Ndineminyaka engama-25 ubudala. Kwandithatha malunga neenyanga ze-18 zokuphinda ndiqalise ukundifumana kwi-ED epheleleyo kunye ne-50% yokwakhiwa ukuya kweyona ndawo inamandla endiye ndanayo ukususela ekubeni ndingumntwana kunye nemiba ye-ED ngokupheleleyo.
Imvelaphi ekhawulezayo: Ndazalelwa eSan Antonio, eTexas apho ndandithanda ubuntwana obumangalisayo. Usapho olukhulu, abahlobo abakhulu, kwaye wayebandakanyeka kakhulu kwimidlalo ekhula.
Ndaqala ukwenza i-masturbated xa ndandineminyaka eyi-12 okanye i-13 kwi-porn ye-lesbian. Andizange ndilukholelwe ulonwabo lwe-orgasing okokuqala ngqa ukwenzeka. Kwiminyaka eyi-3 okanye ye-4 elandelayo ndaphulula i-masturbated phantse yonke imihla kunye nangaphandle kwe-porn njengoko ndandithanda ukusebenzisa ingcinga yam ngokunjalo. Unyaka wam omncinci kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo ndajola nentombazana okwethutyana kwaye ndaphulukana nobuntombi bam kuye, kodwa ukumiswa kwam kwakungekho kubi kakhulu ngakumbi kuba yayilixesha lam lokuqala nentombazana kwaye imincili yaloo nto yayiphuma eluphahleni. Asizange sabelana ngesondo ngaphezu kwamaxesha ambalwa. Andizange ndiphinde ndilale ngesondo kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo nto leyo eyayingaqhelekanga kuba ndandingulo mfo ukuba isangqa sakhe esiphambili se-15 okanye abahlobo ababeza kuhlangana kunye rhoqo ngeempelaveki, kodwa kwakhona yayingumfana owayezingela izinto ezininzi ezahlukeneyo. izangqa zentlalo. Ngokungabikho kwesondo, ndenza i-masturbate a shit ton ingakumbi ekubeni ndifumene i-laptop kunye ne-iphone ngeli xesha. Umama wade wandingena kanye xa ndiyenza yaye eso siganeko silihlazo asizange sindithobekise.
Ndaya ekholejini kwiYunivesithi yaseTexas kwaye ndahlala kwigumbi lokulala eli-4 kunye nabantu abathile abangakhethiyo ababephuma bonke kwaye kumnandi kakhulu unyaka wam omtsha. Sonke sasidlala ibhola yomnyazi kwaye sibethe kwindawo yokuzivocavoca kunye ngokuhlwa kunye namatheko ngeempelaveki. Andizange ndibe nangxaki yokukhohlisa kunye nabasetyhini kwaye ndize ndizise unyaka omncinci we-Freshman ekhaya kwaye ndabelana ngesondo esilungileyo. Ndiqaphele ukuba uqhaqho alukho ngamandla, kodwa ndacinga ukuba butywala okanye le ntombazana ndivele ndiqhubele phambili. Kunyaka wam we-Freshman ukusetyenziswa kwe-porn kwaqala ukwanda ngakumbi. Ndiza kusebenzisa i-PMO njengendlela yokubaleka uxinzelelo ngakumbi kwiveki yokugqibela kwaye ekugqibeleni ukusetyenziswa kwe-PMO kuye komelela ngakumbi. Ndangena kwiifesti ezahlukeneyo kwaye ukusukela ngoko ukuya phambili kwi-PMO'd ubuncinci amaxesha ama-2 ngosuku kuyo yonke ikholeji. Ndaba ngumntu othandabuzayo ndaza ndaphelelwa ngamabhongo. Ndayeka ukudlala ibhola yomnyazi ndaza ndayeka ukusebenza ixesha elininzi. Ndisazinyanzele ukuba ndiye kwiintlanganiso zombutho, kwiiklasi, nakwizinto ezinjalo, kodwa kwakunjalo nakubahlobo bam abandixhasayo. Xa ndiphuma nabantu, ndisaphuma njengaloo mfana omnandi kunye noluntu, kodwa engqondweni yam, ndandisoloko ndifuna ukushiya imicimbi yentlalontle kwaye ndibuyele ekhaya kwaye ndiphulule i-porn.
