4-10 Ndadibana nentombi yam yangoku kwaye yayilithuba lam lokuqala ukuba neentlobano zesini. Yonke into ihambe kakuhle de kube ukungena: Ndangena kodwa emva koko ndalahleka.
Ingcinga yoku yandibetha kwaye bendiqala ukukrokrela ukuba namanyala kunye nokulalana ngokuphulula amalungu esini ngokufuthi. Xa ngaphakathi ndakhawuleza ndaphelelwa kukukhuthaza. Kwakhona intombi yam iyakwazi ukundanga kwaye indibambe, kodwa andizukufumana konke oku kuvusa. Oku, ndicinga ukuba, kuvela kwi-porn.
Emva kwexesha, emva kwenyanga yokungabinamanyala okanye ukuphulula amalungu esini, i-erections zam bezibuya ngokuncama nje kodwa xa lifika ixesha lokungena ngaphakathi bendihlala ndizifumana ndicinga ukuba ndizokwazi na ukuhlala ndimile. Yiyo ke loo nto ixhala lokusebenza.
Ndikhumbula, nangona kunjalo, ukuba emva kwenyanga yokungazami ukulala, xa sizakuphuma, izinto zam zabuya. Ngobunye ubusuku ndiyincamathele kwaye ndiyibethe, kodwa kwakamsinya nje ndisoyika ukuba ndiza kuyilahla, ndenze isigqibo sokuba ndiyeke.
Andizange ndibone intombi yam kwiinyanga ezi-2 ezidlulileyo. Ngethuba leenyanga ezimbini ndihlaziye i-4 amaxesha: kanye ekuqaleni kunye namaxesha e-3 namhlanje, kwaye kanye nge-porn namhlanje ngelishwa.
Ndisenayo iiveki ezili-9 ngaphambi kokuba ndibone intombi yam, ngoko umbuzo wam uthi, "Ukuba ndihlaziye i-masturbated namhlanje ngoononophala (ngokukhawuleza nangona, ndibukele kuphela malunga nemizuzwana engama-30) yonke inkqubela yam ichithwe. Ngaba iDopamine yam iya kubuya!?!? !!? Ndiyathemba ukuba ngokuziyeka kwi-porno ndiya kuvuswa kakhulu xa ekugqibeleni ndine-gf yam. Ngaloo ndlela ukulungiswa kwam kuya kuba namandla kwaye ngale nto ndiya kunqoba uxinzelelo lwentsebenzo.
5-7 Ndisaya komelela. Namhlanje yenza iveki enesiqingatha ngaphandle kuka-M nokunye okuninzi ngaphandle kwe-porn. Ndiyaqala ukuba novalo. Ukunyaniseka ndibona intombi yam malunga neeveki ze-6, kwaye ngelixa ndibone ukuphuculwa ndiba nexhala lokuba andizukulungela. Iyancanca, kuba ukuze ndilinganise inkqubela yam kuya kufuneka ndizame intombazana. Kodwa andikwazi ngenxa yobudlelwane bam! haha
Enye into kukuba, ngelixa ndibona intombazana kwaye ndicinga ukuba iyathandeka, andinzima ngokukhawuleza. Mhlawumbi ngekhe ndibuyele kuloo ndawo, kodwa ndiyathemba ukuba ngalo mzuzu ndiza kuba nakho ukwenza!
Le ndlela yokuqalisa ngokutsha isebenzele abanye kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba iya kwenzela nam! Ndizakuqhubeka ndithumela nokuba ndiyakundwendwela intombi yam!
I-5-14 [5 + iiveki] Njengoko sele kukhankanyiwe, inkqubo yam yokubuyisela kwimeko yesiqhelo inokuba incinci kuneyabanye, ukubona indlela endiye ndancama ngayo kwiinyanga ezi-4 ezidlulileyo ukusuka kwi-P nakwi-M rhoqo. Oku kwenza ukuba iiveki ezimbini zicoceke ukusuka kwi-M kunye nexesha elide ukusuka ku-P.
Ndivakalelwa ngokungathi imvakalelo yam inyulu ekugqibeleni. Ukuziva ngathi ukuphepha iphonografi kuya kuba lula kwaye kube lula, ngombulelo, nangona kufuneka ndihlale ndazi ukuba inqaku elinye nje elincinci linokundithumela kumhla wokuqala! Kufuneka uqhubeke.
