Okokuqala ndineminyaka engama-30 ubudala. Phantse kwiminyaka emi-2 eyadlulayo ndandikweyona ndawo iphantsi ebomini bam. Ndaye ndafikelela kwinqanaba lokuba ndingasakwazi nokusela ibhiya ngaphandle kokuhlaselwa luloyiko olukhulu ndingasatshayi nantoni na eneTHC.
Beka le ngoma ngasemva xa ufunda oku ngexabiso elongezelelweyo. 😉 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T8tGCVavS5s
Ngokuqinisekileyo ndiye ndacinga okona kubi kakhulu, iitoni zokuqeshwa koogqirha kunye notyelelo lwe-ER kamva ndathatha isigqibo sokuba ngokuqinisekileyo ndiza kuphambana kwaye yonke le nto ingunobangela wokhula. Ndayeka ukutshaya ngoko nangoko kwaye ndaqalisa ukuchitha zonke iiyure zam zokusebenza ndifunda i-psychology kwaye ndizixilonga ngayo yonke ingxaki yobuntu ekhoyo, nditshintsha ukuba yeyiphi ngokuxhomekeke kwisimo sam.
Lafika ihlobo ndingaziva mntu ngalo lonke ihlobo, ndalichitha lonke ndisilwa neengcinga ezinyanzelekileyo endandingazifuni apha entloko, zindoyikisa kwada kwafikelela esiphelweni. Ndaye ndafikelela kwinqanaba apho ndiye ndaqalisa ukoyika ukuba phakathi kwabantu cause ndandisoyika ukuba ndinokuba ne-psychosis ndivele ndiphulukane nengqondo yam ngokupheleleyo mhlawumbi ndivisa omnye umntu.
Khange ndiyibone ngelaxesha, I really had no idea cause that's how blind you end up. hayi nalapho ndibukele iphonografi kwigumbi lokuhlala likamakhulu kwilaptop yam, ndingqongwe zizihlobo ezihleli 5 iinyawo kude yafika kum ukuba ndinengxaki enkulu.
Yikholwa okanye hayi, bekuya kudlula iinyanga ezimbalwa nakweli nqanaba ngaphambi kokuba ngequbuliso ngexesha leseshoni yokutshaya eyayingeyonto imbi yotshintsho; ngequbuliso ndaqonda ukuba isizathu sokuba ndizive ndilungile ngamaxesha athile obomi bam kwakungenxa yokuba yayingamaxesha apho mna, ngenxa yamandla angalawulekiyo ndandikude ne-PMO ixesha elide.
UMCULO WOKUFUNDA KAKHULU: http://www.radioforest.net/radio/frisky-chill-feelin-frisky/5406 Ndigqibezele ukuqalisa kwam kwakhona, ngamahlandinyuka ahlukeneyo angayi kubandakanywa. Kwanele ukuthi uhambo lweentsuku ezingama-90 yayilelona xesha linzima ebomini bam. Ayinasizathu sokuba kwakunzima kakhulu ukuhlala kude ne-PMO, eyayiyiyo.
Kunzima kakhulu ukujongana nawe.
Kwakunzima kuba inkumbulo yam yaqala ukubuya. Ndaye ndaqala ukuqonda into endiyenza ngexesha lam yonke le minyaka.
Ibali elide "elifutshane" ndiphela kumanqaku eentsuku ezingama-90, ukuzithemba okungagungqiyo kunye ne-ego enkulu. Ndihamba-hamba ngokuzithemba kwam okutsha kwimowudi ye-narcissist epheleleyo, ndicinga ukuba yonke into ayinakuba ngcono.
Yonke into ilungile kwaye abafazi bayawa xa ndidlula kubo, wonke umntu uyandifuna. “Thixo ndiyagungqisa, ndiyekile iphonografi kwaye ngoku ndine-SUPERPOWERS(!!!) kwaye ilizwe lisango lam. Ndingenza nantoni na! WOW ndiyamangalisa, akukho mntu unamandla njengam, ndiyekile i-PMO, haha ndiyazibuza ukuba ngaba kukho abantu abasaphulula amaphambili?! HAHA ABALAHLI!! Hamba uyolala endaweni yoko njengendoda yokwenyani HAHA! Thixo ndiyamangalisa, ngubani ofuna ukubulisa kumhlobo wam omncinci!?" Ekugqibeleni ndiyabunandipha ubomi kwakhona, ekugqibeleni lithuba lam lokuba ndiphile. Ekugqibeleni ndingumntu! Kunene?
Ndiyathemba ukuba oku kuya kubetha umnwe kuninzi lwenu magqala phaya, kuba kufanele.
