Ndingathanda ukwabelana nawe zonke iinyanga ezi-3 zokugqibela zobomi bam, ezinxulumene nokusetyenziswa kwamanyala, ukuphulula amalungu esini njlnjl. Ndingu 23, kubudlelwane beminyaka emi-3 obuhlala ixesha elide, kodwa njengoko ndafumanisa malunga neenyanga ezintathu ezidlulileyo ( enkosi koku nakwezinye iisayithi) bendilikhoboka le-porn ixesha elide.
Ndandisoloko ndicinga ukuba ukujonga iifostile kwakuqhelekileyo. Wonke umntu uyenzile, ukuphulula amalungu esini kwakujongwa njengesiqhelo kwaye kuncinci endicinga ukuba kunokubangela naziphi na iingxaki ebomini bam. Ekuqaleni ndandibukela i-pornography rhoqo, andizange ndijonge kwizinto ezinzima kuba ndifumene into enyanyekayo kodwa kwenzeka into ethile. Ndandinamava okuhlangana kwam okokuqala ngokwesondo, kodwa ndasilela- kwaye ndalibeka etywaleni. Oku kwenzeke amaxesha e-3 kwaye ngelixesha ndaya ekholejini bendicinga ukuba i-porn ilungile, ndizikhumbuze nje ukuba ndibukele utywala. Khange ndiqonde ukuba uhlobo lwamanyala endihlala ndilubukela lutshintshile kwaye ngokuthe ngcembe laya landa de kwaba kuphela kwamanyala endiwabukeleyo yayiyi-bi / transsexual porn. Ngamanye amaxesha ndandide ndibuze ngesini sam, ndicinga ngokuya kumava am esini sokuqala.
Phakathi kwendawo ndafumana intombazana, ndaba ngumtshato kwaye ndahlala kunye. Ewe, ukuhlukana kwezesondo kwakuqheleke kakhulu ekuqaleni. Iingxaki zokulungiswa ekuqaleni, emva kokuhlaselwa kwangaphambili, ngamanye amaxesha zide zilibale. Ezi ngxaki zize zahamba, kwaye andizange ndacinge ukuba yintoni imbangela. Ngamanye amaxesha ndayichaza ngoxinzelelo lwesikolo / umsebenzi odibeneyo, ukhathala kwaye ndacinga ukuba iGF yam iyayeka ukumtsala. Ngoku ndiyabona ukuba ndinenhlanhla ukuba ndimnyamezele konke oku kwaye ndimele ndim.
Kodwa ukufikelela kwinqanaba. Njengokuba uninzi lwenu ndiye ndafumana amanqaku ambalwa ajongene nefuthe le-porn ekusebenzeni kwethu ngokwesondo. Ndikhe ndacinga okwethutyana kwaye ndaqonda ngokwenene, ukuba ubomi bam ngokwesini bebuhlala bungcono ngamanye amaxesha xa sihleli kunye ixesha elide-apho bendihlala ndingazibukeli iphonografi. Emva kokukhangela iiforamu, ndifunda phantse lonke inqaku elinye ndafika kwisigqibo sokuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi.
Kwaye yile nto ndiyenzileyo. Kwiiveki ezili-14 ezidlulileyo.
Iiveki ezimbini zokuqala zazisoyikeka. Khange ndikwazi ukulala. Ngokwenyani, ndiyakhumbula ndingalalanga i2 okanye 4 yeentsuku. Ndacinga ukuba ndizakuphambana. Intloko yam yayisele iza kuqhuma. Emva koko i-flatline yangena kwaye yahlala i-5, mhlawumbi iiveki ze-2. Ndaziva ndineentloni, ndoniwe, ndingenamsebenzi. Eyona nto indenze indoda ayisebenzi. Akukho mithi yasekuseni. Akukho mdla kwinto. Ngethamsanqa, khange ndimbone i-GF yam phantse inyanga, ngenxa yokufunda kwakhe iimviwo zokuthweswa isidanga, kungoko ke bekungafuneki ukuba ndicinge ngento eza kwenzeka ukuba siza kulala ngesondo.