Nangona kufuneka nditsho ukuba kuyaziva kumnandi ukuba ekugqibeleni ndohlukane nomkhwa. Ndiyabona ukuba ndiyakwazi ukuchitha ixesha elininzi nosapho kunye nabahlobo, kwaye ndiziva ndinethemba ngokubanzi! Kungenzeka ukuba ndophule umkhwa, okanye ndizehlule nje kwityala lomkhwa.
Ngayiphi na indlela endizingcayo ngayo ngokwazi ukuyenza, kwaye ngokunyaniseka ndiziva ngokungathi ndikwenzile ukuya kuthi ga apho ndinokuthi ndikwazi ukuxhathisa ngonaphakade iminqweno!
Ndisaqhubeka noxinzelelo nje kancinci ukuba ndiza kuba nakho ukwenza xa ixesha lilungile. Ndivukile ngomthi wakusasa, kwaye ndifumanisa ukuba izinto ezincinci ebezikade zingandicimi ngoku ziyandikhuthaza. Enye into kukuba ukujonga amantombazana esidlangalaleni kuyinto entle, kwaye ndiyayenza, kodwa andiziva ngathi bandiguqula kwangoko. Ndiyathemba ukuba oko kuza kuza kungekudala.
Ndiyi-19 kwaye ukudibana kwam nezesondo kokugqibela kwehlulekile kwi-ED, kusenokwenzeka ukuba kubangelwa kukunqwenela ukulandela inkxalabo yokusebenza, kodwa ndiziva ndigqibile ngokwaphula lo mkhwa kwaye ndinethemba. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba yinto entle ukuba uyekile ukubukela iphonografi. Ndisaziva olu tshintsho luzakundinika awona mathuba am aphezulu okuba nobomi obuphantsi ngokwesondo!
5-15 Ndigqibile ukuthetha nentombi yam malunga namava ethu okugqibela okusilela. Ndiza kumbona nge-17 kaJuni. Khange ndimxelele ukuba bayayenza iphonografi nangaphezulu kwe-masturbation, kodwa ndimxelele ukuba bendisebenza ukulungisa iingxaki zam. Ukuthetha naye kuye kwaveza iimvakalelo ezingathandekiyo. Ndaziva ndinengxaki yokuxhalaba, kodwa ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kuba nakho ukudlula konke oko xa ixesha lilungile. Ndiza kuba ziiveki ezisi-7 zicocekile xa ndimbona. Ndiyathandaza ukuba konele, njengoko ndimthanda ngokwenene.
Uqonda kakhulu kwaye uyandixhasa kodwa ndiyazi ukuba unqwenela ukuba neentlobano zesini nam, kwaye ndinqwenela ukuba ingabi nako ukwenza oko ngenxa yam kodwa nangokwakhe. Ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kuba yipesenti ye-100 xa sele ndimbonile. Iiveki ze-7 zicocekile zibhetele kunokuba bendikhe ndayibeka kathathu ngemini ukubukela i-porn iminyaka eyi-4 ngoku!?! Haha.
5-16 Ndiva ngathi ndithambile okanye ndithambile, njengoko ndingakhange ndibenzima nzima kodwa kulungiselelwa kwakusasa, nangona ndibona uphuculo. Ndiqala ukuqaphela ukuba ndifuna ukuba kunye namantombazana ngakumbi kunye nokusabela okunempilo. Enye into endiyiqapheleyo kukuba izinto ze-porn ezinokuba zindivuse ngaphambili ngoku ziyandothusa! Haha. Esihogweni ndandijonga njani kuloo nto kwaye ndiyithanda?
Nokuba kunjalo andikayifumani i-erections ngokujonga intokazi nganye, kwaye i-libido yam ayikabikho ndlela yonke apho. Mhlawumbi ngoku ukuba ndingabukeli iphonografi, ingqondo yam ayazi ukuba ifudukele phi. Ekugqibeleni iya kwenza indlela yayo kubafazi abaphila ngokwenene.
Amava am exesha elidlulileyo kunye no-ED abonakala ekude. Ngeli xesha ndikude kuye, ndiye ndanexesha lokujongana noxinzelelo kwaye ngokuthe ngcembe ndivumela ukuba intlungu kunye nexhala zihambele kude. Ndiyaqonda ukuba isini yinto eqhelekileyo, kwaye ngethemba lokuba ndiza kukwazi ukwenza ngokwaneleyo kwixesha elizayo xa ndibona intombi yam.