Ngokukhawuleza nje ukugqiba kwam ekholejini, ndagqiba ekubeni ndifudukele kwindawo apho ndandiza kunyanzeleka ukuba ndenze abahlobo ukuze ndingabi lusizi. Ndafudukela kwisiXeko saseNew York ekuqaleni kuka-2011 kwaye esi yayisisigqibo esihle endakha ndasenza. Ndafumana umsebenzi ohlawula kakuhle kumzi-mveliso ohlonelwayo yaye ndandingasebenzi nzima njengoontanga bam basebhankini. Ndandisebenza iiyure ezingama-50 ukuya kwezingama-60 ngeveki yaye ndandihlala kwigumbi elincinane lokulala eli-3. Le yayiyeyona nto ilungileyo kwezakha zandehlela. Ndanyanzelwa ukuba ndiphume endlwini phantse iiyure ezili-12 ngosuku kwaye ukuza ekhaya kwindlu encinci yayingeyona nto inomtsalane kangangokuba ndanyanzeleka ukuba ndenze abahlobo, ndisebenze, ndiziphose, njl njl. Ndade ndaqala ukuthandana kwakhona. Ndandinabafazi endandihlala nabo endandisiya nabo kumatheko. Ngethamsanqa, baya kwi-NYU kwaye baba nesangqa esomeleleyo sentlalontle.
Ndenze i-masturbated kanye nge-2 okanye iintsuku ze-3 kwi-2011 eyayingaphantsi kakhulu kunexesha elidlulileyo kwaye andizange ndisebenzise i-porn phantse kangangoko. Ndalala ngesondo okokuqala ngqa kwi-2011 kwaye yayingentle. Ndadakumba kwaye umkhwa wam we-PMO wathatha kancinci ngakumbi ukuya kwiinyanga zasebusika apho ndandingafuni ukuphuma kakhulu. Ngasekupheleni kuka-2011 - Emva kwexesha lika-2012, ndaqala ukuthandana kwaye ngokwenene ndazama ukulala ngesondo malunga ne-20 okanye amaxesha amaninzi kwaye ndaphumelela ngamaxesha e-3 kuphela. Ndifumene i-YBOP phakathi kukaJulayi kwaye ndayeka i-porn kunye ne-masturbation, kodwa iibhola ezihlaza okwesibhakabhaka zihlala zindityhalela ukuba ndiphulule. Izihlandlo ezi-2 kwezi-3 eziphumeleleyo zafika emva kwexesha ngo-2012 kwaye zazisondele kwi-75% yokwakhiwa nakwikhondom ukuze ndibone ukuphucuka okuthile. Ngelo xesha, ndagqiba ekubeni ndiyeke ukuthandana kwaye ndizinike ixesha lokungabi nabafazi.
Ndahamba iintsuku ze-62 kungekho PMO kwaye ndaqala ukuthandana kwakhona. Ndikhumbula ndifumana isiqabu ngokumncamisa nje. Yayintsha ke leyo kum. Azange yenzeke nakum ehigh school. Ngaphambili, ukuncamisa kwakungathethi nto kum ekubeni yayindiqhuba ngokwenene, kodwa nokuncamisa kwakundinceda. Kwiiveki ezimbalwa emva koko ndalala ngekhondom kwaye ndaye ndanzima kakhulu. Notywala buncede. Sabelana ngesondo izihlandlo ezimbalwa, kodwa sahlukana njengoko wayekhangela umntu oqolileyo ngakumbi. Ndingathanda kwakhona ukongeza ukuba ndiqale ukusebenza ngakumbi ngasekupheleni kuka-2012 kwaye ekuqaleni kuka-2013 kwaye ndafaka malunga neepounds ezingama-30 zesihlunu kwisakhelo sam sika-5'9".
