Ndineminyaka engama-27 ubudala kwaye ndichithe ngaphezulu kweshumi leminyaka ndilikhoboka le-porn, kwaye ndiphethwe yi-ED enzima iminyaka emithandathu yaloo minyaka. Ngeli xesha kulo nyaka uphelileyo, bendizibuza ukuba ndingaze ndikwazi na ukuba nobudlelwane obunempilo nomfazi. Nge-ED ibe yingxaki ephindaphindiweyo, andizange ndibone ukuba inokwenzeka njani. Oku kwandenza ndadandatheka, nto leyo eyayenza yambi ngakumbi imeko.
Ndandisele ndiyincamile into endandinethemba lokuba iya kuba likamva lam njengomyeni notata onothando. Ngoku, ngaphezu kweenyanga ezisibhozo emva kokuba ndiyekile ukubukela i-porn, ndibuyele ngokupheleleyo ngandlela zonke. Ndinobudlelwane obumangalisayo nentombazana entle kwaye sobabini sinesondo esihle kakhulu ebomini bethu.
Andiyithethi le nto yokugcoba, kodwa ukuxelela nabani na ophethwe yi-ED kunye nemiba emininzi yengqondo enokuthi ivele kuyo, ewe, unokuzilungisa ngokwenene. Ndakhuthazwa kakhulu ngala mabali empumelelo xa ndandiqala uhambo lwam, ngoko ke yeyona nto incinci endinokuyenza ukuzama ukuyihlawula phambili.
Enye into endifuna ukuyiqaphela kukuba andiqinisekanga nge-100% ukuba ukuyeka i-porn kwakukuphela kwesizathu sokuba ukumiswa kwam kubuye. Andithandabuzi ukuba oku kudlale indima enkulu, kodwa ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiye kwi-anti-depressant malunga neenyanga ezintlanu ezidlulileyo. Zombini ezi zigqibo (ukuyeka iphonografi kunye nokunyanga ukudandatheka kwam) kwatshintsha ubomi bam ukuba bube ngcono, kodwa andinakukwazi ukusho ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba yiyiphi eyona nto yayijongene nokunyanga i-ED yam.
Ngapha koko, ndikhankanya oku kuba ndiqinisekile ukuba kufuneka kubekho amadoda apha phandle anengxaki yoxinzelelo kunye ne-PIED. Ukuba kunjalo, ndincoma kakhulu ukuba a) uyeke i-porn kunye b) uthethe nogqirha wakho malunga ne-anti-depressant. Kwaye nceda ugcine engqondweni, ukuqhubeka ne-anti-depressants kuyingozi kwiiveki ezimbalwa zokuqala. Noko yayingamava am lawo. Bendingenawo nawaphi na amandla, i-libido yam ithe tyaba, kwaye ndaziva ndingenamdla wokwenza nantoni na enemveliso. Ekugqibeleni lo mnqa uqhubekile, kwaye ndavela kuyo indoda entsha.
Iingcinga zam zikuye nabani na osebenza ukoyisa oku. Nceda uzive ukhululekile ukuphendula kule nto okanye ndi-IM ukuba ndinganceda nangayiphi na indlela. Best of luck bazalwana.
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