Ndiziva ndinoloyiko olukhulu xa ndibhala ingxelo yam yeentsuku ezingama-90. Ndandineenkolelo ezininzi zobuxoki malunga nokuba yayiza kuba njani imini ye-90. Phantse zonke zazingalunganga. Inye into endinokuyenza apha kukuthetha ngokusuka entliziyweni. Ndifuna ukukuxelela indlela amava am abe ngayo. Yenzeka njani.
Kwiintsuku ezingama-90 ezidlulileyo ndiye ndayitsibela mhlawumbi ka-6-10 ngeveki ngokuxhomekeke kumsebenzi endinawo ngaloo veki. Ndandingathandwa ngamabhinqa noko. Ndandiyindoda eneminyaka eyi-26 eyayikhe yalala ngeny' imini. Kuluntu lwethu olunesini esigqithisileyo oko kuvakala kulusizi. Kodwa andisakhathali ngaloo nto. Andisayikhathaleli into yokuba i-porn ithathe iindlela zokufumana ubuhlobo obusondeleyo. Andisakhathali ukuba umntu obhinqileyo uyala umzamo wam wokuba kubudlelwane naye. Ayisenguye umntu ofumana ubunzima kuphela xa ehleli egumbini lakhe ejonge kwiscreen apho wayenokubona konke ukonakala okunokwenzeka ngelixa engazange azive obo buhlobo bomfazi wokwenyani. Ndifuna ukufumana ubomi bokwenyani kunye nobudlelwane obusondeleyo. Ndifuna ukuba ngumntu wokwenene ophila kwihlabathi lokwenyani.
Akukho nanye kwezi ngcinga ngezenzekile ukuba ibingekho i-nofap. Kwakhona, akukho nanye kwezi ngcamango yayiza kucaca njengemini ukuba andizange ndibuyele amaxesha e-3 izolo. Kanye kusasa namaxesha amabini emva kwe-uni phezu kwebhedi yam. Uyalibala ukuba kubi kangakanani emva koko ukuba awuyenzanga kwiinyanga ezi-3. Ngoku ndiyaqonda ukuba ukuba ndiyafafa ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale usuku lwam, kufana nokusika i-oksijini yam ngesiqingatha sosuku. Ngokwenene kuvakala ngathi ufuna ukuhlala ebhedini yakho imini yonke. Thixo wam imvakalelo yenkungu kunye nokudinwa ivakala ngathi unobunzima obuyi-10kg kuwe imini yonke. Andikhathali ngokuzisola emva kwejizi okanye isiphithiphithi okanye ukungcola, kodwa ndiyakwenyanya ukudinwa kunye nemvakalelo engathandekiyo oyifumana emva kwayo. Bendiziva ngathi andenzi nto kwiveki elandelayo nangona bendicwangcise iveki yonke.
Iintsuku ze-90 zandicinga ukuba ukuba nexesha elinzima ekuseni okanye ngokuhlwa okanye emgceni kwivenkile yegrosari kungcono kune-shitty ediniweyo imvakalelo engathandekiyo oyifumanayo emva kwefap.
Ndiyazi ukuba kutheni i-fapping ayisayi kuba yinto esisigxina ebomini bam. Ndiziva ndonwabile ukuba yonke le nto isusiwe esifubeni sam. Ndiza kuphinda ndilungise ibheji yam xa ndivuka ngomso kusasa. UNofap undicinge kakhulu. Ngoku ndiyaqonda ukuba le subreddit indinike yonke into enokundinika yona. Emva kokusetha kwakhona ibheji yam ndisenokubuya ngamaxesha athile kodwa ukuze ndizikhumbuze ukuba kutheni le ndlela yobomi ilungile. Yindlela entsha yokubona ihlabathi.
LINK - Le yingxelo yam yeentsuku ezingama-90. Baninzi abanje kodwa lo ngowam.
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