Ndiyindoda eneminyaka engama-22 ubudala kwi-streak yam ende kakhulu (iintsuku ezingama-29) kwaye ndacinga ukuba ndiza kubelana nawe uluhlu lweenguqu ezintle endizibonayo kum, kunye negama leengcebiso.
Okokuqala, bendiqala ukusebenza nge-PMOing kuba mhlawumbi ndandiyi-13 okanye i-14. Ndiye ndaba nobomi obuphathelele kwezesondo ukusukela ngoko. Ngaphandle kweziqendu ezimbalwa zento endicinga ukuba sele yenziwe kwi-PIED yam kwishumi elivisayo, andizange ndibenayo loo micimbi mininzi xa kufikwa kwisini okanye ubudlelwane phakathi kwabantu. Ingxaki yam enkulu nge-PMO yindlela ebulele ngayo yonke imveliso yam, kwaye yandifaka kum inkungu enkulu yenkungu imini yonke, ihlala ikhokelela kwi-PMO engakumbi. Oku kwaba ngumcimbi omkhulu kum. Iiyure ekufuneka zichithwe zisebenza okanye zonwabela indawo zichithwe ebhedini ngokuzola ucofe amakhonkco e-P kwaye ukhangela ngaphandle kokujonga.
Ke kwinyanga ephelileyo ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiyeke, ndibeka i-K9 blocker kuyo yonke into enokuthi indenze. Iintsuku zokuqala zazinzima ngokunganyamezelekiyo, kunye ne-chimp kwingqondo yam ndicinga ukuba bendineentsuku nje ezimbalwa kwaye ukuseta kwakhona bekungayi kuba yingozi kwinkqubela phambili yam kodwa into endincedileyo kukuba ndiyazi le ndlela yokuziphatha kwaye ndenza konke okusemandleni am ukuyiqonda.
Ndisebenza njengo-DJ ubuninzi bobusuku ngeveki endibenzayo, kwaye ngenxa yoko ukuba sihlalisane akunakukhetha. Oko ukushiya i-P kunye no-M, kwaye ndizivumele kuphela ku-O ukuba ndibandakanyeke kubudlelwane namantombazana endihlangana nawo, andinakucacisa ukuba zinjani izinto ezahlukeneyo. Ndibona abafana apha benosuku lwe-90 kunye ne-streaks kwaye awuyazi indlela endincoma ngayo, nina bantu nigwala kwaye ngolunye usuku ndiya kunijoyina. Ukulahla u-O ngokupheleleyo (indlela ethambileyo ndiyakholelwa) yayingeyiyo indlela efanelekileyo, ndidibana namantombazana amaninzi kuwo omabini umsebenzi wam kunye nesangqa sentlalontle, nangona kunjalo ukushiya i-P, okokuqala kwiminyaka eyi umdla kula mantombazana ngaphaya kwemizimba yawo, enyanisweni andoyiki nembono yokuba yedwa kunye nomntu. Ngoku andisayi kujonga eyona ntombazana intle kwigumbi, kodwa eyona inomdla, eyona inomdla, ndicothwa kancinci kwigobolondo lam elingacacanga. Oko akutsho ukukhwela kwidrive enkulu yomsebenzi endiyifumene phantse kwangoko emva kokumisa. Ndivukile nge-6 kusasa yonke imihla, ndisebenza ngamandla emisebenzini yam imini yonke, ndiphakamisa ngcono kunangaphambili kwindawo yokuzivocavoca kwaye ndichitha phantse yonke imini, yonke imihla ukuzibandakanya kwimicimbi yasekuhlaleni kunye nokuba phakathi kwabantu.
Inye into ebendibulala yona nangona kunjalo 'sisiphumo esichasayo', oko kukuthi, ukukhuthaza okukhulu ukuba ufumane, kwimeko yam, iiyure ze-12-24 emva ko-O. Ndizamile iindlela ezimbalwa kwi-PMO ngaphambili kwaye oku bekusoloko kukuwa kwam, kodwa ndiyakholelwa ukuba indlela odlula ngayo kukuqonda imiqondiso. Ngoku ndiqinisekile ukuba ngalo lonke ixesha ndine-O, ndiyayilandela ngemini exakekileyo yokuba ngaphandle kwendlu kwaye ndikufutshane nabantu, ngokuchasene nokulala ebhedini yam hungover kwaye ndikhangela i-intanethi ngaphandle komnqophiso, kwaye ukuza kuthi ga ngoku usebenze unyango. Ndibona izibongozo ezisuka kwimayile enye, kodwa endaweni yokoyika, ndiyabamkela. Ndiyayibona le nto intshontsho lobuchopho bam luzama ukuyenza. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba olu hambo beluya kuba lula ukuba bendihamba nge-PMO epheleleyo kwaye ndiphepha ukusebenza kwe-chaser, kodwa leyo yingcebiso yam eluncedo kwabanye abanjengam. Oko ndayeka, ndizijonga ndikude, kwaye ndingoyena mntu ndifuna ukuba nguye, umfo endakha ndaye ngamanye amaxesha ngaphambili. Ukuziqhelanisa, intlalontle, amandla, ukuzithemba- bonke abahlobo bam nabantu endisebenza nabo ndibone umahluko nakum, ndiyasineka ndisithi andazi ukuba bathetha ngantoni 😉
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