nabani?" Kwangoko nje wandinika izizathu ze-bullshit zokungahambi kunye nam, kwaye emva koko asizange sijongane namehlo kwaye sothuke, kwaye ndazibetha ngenxa yoko.
Ngoku, ungumhlobo olungileyo, kwaye, kuba ndingumqambi, ndiye kuye ndiyokwenza iziqwenga zam zecello. Ngoku ndiyazi ukuba andifuni ukuthandana naye, kuba ungusisi kakhulu ngalo lonke ixesha ndithetha naye ngoku. Ndingacinga ukuba nguye onomdla kum ngokuzithemba kwam okubuyayo.
- Ndinabahlobo ababhinqileyo!
Kunyaka ophelileyo, ngekhe ndikwazi ukuthi ndenze, kodwa ngoku ndiyenzile! Ndisenengxaki yokuchitha ixesha kunye nabo, kodwa ndiqinisekile ukuba ndiza kufika ngandlela thile.
- Ndithatha umngcipheko.
Ngobunye ubusuku, ngelixa ndandisebenza umsebenzi wokunkcenkceshela iipiyano, ndabona abafazi befunda abalinganiswa baseTshayina kwifowuni yakhe. Ke ndenze le ndiyifunayo, ndathetha naye isiTshayina. Nokuba andinakuthetha ngokutyibilikayo kuye, wayendiqonda ngokwaneleyo ukubamba incoko elula. Nanini na xa intombi yakhe yayiphuma kwisifundo sayo sopiyano, wayethetha nam. Andazi ukuba ukhona kuni okhe waba neenyawo ezi-3 ezinamahloni amaTshayina athetha isiTshayina kuwe kodwa inyibilikise intliziyo yam. Inokwenzeka ukuba yenye yezona zinto zintle endakha ndayiyo.
- Ndithetha wonke umntu, kwaye ngokwenene ndimamele.
Ndinomkhwa ombi wokuthetha ebantwini nokuthetha ngam, kodwa ngoku ndiyeka abanye bayilawule incoko. Ndiyakuthanda ukumamela abantu ngoku, kuyaphumla kwaye kuyenza lula ingqondo yam ukumamela ubomi babantu. Ndikhumbula ndinje eJr. High.
Ubomi bam ngokusisiseko ngoku bujikeleziswa kukuxhonywa nabantu, ndingene kwinkcubeko yamaTshayina, ndiqamba umculo, ndikhwela ilitye, kwaye ndizonwabela ngokubuya kommangaliso ophantse ube ngumntwana emhlabeni kwakhona. Ndineminqweno yokuhamba kwihlabathi lonke kwaye ndidibanise wonke umntu. Ndiyabathanda abantu kwaye i-NoFap inika amandla kunye namandla endiwadingayo ukwenza le minqweno ibe yinyani.
Bazalwana, qhubekani niqhubeka. Fumana iindlela zokutyhalela amandla akho kwenye indawo.
LINK - Ndifuna nje ukwenza isithuba sempumelelo yam yakutshanje.
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