Ngombulelo nangona ngenye imini kwixesha elingekude kakhulu yandibetha indlela endiye ndaba lisela lamandla ngayo. Ndiyathetha ndincokole andizithulele tu, ubusuku bonke ndincokola ngeengxaki zam nento endiyenzileyo kule veki. Ukuphosa imibuzo ethile kwaye abanye bazenza ngathi baphulaphule ekugqibeleni ukuze bangabi krwada. “It's okay thought cause ndonwabile kwaye ndiyabuthanda ubomi bam kakhulu ngoku! "
Ndihlala ndihleka nezinto endingazifumani zihlekisayo kuba ndikwimood entle, ndihlala ndifuna incoko enzulu, echukumisekileyo, ndikhala ngengxaki endiyifumeneyo ebomini (ebingekho mbi kangako. Wonke umntu uneziva .) Ndinxiba nje abantu phantsi kwi-nub ngexesha lobusuku ngamandla am amandla kunye nobuntu bam. Kwaye xa beqala ukundiphepha kamva ndiye ndathi: “Hah, bakhuphe abakhuselekanga. Ndingcono kunabo ngoku ndibheja ukuba babukele iphonografi imini yonke, iihippie ezilambathayo!” Ndiqala ukuphuhlisa i-god complex.
Yandibetha ngephanyazo kwaye ngaphandle kweblue, ngathi amehlo am atyhilekile ngesiquphe. ndiphantse ndahendeka ukuba ndithi ndizuze ukukhanyiselwa.
Ngequbuliso yonke into iyavakala!
Ngokusisiseko into endizama ukunxibelelana apha kukuba, umceli mngeni awupheli ngeNoFap. Ilungisa nje umngxuma kumandla akho, idreyini ekugcina ukwimeko yokungaphili. I-NoFap ikunika imvakalelo entsha yokuzithemba kunye nokhuseleko. Awunaloyiko. Amandla okubalelwa kuye. Ungaboyikisa abantu ngenkangeleko enye.
Ikunika isazisi esitsha.
Kodwa ingqondo, kwaye abanye basenokuthi, iingxaki zokomoya ezikwenze wabhenela kwiphonografi zisekho, ngoku zigqunywe yintembelo entsha. Ulibele ngomntwana wangaphakathi, inkwenkwana/intombazana eyoyikayo obuyithwele ngaphakathi kuwe yonke le minyaka. Umntwana omncinci onethemba kunye namaphupha, iitalente kunye neminqweno azalwe nayo. Umntwana okhutshiweyo wenziwa ukuba azive engento yanto kwaye engento yanto.
Kukho isazisi sokwenyani ngaphakathi kuwe esifuna ukuba ufezekise izinto ezinkulu, kodwa i-ego yakho etyumkileyo iyayithintela ekwenzeni nantoni na ngaphandle kokuzithuthuzela nge-porn kwaye ngoku iyavukela. Ikuxelela ukuba yindoda, yeka ukuzibamba wena shitkid.
Emva koko unomntwana wangaphakathi, lowo ubaleke waya ehlathini kunye nayo yonke italente ebangela ukuba umoyike. Inxalenye yakho eyenza uzive iqhina esiswini sakho, loo mvakalelo yoloyiko ebonakala ngokungacwangciswanga ngamanye amaxesha xa ucelwa umngeni okanye ubona umntu ongamthandiyo. Loyo ngulo wangaphakathi umntana wakho uyakhala cause uyoyika,ndikhaphe siye kulamanyala please ndiphinde ndizive ndikhuselekile!
Funeka usondele apha ngathi ngumntwana owoyikayo okwaziyo nje ngomntu owakhe wamenza intlungu ngaphambili. Kuya kufuneka uphinde uthembele ukuze uphile kunye kwaye ekugqibeleni uyeke umsindo kunye nosizi onalo ngaphakathi kuwe ukuze ubuchule bakho buqalise ukuqhakaza. Kufuneka wenze umntwana akuxolele ngento oyifake kuyo.
Ukuba oku akukho ngqiqweni xa uyifunda kusenokuthetha ukuba ndingumbhali ombi okanye oko kunokuthetha ukuba lo ngumxholo ekufuneka uwunike ingqwalasela ukuze ubangele ukuba ubalulekile. Masingaziqhathi ukuba ngokwenene uneengxaki zokuyeka into encinci njengokuyeka i-PMO emva koko unengxaki kwaye kufuneka uyilungise.
Kwaye ngoku kutheni kubalulekile ukuba ungayeki i-PMO kuphela, kodwa kunye nokuqhubeka nokuthanda ubulili endikufumeneyo, kwaye uninzi lwakho luya kufumana xa ufikelela kwiintsuku ezingama-90. Xa uqala ukutsala abafazi ngasekhohlo nasekunene.
