Ndiqale nge-porn xa ndandiqala ukusebenzisa ikhompyuter ngakumbi, mhlawumbi nge-14-15.
Yonke iqale i-6-7 kwiinyanga ezidlulileyo (ngaba kudala kunjalo?) Xa ndabona into ngam. Kwisikolo esiphakathi bendidla ngokuphuma kakhulu. Ndibaphatha wonke umntu ngokufanayo nangesi sizathu kakhulu bendifunwa phakathi kwamantombazana esikolweni sethu.
Abahlobo bam bandixelele ukuba ndinomdla kwaye bandibuza ukuba ithini imfihlo yam. Nokuba kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo xa ndandiba neengxaki zokuphulula amalungu esini ngokuhambisa amanyala kunye ne-porn, amantombazana ayesandinika imbonakalo. Kodwa ukuya kuthi ga kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo yayi malunga nesikolo, ngoko ke andizange ndivumele nabani na ukuba angene kuloo ndlela. Zange ndiyeke umntu asondele.
Ngokukhawuleza ndabona ukuba ndiphulukana nabahlobo kwaye ndinabahlobo abasondeleyo kuphela. Ukwanengxaki yokunxibelelana nabantu abatsha, ukuba nexhala lokusondela kunye nokunxibelelana namantombazana amhle. Ndandiba "ngumhlobo" wamantombazana, ukuba uyazi ukuba ndithetha ukuthini. Amabanga am aqala ukuhla kwaye uxinzelelo lwam kunye nenkumbulo zam buthathaka. Ndaziva ndidiniwe imini yonke nokuba akhange ndenze nto.
Emva koko ndaqala ukubeka iphazili kunye, ndibona umfanekiso omkhulu kwaye ndiwujongile ndonwabile, ndivule umhlathi. Kwakukho, ubomi bam bonke kwiphepha le-intanethi lichaza iimpawu zokuhlambalaza rhoqo kwi-pornography, kunye nemiphumo emibi yemixholo engamanyala. Ndothukile, ndinomsindo kwaye ndidanile-ukuyibeka kakuhle. Inokwenzeka njani into yokuba uziva ulunge kakhulu ibe neziphumo ebezingalunganga? Ngaba balwenzile ngokufanelekileyo uphando lwabo? Yilento ndizibuze yona. Ndoda, ndijonge ngasemva ngoku, masithi bendingenalo nofifi lwento endizibuza yona.
Yayifikelele kwinqanaba lokuba bendiyenza ubuncinci kabini ngemini kwaye yayihlala ikumxholo wephonografi, ngelixa ndandisemncinci yayikukusebenzisa ukucinga. Ke, amaza amaxesha ayengaphantsi kakhulu, nangona bendihlala ndinesondo esiphakamileyo. Ndiyenzile ngaphambi kokuba ndiphume kuba abantu bathi awufuni ukuhamba kuzo zonke izinto ezilayishiwe kunye ne-horny, oko kwenza ukuba uswele kwaye amantombazana akayithandi loo nto. Ewe, ngela xesha yayisengqiqweni…
Emva kokuqaphela ingxaki yam, ndaqala ukukhangela iimpendulo. Ukuphanda uGoogle ngemigca efana nale: "ukunqanda ukuphulula amalungu esini, ngakumbi i-testosterone xa ungaphulula amaphambili, iingxaki zokuphulula amalungu esini, ukuphulula amalungu esini kunye ne-porn" njalo njalo. Ndafunda konke endinako, ukusuka kwizifundo zokwenyani ukuya kuvavanyo lomntu. Iindawo ezininzi oogqirha bathi ukuphulula amaphambili kusempilweni kwaye kunciphisa amathuba okuba nomhlaza wedlala lobudoda.
Kwiiforum abantu babecela umngeni kwabanye ukuba bayeke ukuphulula amalungu esini ixesha elithile. Abantu bahlala besenza ihlaya: "Ndingaba neebhoners ezingama-24/7. Bendingazokwazi ukulala. Bendingaba namaphupha amanzi qho ebusuku ”… kwaye ndaqala ukuzibona kuloo magama. Ndimbi nyhani? Ukwenza izizathu zokuzikhupha?
Kulungile ndiqale umceli mngeni wam "" Iveki, ukuqala, "ndacinga ngaphakathi kwam. Iintsuku zokuqala zazisihogo 'andizukuxoka. Kwakungenxa yamaphupha amabi kakhulu. Kodwa ngequbuliso ndabona utshintsho kwiimvakalelo zam nokuzithemba kwam. Ndaqala ukuthetha ngakumbi, ndithetha iziqhulo ezingakumbi kwaye ndonwabile kulusu lwam. Yonke ke yaphela, njengokuvuka. Bendingazi ukuba ndivuke ngeeyure ezimbalwa kwangoko kakhulu.
Indlela yokuchacha kwam yayiqala ukuvela. Ngexesha elizayo ndaye ndazenza iiveki ezimbini, kodwa ngalo lonke ixesha isiphelo sam siphelile, iintlungu zengqondo zazimbi kakhulu. Emva koko ndazixelela: “Ziintsuku ezingama-31. Yinyanga epheleleyo leyo. Ukuba ungahamba ixesha elide, oko kubonisa ukuba awukho mkhwa kwi-porn kwaye uyi-domain yakho. ”
Umtsalane wam ubuyile, ndizele amandla kwaye ndothukile njengesihogo, hayi i "boner 24/7" horny, kodwa "Ndikulungele ukulawula umhlaba" horny. Ndisebenze nzima ngakumbi, ndafunda ngcono, ndabuya ndazithemba kwaye ndalahlekelwa kukuthandabuza endinako kum.