Kwiinyanga ezi-3 okanye ze-4 ezizayo, ndayeka ukuphulula i-masturbating ndide ndibe ngumhla kwaye ngokuqhelekileyo ndenza i-30 kwiintsuku ze-40 akukho PMO. Ndaxuba ngakumbi ukuthandana kwaye ngcono iziphumo ndazifumana. Ngokwenene ndazibona ndifuna ukuchitha ixesha elingakumbi nala mabhinqa. Ndandingacingi ngokugoduka ndihambe ndihambe okanye ndiye kwiindawo zokusela nabahlobo. Ngengqondo, ndandifuna ukuba kunye naba bafazi kwaye ndandifuna ukusondelana. Ingqondo yam yatshintsha yabangcono ngeli xesha lolula kwaye ndiyabalula ukuba konke oko kukwenziwa ngokutsha.
Iimvakalelo zam bezikuyo yonke indawo! Ndifumana ngakumbi encanyathiselwe ngakumbi kwabasetyhini kwaye ukuphendula ngokweemvakalelo ngexesha iingxabano okanye ukulwa. Ndikhe ndaneemvakalelo ezithe kratya emsebenzini ngokunjalo ezinokuthi zibe yingozi, kodwa ndiyathanda ukuba nomlilo omncinci okanye i-zest ngexesha lonxibelelwano lwam lwemihla ngemihla. Ingathi ngenene ndisabela kuyo yonke into endingqongileyo kunokuba ndibe yirobhothi eyenza nje ngendlela ebefanele ukwenza ngayo.
Ndiye ndakwazi ukulala ngesondo iintsuku ezi-3 ngokulandelelana kunye ne-erections enamandla kwaye akukho miba ye-PE. Ngaphezulu koko, naliphi na ixhala endandinalo ngaphambi kokuba ndibe neentlobano zesini ngoku longanyelwe yimincili endinokuba nayo. Andikhumbuli ndinemincili enje naxa ndisesikolweni samabanga aphakamileyo.
Iingcebiso ezisi-7 zethamsanqa:
- Ukuba wenza i-masturbate, susa isihogo kude nekhompyuter ukuze ungafane uwele kumsukeli.
- Phinda uqhagamshelane. Phinda uqhagamshelane. Phinda uqhagamshelane. Ndicinga ukuba uninzi lwenkqubela-phambili yam yavela kwirewiring.
- Phuma kwindawo yakho yokuthuthuzela. Ukuba awuthandi ukudibana namantombazana, hamba udibana namantombazana, kodwa wenze njalo ngendlela enobuhlobo kwaye usondele kubo. Zama ukudibana kunye nomhla nabahlobo babo, kodwa qaphela iibhulorho onokutshisa.
- Musa ukusebenzisa izongezo. Isusa ingqondo yakho kwinjongo ephambili engeyiyo i-PMO kwaye iya kwenza ukuba ufune ukuzivavanya ngokuhlela.
- Khumbula ukuba i-PMO lutshintsho lwendlela yokuphila kwaye ayisiyiyo into oyeka ukuyenza nge-90, i-180, i-360 yeentsuku ozibekayo.
- Thatha into yokuzonwabisa esebenzayo eya kukucela umngeni ukuba ufunde okanye ubonise umqobo ekufuneka uwoyise. Ndandidla ngokudlala isiginci, umdaniso wehip-hop, nokukhwela ilitye.
- Yonwabela ubomi! Phuma nje ngaphandle kwekhaya lakho kwaye uphile ubomi bakho. Ndingumlandeli omkhulu wenkqubo ethi How I Met Your Mother kwaye enye yezinto endiye ndacinga ngayo ngamabali endiza kuwabalisela abantwana bam. Andifuni ukubaxelela ibali elikruqulayo malunga nendlela endandine-PIED ngayo kwaye ndandingumntu wasekhaya owayengenayo i-drive. Ndifuna ukubanika ibali lobomi elichulumancisayo abanokufunda kulo. Ndineminyaka engama-25 kuphela ngoko ndinohambo olude malunga namava obomi. Uninzi lwenu malunga nobudala obufanayo okanye umncinci ke phila ubomi obufanele ukuthetha ngabo!
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