Emva kweeyure ze-5-6, imithi yam yasekuseni yabuya. Yayiyintoni inkululeko. Ndiqala ukuba neendlela ezingcono kakhulu zobomi bam emini. Ngamanye amaxesha kuninzi, ngamanye amaxesha ngaphantsi, kodwa ndandivakalelwa kukuba ndandilungile. Emva koko, emva kweemviwo, ekugqibeleni sasilala ngesondo, enye yeyona nto ibhetele ebomini bethu. Azikho iingxaki zokulungisa, akukho PE. Ndandiziva ngathi nguHercules kwaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndiqhubeke oko ndandenzayo.
Yintoni ngoku?
- Andizange ndibukele i-porn phantse iinyanga ze-3 ngoku
- i-masturbated maxesha ambalwa, kodwa ihlala icinga ngeGF yam
- ngamanye amaxesha ukulungiswa kwam kungekhona i-100% kwaye ngamanye amaxesha ndiza ngokukhawuleza njengemizuzu embalwa, kodwa ndicinga ukuba inxalenye yentengiso
- Ndixabisa ngakumbi i-GF yam, kungekhona nje ngomzimba okanye ngesondo esinawo, kodwa ngandlela-thile ndayeka ukunciphisa ubuhlobo bethu kwi-physics nje kunye nokunyamekela ngakumbi
- Andikwazi ukuthi ndinamandla amaninzi, kuba andizange ndilahle, okanye inkuthazo yokwenza into ethile - kodwa ndiziva ndilungile malunga nam, ngokuyeka umlutha wam, into eyayingeyinyani kunye nento eyayiba ingqwalasela yam
- Ndiyazi ukuba uhambo lwam alukapheli. Ndisenokubongoza ngamanye amaxesha. Ukuyilayita, njengonyango lwam. Oko kubonisa amanyala, kuyonwabisa ...
- Kodwa ke ndiyaqonda ukuba ndingaba bubudenge xa ndibuya, kwiimpawu zokuphila ezinemizuzu emine kunye ne-1 imizuzu yokuhlala yesondo
- Ukutshintshela ntoni? Ukukhawuleza kwangoko kwe-dopamine entlokweni yam eyayiza kubangela ezinye iinyanga ze-3?
Yintoni eyandinceda?
- Amaphepha enkxaso, rhoqo xa ndivakalelwa kukuba ndiza kuhamba ndivakatye iifom kwaye ndafunda, ndaqhubeka ndifunda
- ukutya, nangona andiyazi ukuba Inceda kakhulu okanye ncinane nje, iiveki ezimbalwa ngaphambi kokuba ndiyeke ukubukela iifostile ndatshintsha ukutya kwam, ndayeka ukudla ukutya kwidayari, ukunciphisa inyama yokutya, ndaqalisa ukutya ukutya okuninzi kunye nemigodi, ikakhulukazi kwaye ndiyinqumle ngokupheleleyo ukutya okungafunekiyo, emva koko kwongezwa i-chlorella kunye ne-omega amafutha njengezongezelelo zokuncedisa ubuchopho bam ngokubuyiselwa kwakhona
- Ndaye ndaqonda ukuba yonke into eyenziwa ngumzi-mveliso we-porn ayisiyonyani, abasetyhini, isenzo, iimvakalelo ezivela kuyo… .ngoku iyaziva ingaziwa kum, zonke ezo zinto zifakelweyo ezingezizo, ukuzenzela, iimeko ezingezizo, ubudlelwane, ii-orgasms , ipenisi ezingezizo, njl. Ewe, abasetyhini banokubonakala bebhetele kunakubomi bokwenyani, kodwa ngenxa yokuba bengabadlali, behlawulwe. Ngumsebenzi wabo.
- Kwaye ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba andifuni ukubukela abanye abantu besabelana ngesondo kwakhona. Ndifuna ukuba wonwabele! Ukuphila okwenyani, ayisiyonyani eyenzeka kwimovie.
Eli libali lam ke, ndiyazi ukuba alikapheli, ndiyazi ukuba ndishiya ngasemva enye indlela yokuzanelisa kwangoko, kodwa andivumi ukuhlawula iindleko zalo kwakhona.
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