Heyi bafana le yiposti yam yokuqala kwiNoFap, ndingu 22 kwaye bendilapha ixesha elithile ngoku ndafumanisa ingqondo yakho kwi-porn (YBOP) ngasekupheleni kukaDisemba kwaye ukusukela ngelo xesha kuye kwaqaliswa kwakhona ukusukela nge-1 kaJanuwari. Ndizamile ngaphambili ukuyeka ukufota kunye noononophala kodwa wahluleka. Ndabona ukuba ndiyilikhoboka kubo bobabini kwaye babenefuthe elibi ebomini bam. Ndazixelela ukuba ndiyabutshabalalisa ubutsha bam kwaye ngesigqibo esingaqhelekanga sangaphakathi ndayeka ngokupheleleyo ngaphandle komzabalazo omkhulu.
I-porn ibuye yenze ubudlelwane bam nabasetyhini kwaye ndinamava e-ED ixesha elidlulileyo ngenxa yayo. Ndiyindoda ekhangeleka kakuhle kwaye andikaze ndibenangxaki yokufumana amantombazana kodwa kwakamsinya nje ukuba izinto zishushu kwaye zinzima ndiza kuphulukana nolwakhiwo lwam. Oku kunditshabalalise ngokweemvakalelo ndaziva ndiphulukene nobudoda bam kunye nobomi bam.
Iintsuku ze-10- 15 kwi-fap ndinamandla amakhulu kunye nenzondelelo ngobomi. Andizange ndikholelwe ukuba akukho nzuzo kangakanani, kodwa emva kweeveki ze-3 kwafika i-flatline. I-libido yam yaya kwi-zero kwaye yenza izinto zibe mbi ngakumbi kwabasetyhini sonke, bendinamathuba amaninzi kodwa bendisoyika ukuwenza kwaye ndade ndabaguqula kuba bendisoyika ukuba andibuyanga ngokupheleleyo. I-libido ephantsi ngokwenene iyinto eyoyikisayo eyayisoyikisa, ndaziva ngathi ndi-asexual ixesha elide. Ndafumana amaphupha amanzi malunga neveki ngexesha lokuqalisa kwakhona okokuqala malunga ne-porn kodwa emva koko batshintsha baba ngamantombazana endandibaziyo, eyayisisalathiso esihle sokubuyiselwa. Phakathi komhla we-60-70 ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyidubule nale ntombazana kodwa isondo lam lokuqhuba lalisezantsi kakhulu liphela kuphela ekufumaneni intloko kuba wayesexesheni. I-flatline yaqhubeka ndandicinezelekile ngenxa yayo kodwa ndaqhubeka ndihamba ndazi ukuba kufuneka ndilwe.
Ngosuku lwe-97 andizange ndifake i-porno engabandakanyekanga nxamnye nokunye okuninzi ndagqiba ekubeni ndifake kanye ngeveki emva koko kwaye ndivumele ukuba ndixelele abantu ukuba i-libido yam ibuyele njenge-rocket ye-fuckin! Andizange ndikholelwe kwaye kwakungekho koononophala kwakungenxa yamantombazana ayehlala ejikeleze ixesha lonke. Ndiziva ngathi ndisisilwanyana ngoku ha! Ndilahlekelwe ngumlilo wam ebomini ngenxa yoononophala kodwa ngoku umva wayo kunye ne-INCREDIBLE! Ndagqiba enye intombazana ngosuku lwe-104 kunye ne-ED yayingengombandela konke konke ndenza umsebenzi wam njengawo onke amadoda emhlabeni abephila ngaphambi kwam!
Mamela guys ngumzabalazo onzima kodwa qhubekani niwuxabisile ekugqibeleni kodwa nina bafana niza kuyifumana kwangoko ngokwaneleyo.
Enkosi i-NoFap kunye ne-YBOP
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