Ke, ekugqibeleni ndabetha iintsuku ezingama-90, nantsi ingxelo yam epheleleyo nenyanisekileyo:
Ndiye ndafaka kwaye ndibukele i-porn iminyaka engaphezu kwe-7. Ukuqala kwam ukubona iphonografi xa ndandineminyaka eyi-13, ndafumana i-stash efihliweyo yomninawa kwikhompyuter yethu. Ndaye ndazi ngokufafa emva kokubukela ividiyo yentombazana ekhupha umfana. Bendine-erections kwakudala ngaphambi koko kodwa andizange ndidibanise ukwakhiwa kwisini, bendingazi nto ngesondo. Kulungile, bendisazi ukuba isondo likhona, bendisazi ukuba amadoda nabafazi banemizimba eyahlukeneyo kwaye indoda nomfazi banokulalana, kodwa andizange ndicinge ukuba i-masturbation yinto.
Emva kokuba ndibone loo vidiyo, ndongeze i-1 + 1 engqondweni yam kwaye ndaqonda ukuba ndingakwazi "ukwabelana ngesondo" nam. Amaxesha okuqala endayenza ndandineentloni ngokuyenza, kwaye ubukhulu becala ndisoyika ukuba ndibanjwe. Ngokuhamba kwexesha, iphonografi kunye nokuphulula amaphambili kuye kwaba yinto eqhelekileyo.
Ndinentombi yam yokuqala kunye nobudlelwane bezesondo kunye nomnye umntu xa ndandineminyaka eyi-18. Andizange ndiyinxulumanise loo nto nokuphulula amalungu esini kunye nemikhwa yamanyala. Umbono wam wokuziphatha ngokwesondo ugqwethwe ngokupheleleyo ngamanyala.
Ngelo xesha, kwakudala ngaphambi kokuba ndifumanise malunga nale subreddit, ndaqala ukuyeka ukukrazula. Ndingahamba iveki okanye ngaphezulu ngaphandle kwayo. Ngokuqinisekileyo yanceda kumbandela wokungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-erectile.
Ndineminyaka engama-20 ngoku, kwaye bendingatshatanga unyaka onesiqingatha. Emva kokuba ndiye ekholejini, ndaphulukana nonxibelelwano lwam oluninzi nabahlobo bam basesikolweni. Ndiphulukene nentombi yam malunga nelo xesha. Mna, ndingumfana ongathandekiyo ekuhlaleni endinguye (eneneni ndifunyanwe ndinexhala lentlalontle) ndazifumana ndisemgibeni: Bendingenabahlobo kwaye ndingakwazi ukwenza abatsha ngenxa yexhala lam, bendinobunzima obukhulu ekudibaniseni iqela lam elitsha. koontanga. Ukusukela ngo-Epreli ophelileyo, malunga nexesha endiyifumene le subreddit, ndiye ndaqala ukuthatha i-anti-depressives, kwiinyanga ezimbini ezidlulileyo, ndizamile ukuzibulala.
Ndachukunyiswa zizo zonke izibonelelo ezichazwe ngabantu, ezibizwa ngokuba “ngamandla amakhulu”. Olona luhlu lwam lude ngaphambi koku lwalumalunga neentsuku ezingama-45. Ngoku, ekugqibeleni ndabetha i-90. Ndihlala ndihamba nge-hard-mode, ndingulo "konke okanye akukho nto" uhlobo lomntu.
Kwezi ntsuku zingama-90, nantsi into endiyifundileyo:
- Akukho nto ibizwa ngokuba “ngamandla amakhulu”. I-Nofap ayizukutshintsha ubomi bakho ngokwayo, kodwa iya kukunceda ulungise inxalenye yayo engalunganga
- I-acne yam ayizange ihlanjululwe, njengoko abantu abaninzi bathi iya kuba njalo. Kusekho uphononongo olubonisa ukuba kukho naluphi na unxulumano phakathi kwazo zombini.
- Andizange ndibe “yindoda ye-alpha”, ndisengulo mfo uxakileyo ekuhlaleni kwaye andiqondi ukuba inento yokwenza nokuphulula amalungu esini.
- Andizange ndibone umgca othe tyaba, kukho iimini endiye ndavuka ndinethambo elikhulu kwaye ndaziva ndiphoswe ngokwenene ngaloo mini, kwakukho amaxesha endingaziva tu.
- Zange ndaphupha emanzi.
- Imayile yakho iyahluka kakhulu!
Yonke le nto ithethwayo, ndicinga ukuya kwimowudi ethambileyo ukusuka ngoku ukuya phambili kwaye nje fap Ukuba ndikhe ndizive ndifuna ukukhulula. Thina, njengabantu singabantu ngokwesondo, ukuphulula amalungu esini yimpatho entle yendalo, okoko nje ingekuko ukuthatheka. Iphonografi, kwelinye icala, ivala ingqondo yakho ngokuyivuselela kakhulu ngemifanekiso engeyonyani yento engeyiyo isini.
I-TLDR: ekugqibeleni ibethe iintsuku ezingama-90, hlala ukhumbula ukuba umgama wam uyahluka!
by kurocat
UPDATE – ingxelo yeentsuku ezili-111
Molo Bafana,
Ke, ibiziintsuku ze-111 ukusukela oko ndagqibela ukwenza ifapping. Iintsuku ze-111 kwimodi enzima. Andinantombi kodwa ayilonto ndiqale le challenge.
Kwiintsuku ezili-111 ezidlulileyo, ndagqiba ekubeni ndifuna ukutshintsha. Kudala ndisilwa nokudandatheka phantse unyaka ngoku, ngoSeptemba ophelileyo, ndazama ukuzibulala. Ndibetheke phantsi, ubomi bubonakala bungenanjongo. Ukuzama ukuphelisa ubomi bam, nangona kunjalo, yayilixesha lokukhanya. Ndabona ukuba ubomi bukhona ngaphezu kokuziva ndingonwabanga, kufuneka ndifunde ukubona ngaphaya kwethunzi.
I-Nofap kum ibimalunga nokuzibamba, malunga nokuzama, kancinci kancinci, ukulungisa ubomi bam, malunga nokuyeka ukuxoka kum. Ndisekholejini, amabanga am awagqibelelanga kodwa noko andiphumeleli nokuba yisingle class endiyibhalileyo, ndisengulo mfana uxakileyo ekuhlaleni kodwa andinaxhala. ukuhlaselwa rhoqo xa umntu ethetha nam, ndiziva ndinesizungu kodwa ekugqibeleni ndaqonda ukuba i-fapping ayiyi kwenza nayiphi na yezo ngxaki zihambe.
Ndiyayamkela into endiyiyo, andisawoyiki amadimoni am. Ngaphezu kwayo nantoni na, ndicinga ukuba iNofap imalunga nokwamkelwa.
Kulungile, malunga nayo. Ndiyazi ukuba ayisosona sithuba sikhuthazayo owakhe wasifunda apha, okanye elona bali linika umdla, kodwa ndizive ndinesidingo sokwabelana ngamava am kancinci ukuza kuthi ga ngoku. Zive ukhululekile ukundibuza nayiphi na imibuzo, ndiza kuyiphendula ngovuyo 🙂
Yomelela!
by kurocat
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