Kunyaka om-1 odlulileyo… bendisondela ekupheleni konyaka wam wokuqala ekholejini. Ndisondele kwi-PMO yonke imihla. Ndandizibuza ngokunzulu ukuba yintoni kanye kanye enokwenzeka ebomini bam endenza ndingonwabi. Ngethamsanqa elingenangqondo, ndeva nge-reddit kwaye ndafunyanwa ngokungenamkhethe / r / nofap nge-24 ka-Epreli. Ndajonga izithuba malunga nemizuzu engama-30 kwaye kwangoko ndajoyina. Yonke yaqala ukwenza ingqondo...
Ndilapha kanye kunyaka we-1 kamva, kwaye ndingakuxelela ngokuzithemba ngokupheleleyo ukuba i-nofap iya kutshintsha ubomi bakho. Ubomi bam bubungqina ngokwabo. Ndandingumfo oneentloni odakumbileyo oneentloni ongenathemba lokuthandana ndibukele ubomi bam busihla kwindlu yangasese phambi kwamehlo am angenabomi (eyona nto imbi yayikukuba nzima ukukhathalela ubomi bam buya kuba yikaka).
Ndiye ndafumana i-nofap. Ndahamba iintsuku ezili-133 kumzamo wam wokuqala. 60 okwesibini kwam. Ukusukela ngoko ndenze i-avareji malunga nenyanga enye.
Ngoku ndifezekisa iinjongo zam ngasekhohlo nasekunene kwaye andinakuyekiswa ukuba nje ndizigcina ndisendleleni. Ubomi bubangcono mihla le. Ndiziva ndonwabile xa ndingaxinezelekanga kakhulu (ndihlala ndixakekile ngokobuntu). Ndithatha amathuba obunkokeli, ukuba nentlalontle ngendlela engakholelekiyo (xa sithetha nje), ukuzibandakanya nezinto ebendisoloko ndifuna ukuzenza, kwaye ngokubanzi NDIYAKHULA. Leyo yayiyeyona ngxaki iphambili ngelixa kumjikelo wobomi be-PMO, ndandikwi-limbo. Andizange ndikwazi ukuziphucula kuba ndandingenamdla wokwenza oko. Ngalo lonke ixesha ndilungiselela ezona zicwangciso zibekiweyo, ndandilibazisa kwaye ndingenzi nto. Ngoku, ndizibekela usukelo lwam, ndenza izicwangciso, ndize ndiqalise ukusebenza. Ndiyayiqonda into efunekayo ukuze uphumelele kwaye ngokwenene uqalise.
Kwabo batsala nzima kwaye bafuna isikhokelo okanye iingcebiso ngokubanzi, zininzi iingcebiso eziphoswa apha kodwa ndingathanda ukwabelana nalawo ebesoloko ebonakala ngathi agqibelisa ukundifumana elona nqaku lam likhulu kulo nyaka uphelileyo.
- Njengoko benditshilo ngasentla, xakeka kangangoko unokuba nako. Ukukruquka kukhokelela ekubuyeleni kwakhona. (Ndingayazi, yenzeka ngalo lonke ixesha lekhefu esikolweni endiye ndanalo xa “ndiphumla” kwaye ndisonqena). Nokuba ufumanisa kunzima ukuqalisa kwizinto, ndiye ndakwenza okwethutyana, ndakha ukuze ndibe xakekile kwaye ndixakeke. Uyakufumana ixesha elide usiya kwi-nofap streaks, kokukhona kuya kuba lula ukuba uhlale uxakekile kwaye uziphucule.
- Zama uku ZIPHUCUBE. INofap ngokwayo ayilonyango, yinto ebangela utshintsho. Luxinzelelo olufunayo ukuze uqalise ngokwenene. Phuma kwindawo yakho yokuthuthuzela. Thetha nabantu ukuba oko kuyakothusa. Mhlawumbi uyazi ngeendlela ezininzi zokuziphucula ukuba ulapha. Qalisa!
- Thatha usuku lube lunye ngexesha. Inokukunceda ngokwenene xa ingqondo yakho izama ukukuphembelela ukuba unikezele. Wonke umntu angaphumelela ngenye imini. Konke malunga nokuhamba usuku olunye amaxesha angama-90 (ngokulandelelanayo). Oko kuthethiweyo, ufumane nekhawuntara ukuze ukwazi ukuzothusa xa ufika kude. Ndinayo kwiphepha lasekhaya lefowuni yam kwaye ndihlala ndothuka xa ndiqala ukuyibona isiya kumanani amakhulu. Oku kundizisa kwinqaku lam elilandelayo,
- Uxakeke kakhulu ukhokelela ubomi obumnandi kangangokuba ude ulibale ukuba ikhona i-PMO. Le yindlela endifumana ngayo imivimbo engaguqukiyo. Ndiyalibala nge-nofap de ndiyifune. Emva koko ndiya kuzama ukunceda ukubuyisela eluntwini okwethutyana de iminqweno iphele kwakhona.
