Bendisoloko ndingumntu oneentloni ongathethi kakhulu kwaye kwisikolo samabanga aphantsi ukuya kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo, andizange ndibe nabahlobo abangako kwaye abantu babengandithandi kangako. Xa yayilixesha lokuba ndikhethe ukuba yeyiphi ikholeji endiya kuyo, ndakhetha enye endandiqinisekile ukuba andisoze ndiphinde ndiphinde ndiqale ubomi obutsha. Isebenzile!
Ndaba nobuhlobo ngakumbi ndaza ndafumana abahlobo abatsha abaninzi. Kodwa kwakukho ingxaki yala ntombazana. Andizange ndibenayo intombi ngaphambili kwaye ndandiseyintombi. Bekukho le ntombazana inye ndiziva ndiyithanda kwaye nam nangona ibinguYE wade wayophula intliziyo yam xa ndimbona ethanda umhlobo wam more. Andizange ndimxelele ngayo kodwa ndiyaqonda ukuba kungcono ngale ndlela.
Bendisafuna ukulungisa lengxaki yentombazana. Ngenye imini, ndafumanisa kwi-intanethi le nto ingumngxuma ebizwa ngokuba “nguMculi wokuPick-up”. Ndiyazi kwabanye abantu, amagcisa okuchola-chola yinto emele ukuthiywa kodwa ndicinga ukuba kungenxa yokuba abantu abangaphandle babona nje amadoda angendawo aneenjongo ezimbi. Xa ungena kuyo ngentliziyo enobubele, uya kuphuma njengophumeleleyo. Ndichithe iminyaka emi-3 kuloo ndawo yokuhenda. Ewe, ixesha elithile kunye nesikolo kunye nomsebenzi wam wokugqibela. Andizukungena kuzo zonke iinkcukacha ngayo kodwa ndifunde izinto ezimbalwa ngexesha lam. Ndakwazi ukuqalisa ukuthandana kwaye ndinentombi yam yokuqala kodwa yahlala malunga neenyanga ezi-5. Ndandingonwabanga naye. Bendinaye kuba bendifuna nje intombi but I didn't know the implications zokuba kwi relationship naye. Emva kokuba ndohlukene naye, ndahlala kuloo nto yePUA ixesha elide ukuze ndifunde ngakumbi. Ubomi bam bokuthandana buye baba ngcono!
Malunga nonyaka omnye odlulileyo, umntu kuFacebook wathumela ukuba intetho kaGary Wilson Ted-x. Xa ndabona loo vidiyo, ndaqonda ukuba leyo yeyona ngxaki yam inkulu kangangexesha elide. Ndandiziphulula amaphambili ukususela xa ndandineminyaka eyi-13 ubudala. Ndifumene iphonografi ye-intanethi malunga ne-2 okanye i-3 kwiminyaka eyadlulayo oko ndafumana eyam ilaptop egumbini lam, iyamangalisa huh? Ngaphambi koko, ndandiyenza ngengcamango yam kunye neefilimu eziqhelekileyo. AYIYIYO iphonografi kodwa imiboniso bhanyabhanya yokwenyani ebonisa abasetyhini abanqunu kubo kwaye bendiya kuyibukela kumabonakude wam egumbini lam. Ndandiziphulula amaphambili kabini ngosuku olunye de ndangena eveni. Ndaqala ukuphulula amaphambili 2 ukuba 3 amaxesha ngeveki kuba ezinye Pua wathi kukunika amandla ngokwesondo ngakumbi ukuhlangabezana amantombazana (okanye into enjalo). Kodwa kwenzeka ukuba ndiwuyeke loo mkhwa ndize ndiwenze yonke imihla. Yintoni uGary Wilson kunye nobo bungqina endibufundileyo bunengqondo kum ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndihambe ngokubandayo kwi-masturbation.
Kumzamo wam wokuqala, ndithathe iintsuku ezili-100! Ingakholeleki! Kwaye andizange ndifake nayiphi na isoftware echasene nephonografi kwikhompyuter yam. Ngokuvuma ngokupheleleyo, ndenze iintsuku ezili-100. Ngalo lonke ixesha ndisondele ukuba ndiyenze, ndandivele ndiwukhanyele loo mnqweno kuba ndandibona kungcono ukuba ndiyenze. Ndawubona umahluko owawuwenza kum. Ndidlule kuzo zonke izigaba eziqhelekileyo ezifana ne-ridiculously high libido, ukudakumba okufutshane, umgca osicaba kwaye emva koko ndiziva kamnandi ngam. Ingqondo yam yacaca ngakumbi, ndazithemba ngakumbi, ndafumana amanqaku angcono kakhulu esikolweni, ndabona amantombazana ngokukhanya okutsha kwaye ndabona umbono omtsha phambi kwam. Ndandiyazi into endandifuna ukuyenza ngobomi bam.
Emva koko, ngobunye ubusuku obubi, ndaqala ukuhlaziya i-porn kwakhona. malunga neenyanga ze-3, ndingene kule nto ihlayo ye-porn addiction kwakhona ndazama ukuyeka kwakhona kodwa andizange ndikwazi.
Ngenye imini, ndandikwindawo yokusebenzela ipua waza umfundisi-ntsapho wathetha into eyahlala ihleli kum. "Ungaze ulibale ukuba ungubani ngokwenene." yinto awayithethayo. Ekupheleni kosuku lwam lwe-100, ndakwazi ukuzibona ukuba ndingubani ngokwenene. Ngoko ke, nge-7 kaJuni ka-2013, ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndiqale lo mngeni kwakhona ukuya kutsho kwiintsuku ezingama-200. Ndaye ndayenza. Ndicinga ukuba kwaba lula okwesibini kuba andizange ndifumane iimpawu endandizifumana okokuqala. Bendingekayifuni isoftware echasene nephonografi kuba ndiyenzile yonke loo ndlela ngamandla anamandla kwakhona. Andikabinayo intombi kodwa ndicinga ukuba ndizofika kungekudala.
Namhlanje, ngeKrisimesi, lusuku lwam lwama-201 kwaye ndiyabona ukuba indlela yam yobomi indibeka phi. Ndiyabulela kwabanobubele balapha ngokuncedisana.
Iholide ezimnandi.
LINK - Ubudala be-23, iintsuku ezingama-201 kamva.
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