Ndafaka inqaku lam leeveki ezimbini emsebenzini namhlanje. Iba yinyani kangangokuba ndiza kuphinda ndimbone. Ekugqibeleni! Ndishiya i-15th kaJuni kwaye ndiza kuqhubeka ndithumela, ngethemba ngamabali empumelelo !!! Ndiyathemba ukuba ndiza kukhuthaza abanye! Ixesha olucelile liphelile Nceda uphinde uzame isicelo. Damn porn kunye nokusebenza kwetax ixhala.
5-18 Iphupha elimnandi elisuka esihogweni namhlanje. Ndiphupha kwaye empeleni ndivuke ngexesha lokuqhubeka kwayo, kwaye xa sele iqalile akukho nto ibambekayo.
Ndiqala ukukhumbula iphupha lam kwaye yayiyinto enjengemeko ye-porn. Demethi! Nokuba emaphupheni ubuchopho bam abunakuyeka. Ndicinga ukuba mhlawumbi imeko yam engqondweni yam ifuna into eza kundikhuthaza, kwaye kuba ingenalo amava ezesondo aqinisekileyo agcinwe, yandenza ndacinga ngento engamanyala. Demethi. Ndiyathemba ukuba oku akubalwa njengokuphinda ubuye! Kwaye ndiyathemba ukuba inkqubela yam ayikhange ibonakale njengephupha eliludenge.
5-20 Kudala ndalwa neminqweno emincinci yokujonga iphonografi namhlanje. Andazi ukuba "yeyona chaser effect", okanye ukuba ndiqonda ukuba lixesha elingakanani ukusukela oko ndiyijongile, ze iingcinga ezinetyhefu zingena entlokweni yam. Nokuba kunjalo, ndixhathisile umnqweno.
Andicingi ukuba isibongozo siyamuka okanye sifumana lula ukuba sithembeke. Ndicinga ukuba kungcono ukuba simelane nokungaziphathi kakuhle.
Ndikulungele ukuzivavanya, kodwa ndisoyika ngexesha elinye. Haha. Ndinqwenele amathamsanqa wonke umntu. Eyona nto ndiyifunayo ngoku kukuba namava afanelekileyo. Ndivakalelwa ngathi ndiyasebenza kwakhona, kwaye eneneni ndifuna nje amava !!!!!!
Ndibona intombi yam ngaseJuni 15th kwaye ndonwabile !!! Ndiyamkhumbula, kwaye ukuba ndinokuba nakho amava okwabelana ngesondo naye oko kuya kuthetha umhlaba kum!
5-23 Ewe, ndathenga itikiti lam lokuba i-Il ubone i-gf yam kwi-9th! Ndonwabile kwaye ndinoloyiko. Phantse ixesha lokuba ndibone ukuba yintoni na yonke le nto indinqabele. Ndiyacinga ukuba uvalo luvela ikakhulu ngokufuna kakhulu kule nkqubo indincedileyo. Ndivakala ngathi ndisecaleni kwendlela. Ukuba ndiphumelele ndiya kuba nobomi bam bonke phambi kwam. Uxinzelelo rhoqo kunye ingxaki kum ziya kupheliswa, ngaloo ndlela ndikhulule. Ndivakalelwa kukuba, ukuba ndiyasilela, ndiya kuhlala ndixinezelekile, njengoko ndiyakube ndasilela ngelixa ndenza uhlobo lokubuyisela oluya kundinceda okanye olunokundinceda.
Enye ingxaki kukuba ngokuthintela andinalwazi ukuba le nkqubo ineziphumo eziphucukileyo. Ngaphandle kwayo yonke le nto ndisenethemba. Ndiyi-19, kwaye ndijonga abo bajikeleze mna abanobomi obuqhelekileyo bezesondo kwaye ndicinga ukuba, "Nguwuphi umahluko phakathi kwabo nam?" Impendulo: Ngamava okwabelana ngesondo ngokukhula, kunye nokungcola okuncinci kunye nokusebenzisa iphonografi. Ke, ndinikezele okwesibini ngokupheleleyo, kwaye ndiza kusebenza kweyokuqala kungekudala.