- Okokugqibela: YENZA IIMVA EZINGQANDA! Wonke umkhondo omde endinawo bendisenza iishawa ezibandayo. Andinakuze ndibonakale ndidlula inyanga okanye ezimbini ukuba andinjalo. Yakha amandla kwaye ikwenza ube sempilweni. Yenze nje, yenzelwe ukuba ungakhululekanga.
Enkosi ngokufunda iposti yam yecakeday! Ukuba nonke nifuna isikhokelo kumntu okhe wadlula kuyo kwaye usahamba kuyo, vele undithumelele umyalezo! Ngapha koko, ndinithanda, yomelelani! Nanku unyaka wokuzama ukuba yi-PMO yasimahla
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Emva kweminyaka eyi-2.5 yokuzama i-nofap, kunye neyona ndlela inde ye-133 ngaphambi kweyam yangoku, ndicinga ukuba sele ndigqibile ukuyenza. Ndicinge ukuba ndizakwabelana ngebali lam ukuza kuthi ga ngoku kuye nabani na onomdla.
Ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale iNofap, bendingomnye nje we-PMO hermit. Ndandingumfundi oqalayo ekholejini owayehlala egumbini lakhe engajongi tu ukuhlalisana kwaye wayesiya eklasini kuphela. Ubukhulu becala ndandikuthiyile ukuthetha nabantu yaye ndingawathandi amatheko kakhulu. Njengaye nabani na, ndandifuna intombi kunye nesondo, kodwa ndandingazi nokuba ndiqale ngaphi. Ndandinexhala elibi ekuhlaleni, ndandingaqhubi kakuhle eziklasini, ndandingenabahlobo, ndaye ndaqalisa ukuzibuza ukuba ndenza ntoni ngobomi bam.
Ngethamsanqa, ndifumene le subreddit emangalisayo kwaye ngoko nangoko ndaqala kumkhondo wam weentsuku ezili-133. Kwakunzima, kodwa mhlawumbi yayilelona xesha limnandi ebomini bam. Ndifumene uninzi lwamandla adumileyo, ndabona uphuculo olukhulu ebomini bam, abahlobo baqala ukuvela, kwaye ndonwabele ukuthetha nabantu kwakhona! Kwaye eli xesha lihle ebomini bam lahlala kuphela de kwaba sekupheleni komdlalo wam wokuqala - xa ndithunyelwa kwi-spiral of relapse emva kokuphinda ndibuyele kwakhona.
Kunyaka olandelayo kunye nesiqingatha, bendiza kucaphuka ngenxa yokulutha kwam, ndihambe iiveki ezininzi, iinyanga ezininzi ukuba bendinethamsanqa, ndifumane ukuzithemba, kodwa bendihlala ndiphela kumngxunya omnye wokuphelelwa lithemba emva kokuphinda ndiphinde ndiziphose. . Ndandibuyele kwimikhwa yakudala, andizange ndikwazi ukugcina abahlobo abatsha abaninzi, ixesha elininzi ndandingenamdla wokuhlala, kwaye lonke ixesha ndandiqhubeka ndiziva ndililolo kwaye ndifana nengxowa yeshiti engazange ndibe nayo. intombi noba ndingayithanda kangakanani na.
Kwaye kwakukho amantombazana amaninzi endadibana nawo ngeli xesha. Ekugqibeleni, bonke basuka kum, ngenxa yokuba ndandingayazi into endiyenzayo, ndiza kuthatha ixesha elide ukwenza naluphi na uphawu lokuhamba kubo.
Elona xesha lide ndaziva ngathi andinabuchule ngabafazi nabahlobo, kwaye ngenxa yoku, ndaziva ndingumntu ongenabuchule. Ndandisazi ukuba bubugqwirha, kodwa loo nto ayizange iyitshintshe into yokuba yayinzulu le nto ndandiyiva.
Kodwa ke kukho into yatshintsha ndaza ndaqonda ukuba ndifuna ukwenza ntoni ngobomi bam! ..isiqingatha sekholeji xa kwakusele kusondele. Xa ndiqala ukuthatha iiklasi ezintsha ezandichukumisayo kwaye zandinika into enethemba ngayo, ndafumana amandla ahlaziyekileyo ebomini, kwaye ndaqalisa uhambo lwam lwangoku. Emva koko, kubonakala ngathi yonke into yaqala ukuwa kunye. Ndayiqonda iminqweno yam emva kweminyaka emininzi ndizama, ndandiqala ukwenza abahlobo abaninzi ngakumbi, ndandiqhuba kakuhle eziklasini kwaye ndifumana umfutho, kwaye bendinguye ngenene.
