Imvelaphi yam: ayiqalekanga ngoJanuwari ngo-2012. Ndiyenzile ngenxa yeengxaki ze-ED endizifumene ngenxa yexesha lam elide, u-PMO ogqithiseleyo. Ngokwenene, andinakufumana ukulungiswa ngaphandle kokuba ndikhange ngesikrini kwikhompyutheni xa ndizingelwa ngenxa yokuhamba kwefap. Ndaqala i-PMO xa ndingu 11 kwaye ndenza umkhuba wemihla ngemihla kwiminyaka eyi-12 elandelayo okanye kunjalo. Ngeli xesha ndafumana amava ambalwa angaphantsi kwe-PMO kwaye ndahlala ngonaphakade yintombi ngenxa yeempembelelo ezingenayo i-PMO eyayinakho kwengqondo. Ukuqonda ingxaki enkulu yokuba i-PMO yayindim, ndahamba iintsuku ezili-142 phambi kokuba ngokuzithandela ndiyibize iyeke ngoJuni ka-2012. Eli lelona xesha lotshintsho, litshintsha ubomi, lixesha lokukhula komntu endaphambana naye. Iindlela ezitshintshe ngayo ingqondo nomzimba wam ngeli xesha zinzulu kakhulu ukuba zichazwe apha. Ndingabhala incwadi epheleleyo ngayo. Kodwa isiqwenga esifanelekileyo sale posi kukuba ndifumene i-GF yam yokuqala yokwenene kwaye ndalahlekelwa bubuntombi bam kuye. Kwaye ndiqinisekile ukuba i-nofap yayinayo yonke into enokuyenza ngayo.
Ndayibiza ngokuba iyayeka kuba ngelo xesha ndaziva ngathi "ndinyange ngokwaneleyo". Ndikwazile ukuyifumana nzima ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndiyincamathisele emntwini, ke yintoni injongo yokuqhubeka nale nto, ndacinga. Andisekho ukubongoza okunamandla okuhlala ndedwa kwaye ndisebumnyameni mihla le. Iiseshoni zam ze-fap zaqala zahlukaniswa malunga nenyanga, emva kweveki, emva kweentsuku ezimbalwa ngaphambili, ekugqibeleni, ukuyenza yonke imihla kwakhona. Kwaye i-ED ibuyile. Ayomelelanga njengokuba yayinjalo ekuqaleni, kodwa ndiziva ngathi ukugula kusekho engqondweni yam. Jonga le post ndiyenze ngoNovemba odlulileyo ngezinye.
Ngokwenyani khange ndikwazi ukuqala i-streak yam yangoku kude kube nguJanuwari ophelileyo, ngoku kwiintsuku ze-78. Kwaye ndiziva ndikhululekile. Ndaqala ukulala ngesondo rhoqo nomntu endidibene naye kutshanje, endisebenza naye. Kuqhelekile, ngokwesicelo sakhe, kulungile ngam, nangona ndingathanda ukuba kubudlelwane obunzulu nomntu. (I-Sidenote: i-ED ayikabikho ngokupheleleyo okwangoku. Inxalenye yayo kukulutha kwe-PMO, kwaye inxenye yayo kukukhathazeka xa usenza le nto. Ndaye ndanyaniseka kuye malunga nokulutha kwam i-PMO kunye nendlela ekuchaphazela ngayo ukulungiswa kwam kwaye ndaqinisekisa ukuba uyazi ukuba ayinanto enxulumene naye. Ndicinga ukuba uyayixabisa loo nto kwaye ibonakala ilungile. ke manene, nyaniseka kwaye nibe nembono ephambili malunga nemiba yenu. Uya kuthi anincome ngokunyaniseka kwenu.) Kodwa into entle apha kum kukuba Ndenza ngokunyanisekileyo ukunyanzelisa ukwenzela ukuba olu dlelwane lwenzeke. Ukuba le ibindim pre-nofap, ngendandihleli phantsi ndamlinda ukuba abonakalise umdla kum, ndimgcwalisele kude kwi-spankbank yam kwaye ndoneliseke okwethutyana kunye nam. Kodwa ayisiyiyo le yenzekileyo. Ndenze isigqibo sokuba ndiyamfuna, kwaye xa ithuba livelile, ndazibeka phaya, ndazenzela, ndamthatha. Ndayifumana ke le ndiyifunayo. Inkulu. Ndacinga ngeebhola zam kwaye hayi ngentloko yam kwaba kanye, ebendikade ndisenza ubomi bam bonke. Kwaye ndaqonda, ukuba Le yindlela efunekayo. Ndenzelwe ukwenza oku. Ndingumatshini, amathambo, izihlunu, igazi, izitho, isikhumba, onamandla okwenza ubuhlobo bezesondo kunye nolunye uomatshini bobulili obuhlukile ukwenzela ukwenza oomatshini abancinane abenza into efanayo.
Njengomatshini njengoko isivakalisi sokugqibela sinokubonakala ngathi, ukuza koku kuqonda kundinyanzela ukuba ndiwuxabise umzimba wam ngendlela entsha. Ukuba ndiza kuwonga umzimba wam ngendlela efanayo endihlonipha ngayo ubukrelekrele bam, okanye ndihlonipha umoya wam, akufuneki ndiyeke. Kwaye ndiye ndafunda ukuthanda ngokwenene umzimba wam.
Ke ndiyeka umnqweno wam wokutshintsha kunye nokuguqula loo nto ube ngumnqweno wokuhlonipha umzimba wam ngokuwusebenzisa ngendlela ebefanele ukuba isetyenziswe ngayo. Abanye benu banokuba bayayifunda le nto kwaye bacinge "Yintoni le ndoda isihogo, yinto nje yokuphulula amalungu esini, uyithatha kakhulu". Ewe, kwabanye abantu kunokuba yinyani. Kodwa, kwabo singenathamsanqa ngokwaneleyo ukuba singenamkhawulo, ukufikelela kwangoko kwi-intanethi xa sasikwishumi elivisayo, kubi kakhulu. Ubundlobongela bam buye bonakaliswa ngokusisigxina, kwaye, ngendlela efanayo ukuba utywala unxila ngenxa yobomi nangona ebeneminyaka engapheliyo, ndingumlutha we-PMO ubomi bam bonke. Kwaye ixesha elininzi lalilixesha lam, ndandihamba kancinci kodwa ngokuqinisekileyo ndiyachacha, kwaye ndiyazi ukuba ndiza kuphuma phezulu, ndinamandla kunakuqala ngenxa yala mava andenze ndalwela
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