5-27 Ndinexhala njengesihogo. Ndiza kuhlala naye kwigumbi elihlala malunga neenyanga ze-2. Ukugqibela kwam ukwenza oku, andikwazanga ukufezekisa ulwaziso ngenxa yokuvuma. Ke, ngenxa yale nto, ndanyanzela phantsi koxinzelelo lwentsebenzo. Ndaziva ndidakumbile kwaye ndivalelwe. Ngeli xesha ndiyathemba ukuba iya kwahluka. Ndikwazile ukuba ngokusisiseko kube-yi-PMO-simahla kwiinyanga eziyi-4, ndityibilika malunga namaxesha e-3. Kutshanje, ndiye ndakhululeka malunga neeveki ze-4.
Ndothukile kwaye ndisoyika. Uloyiko lokusilela. Kodwa ndiyazingcungcuthekisa ukuba ndinesibindi sokuqhubeka nale nto, kwaye ndingaphazami, ndiyamkele loo ntsilelo mhlawumbi ilindeleyo.
Okwangoku andikafiki kwinqanaba apho abafazi ezitratweni bandijike ngokupheleleyo, nangona ndinee-erections zentsasa kwaye ndibenephupha elimanzi. Ndiqala nokuba nengxaki yomzimba encinci kwi-testicle yam elungileyo. Kwilixa lokugqibela kwenzeke oku ndinephupha elimanzi. Ewe kunjalo, ndiziva ngathi ndinokudubula okungcono kuneli lokugqibela. Ixesha lokugqibela, bendinayo i-4 ukuya kwi-5 iminyaka ye-PMO mihla le, ngamanye amaxesha amaxesha amaninzi ngosuku. Ngoku ndikwenzile amaxesha ambalwa kwiinyanga ezidlulileyo.
5-28 Ndicinga ukuba into endiza kumxelela yona kukuba ndifuna ukuhamba ngokwam ngesantya esilingayo-ukuzilolonga ndide ndizive ndikhululekile ukungena. Emva koko qhubela phambili kwi-orgasm.
6-1 Ukuqhubekile ukutyelelwa kwam. Ndiza kumbona ngomso! Ixesha olucelile liphelile Nceda uphinde uzame isicelo.
I-6-7 [Iiveki ze-8] Izolo besabelana ngesondo elungileyo kunye ne-orgasmed!
Ndakwazi ukuphatha nzima kusuku lokuqala kodwa ezinye iintsuku xa sasiqhela malunga nokuma kwam yayingasenamandla. Inokuba nangona kunjalo nje sihlala ebhedini kakhulu kwaye sizidenge ngokujikeleza. Ke ngoko ayindijongi kangako. Kodwa phezolo siphume siye kusela, sithe xa sibuya, saqubisana. Uye wayibeka. Andikholwa ukuba ingene njani lula kwaye ukukhuthazeka kukodwa kwanele kundigcina ndimile. Andiqinisekanga ukuba bendinepesenti ye-100. Ngapha koko, satshintsha izikhundla izihlandlo ezithathu kwaye ndahlala nzima kuyo yonke loo nto, nditsho nokulawula nepsm!
6-9 Impumelelo kwakhona ngobu busuku. Nokuba neentlobano zesini ezingakumbi. Ndenze i-orgasm kwaye emva koko ndingahlala nzima malunga nemizuzu ye-15 emva. Ewe, ndonwabile yinkqubela yam ukuza kuthi ga ngoku kwaye ubonakala onwabile ngokunjalo.
8-13 Ekugqibeleni ndibuyile ukuchitha ihlobo lonke nentombi yam. Kwiinyanga ezimbini ndihambile ndisiya apho ahlala khona azokuhlala naye.
Ndichithe phantse yonke imihla kunye naye, kwaye ndaye ngokupheleleyo-ndithetha ngokupheleleyo-ndaphiliswa emva kokuhlala kude ne-porn.
Njengoko amaxhala am aphela, ndafumanisa ukuba ndiyakwazi ukwenza ngamanye amaxesha ukuya kwiintsuku ze-5 ngqo. Ukuhlala kude ne-porn kwenze ukuba kube lula ukufumana i-erection. Ukuqabula ongenatyala, kwaye u-boom! Into elandelayo uyazi ukuba unzima!
Ndiye kude nomhlobo wam oyintombazana iveki enesiqingatha ngoku. Into eyoyikisayo kukuba, ngaphandle kwesondo, ndibuyele izihlandlo ezine kwiveki ephelileyo enesiqingatha. Ndizamile ukuyithethelela, kodwa inyani kukuba, ngaphandle kwesondo, ingqondo yam ngoku izama ukufumana “iziyobisi” zayo. Ndiyoyika njengesihogo ngoku.
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