Kwaye ke, ngequbuliso, ndazifumanela intombi. Ibiyinto yonke ebendiyithembile ndagqibela ndingasenawo isithukuthezi, ndonwabile qha. Ngazo zonke ezi zinto, kunye neentsuku ze-90 + phantsi kwebhanti yam, ndacinga ukuba andinakutshabalalisa. Emva koko ihlobo lam elilungileyo ukuza kuthi ga ngoku liqalile, ndadibana netoni yabantu abatsha, ndahlola iindawo ezintsha, ndazama umsebenzi omtsha, kwaye yonke into yayihamba kakuhle, ngaphandle nje kokuba ndityale imali eninzi kwintombi yam entsha ngexesha lobudlelwane bethu obude. ihlobo. Ngoko xa ekugqibeleni saphinda sadibana, ndandingenangxaki. Wandilahla ngokufanelekileyo, kwaye wandishiya ndinengxaki ngenxa yoko.
Oko kwakungaphezu nje kwenyanga edlulileyo. Olo yaba luvavanyo lokugqibela lokuzimisela kwam kolu hambo lutsha. Ngaba ndingabuyela kwimikhwa yakudala emva kokuba ndiphulukene nento eyayindonwabisa kangaka? Okanye ngaba ndingakhetha ukusebenza kwiintlungu kwaye ekugqibeleni ndiphume kwelinye icala ndiyindoda entsha, engcono? Hayi ke okusalayo kukwikhawuntara, ndigqibe kwelokuba ndonele yile kaka, lixesha lotshintsho olusisigxina.
Ndikho ke. Ngokwenene ndiziva ndiyindoda ezelwe ngokutsha. Ixhala lentlalontle liphantse laphela, ukuzithemba kubuyisiwe, kwaye ndiziva ngathi ndingaba ndim ngoku. Andisamcingeli noP. Xa umnqweno ukhula emva komboniso oshukumayo okwimuvi okanye kwenye into, ngokuzithemba ndinokuthi: “Ayisendim lo.”
Ndizifumanele enye intombazana, kwaye ngeli xesha ndiqinisekisa ukuba ndiyenza ngokufanelekileyo, ngokuba ndim kwaye ndiqonde ukuba andiyidingi ntombazana, ndenza oku kuba ndifuna ngokwenene ukuyazi le nto. Ntombazana kungcono ubone apho singaya khona.
Ndiye ndacinga ukuba ndiza kuvala ngeengcebiso ezimbalwa endinokuthi ndizinike abanye kwiminyaka yam yokuzama.
- Qinisekisa ukuba ukwenza oku ngezizathu ezifanelekileyo. kwenzeleni okwakho. Leyo kuphela kwendlela ezinzileyo.
- Fumana ukuba yintoni ebangela / xa ufumana izibongozo zakho kwaye wenze into malunga nayo. Kwenza kube lula kakhulu.
- Ngapha koko, ziqhelanise nawe kwaye ubambe phantsi into omawuyenze xa uqhankqalazo. Eyona nto ilula ndiyifumene liqhinga elilula lengqondo, ngokukhawuleza ukuphazamisa umnqweno ngokuyigatya ngokupheleleyo nakuphi na ukuqwalaselwa. Ukuba unokwenza oku, uya kufika kude. Ukuba oko kunzima kakhulu, qala ngokuziphazamisa ngezinye izinto, njengeshawa ebandayo, okanye incwadi okanye enye into.
- Zivuze. Hamba uyokonwaba. Ziphazamise kwi-PMO ngokuphila ubomi obumnandi: ke phuma nabahlobo bakho nanini na kunokwenzeka. Ukuba akunabahlobo, fumana into yokuzonwabisa eya kukwenza ubekho. Ngokuyintloko, vele wehla kwi-esile kwaye wenze into.
- Yenza eyona njongo iphambili ye-nofap ukuba ube weyona ndlela isulungekileyo. Ayisiyonto yokungafaki, imalunga nokuba yinguqulelo engcono kuwe obuyiyo: oyena wena, wena ongacingi nokucinga ngeP kwakhona. Wena uyinto yonke ofuna ukuba yiyo.
Kwaye ngaloo nto, enkosi ngokufunda iposti yam! Zive ukhululekile ukubuza nayo nayiphi na imibuzo, ndiyakuthanda ukubuyisela eluntwini olundincede ndatshintsha ubomi bam.
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