Kufuneka ufunde ukuba amandla akho asiyonto oyilahlayo kwinto engenamsebenzi njengokuhla. Umnqweno wesondo sisipho sakho ebomini, unomnqweno wokwabelana ngesondo ophezulu kakhulu kunesiqhelo othetha ukuba uphezulu kakhulu kunamanqanaba aqhelekileyo amandla. Okuthetha ukuba ukuba uyeka ukumosha.
Uyakwazi ukususa iintaba. Ufumana into othanda ukuyenza, uqala ukucula, ukupeyinta, uqalise ukufundela ukuba ngugqirha wamazinyo ngomlilo omtsha kunye nothando ongazange waluva ngaphambili. Ubugcisa buphuma emphefumlweni wakho.
Ukwabelana ngesondo kuthatha into. Uyayeka ukuzibandakanya nabafazi abanetyhefu onokuthi ungabachukumisi ngepali yeenyawo ezilishumi ukuba bekungengenxa yokuba uyazitshabalalisa kwaye wonakele ngaphakathi.
Uya kuqaphela alot of umfazi utsaleleke ngokwasemzimbeni akukho umdla ubangela ukuba utsaleleke kwindlela abakwenza uzive endaweni, ujongeka ukubamba into. ixhala ukuba awuvumi okwangoku.)
Ukwabelana ngesondo kufuneka kube yinto phakathi kwabantu ababelana ngonxibelelwano hayi ukulungiswa kweziyobisi ngokukhawuleza. Onke la mandla sisizathu sokuba abanye abantu babe ziinkwenkwezi zerock kwaye kutheni wena (kunye nam) sihleli kwisihlalo sePC siphupha ngokuba sinye.
Amandla okwabelana ngesondo ngumnqweno wokwenza! Ukusukela, ukoyisa, ukufunxa imfumba yemali ngaphezulu kwayo yonke loo manyala uwoyisileyo yenza ukuba ukhathalele ukoyisa kunokoyikisa.
Ngoko ke yeka ukubaleka kwaye uyoyisa! Ndiqinisekile njengesihogo.
- phandle
TL; DR VERSION:
Ubomi bancanca emva koko baba mnandi, baqala ukuncanca kancinci kwakhona kwaye ngoku bukwinqanaba le-NORMAL kwaye ndisebenzisa iitalente zam okokuqala kwiminyaka eyi-15.
Qaphela ukuba uhambo lude kwaye i-NoFap yi-1% yohambo kwaye ayilungisi iingxaki zakho eziphambili, kwaye zikhona. Ndithembe. Awukababoni okwangoku.
Iintsuku zam ezingama-90 zandinika ukuzithemba kunye namandla okusukela kunye nokunxanelwa ubomi, kodwa bendisasebenza njenge-prick kunye notyekelo lwe-narcissistic ochithe onke amandla ekujongeni abafazi kunye nokucinga ngesondo.
Konke kungenxa yokuba ndandingekabi nalo uxolo lwangaphakathi. Bendingekamfumani kwaye ndiphinde ndadibana nomntwana wam wangaphakathi.
Ukwabelana ngesondo yinkcitho engenamsebenzi yexesha lokuchitha amandla. Usemncinci, AKUMVA kwexesha nokuba ilizwi elinomsindo lisentloko yakho likuxelela ukuba linjalo. Unetalente enkulu kunye nokubanakho, unomlilo kuMPHEFUMLO wakho ofuna ukukhutshwa.
Loo nto ubusoloko uphupha ngayo usengumntwana, elo phupha elithe laqala ukunyamalala ngokuthe ngcembe libangela ukuba libonakale lihlekisa ukuba umntu ofana no “wena” uya kukwazi ukwenza oko. Iselapha entliziyweni yalo mntwana ungaphakathi kuwe. Uyayazi laa mfo umbonayo ngamanye amaxesha kwaye ucinge nje kuwe "umntu ohlwempuzekileyo, ubomi bakhe kufuneka bunyanye." Kulungile uyazi yintoni?
Mhlawumbi ucinga into efanayo ngawe. 🙂 Ke hamba uyokwenza uxolo nomntwana wangaphakathi olungileyo ngoku kwaye ulahlekelwe yi-ego, yiba ngubani ozalelwe ukuba ungabi lo bubi.
UAlexander omkhulu woyisa ihlabathi lonke elaziwayo, kwaye nantso ke…. Kwindlu yakho…. Wedwa…. Ukubhuqa….
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Ndiyathemba oku kuyanceda. Ozithobayo Aawwadadwadada
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