Yonke into ibilungile kude kube ngumhla wam ocwangcisiweyo. Iintsuku ezingama-31 zaziphezulu… ngoku ke? Ewe ndaphinda ndasebenzisa iphonografi kwiintsuku ezimbalwa ezizayo. Kodwa ngoku ndiyibonayo, bendizidinga ezo ntsuku ukuze ndiphinde ndichache. Emva kweentsuku ezi-4 ndiqale kwi-0.Kodwa kwakungathi ndiyaqala kokungapheliyo.
Ngeli xesha iintsuku zazingenamsebenzi. Yayingumhla wama-40 okanye ndaye ndaphakama edesikeni yam ndaziva ndinamandla angakholelekiyo, isixa se testosterone esisebenzayo saphosa imithambo yam, ulawulo endandinalo ngoku emzimbeni wam.
Isibini seentsuku ezidlulileyo ndibukele iphonografi emva kweeveki ezili-10 kungekho nto, kungekho nomfanekiso omnye. Ndiza kucaphula kolunye uluvo lwam:
Kwakungathi ndidibana nomhlobo wam wakudala, kodwa uyaqaphela ukuba nikhule ngokwahlukana kwaye anisakonwabeli ukuba kunye… kwaye ke ngoko andifuni kuphinda ndidibane. Ndabona into endiyibonileyo emva kweeveki ezili-10 kwaye ndingenamdla.
Apho ndikhoyo ngoku:
Iintsuku ezingama-87 zokungakwazi ukuphulula amalungu esini. Ukuzithemba kwinqanaba elitsha. Ayinamsebenzi ukuba ungubani okanye ujongeka kanjani-ndingakujonga emehlweni kwaye ndimamele into oza kuyithetha. Ndiziva ndikhululekile xa ndinomhlambi wamantombazana kunamakhwenkwe. Ndiya rhoqo ejimini, ndibeka ubungakanani kunye namandla. Elona candelo lililo kukuba, andiziva ndifuna ukuba nomntu ebomini bam. Ndiyayonwabela kangangoko ndinako kwaye kubonakala ngathi igeza amantombazana.
Andizukuba nesicwangciso sokugcoba. Andiziva ngathi ndifuna ukwenza i-masturbate, nditsho xa ndixhalabile okanye ndiphantsi koxinzelelo. Andikuthandi ukuwa, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba umzimba wam ungazikhathalela (amaphupha amanzi). k Ukuba nexesha elichanekileyo kubeka uxinzelelo kum, kwaye sesinye sezizathu zokuba ndisilele kwisicwangciso sam seentsuku ezingama-31 zangaphambili.
I ngcebiso:
Ukucaphula kwakhona kwenye impendulo yam: "Ungakuyeka njani u-harem?"
Thatha nje ikhompyuter yakho, kwaye ujonge kwiscreen kwelinye icala. Ingaba ubona ntoni? Icala lesikrini. Akukho nto apho, akukho nto emva kwayo. Kukusondele nje ukuba ufike kwabo bafazi kwiscreen. Xa uyifumanisa le nto, kwaye ndithetha ukuba ndiyayiqonda kakuhle into endiyithethayo, uya kuphuma kweso simo sengqondo sothando sabantu. ”
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Ewe, phantse kube yinto yesithathu yonyaka kum: Akukho kuphinga, akukho nkunkuma. Ndinqwenela ukuba ndingathi kuye kwahamba kakuhle, kodwa akukhange kube njalo. Njengazo zonke iziyobisi ebomini, kuthatha ixesha elininzi ukulungisa izinto kunokuqhekeza izinto.
Abafana, igosa, ndiqinisekile ukuba i-100% andiyikhoboka le-porn kunye ne-masturbation kwakhona. Ndazi njani? Ewe ndi-horny kodwa andisiva isidingo sokwenza i-masturbate kwaye iphonografi ibonakala ngathi ayiyonyani. Andithinteli naziphi na iisayithi ze-porn okanye nantoni na, kuba iya kundenza ndibenomdla ngakumbi wokophula olo donga. Kuvakala ngathi kukuziphatha kakubi: ukuba ibingumdlalo bhanyabhanya, andizukuchitha iiyure kunye neeyure zobomi bam ndibukele. Oko kwathethi, kuhlala kukho ithuba esinokuthi silinike phantsi koxinzelelo kunye noxinzelelo, singabantu emva kwayo yonke loo nto. Ndingavula enye ithebhu ngoku kwaye ndiye kwindawo ye-porn ndigqibe i-streak yam. Ayilothuba. Ndigqithile kweso sigaba…
Yintoni eyandenza ndacinga ngokubhala kwakhona, kum ubuncinci, yayiyinto ehlekisayo: ukuba andikhumbuli ngenxa yobomi bam yeyiphi ividiyo ye-porn endiyiphulula amalungu esini okokugqibela. Ibonise nje ukuba ndikhule kangakanani kuyo yonke le nto. Ingakanani ingqondo yam yayilungisile i-wiring yangaphakathi.
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