Kudala ndibukele i-porn ukusukela ndikwishumi elivisayo, malunga ne-14-15 yeminyaka ubudala kodwa andikwazi kuxela ngokuqinisekileyo. Ngelo xesha kwakukho iimagazini kunye neekhasethi zeVHS.
Emva koko iikhompyuter zajikeleza kwaye ke eyam yobuqu. Zange kube kudala safumana uqhagamshelo lwe-intanethi ekhaya kwaye njengoko unokucinga, ndiye ndafumanisa iphonografi kwiwebhu.
Ngeli xesha, ndandizama ukudibana nentombazana kwaye ndibe nobudlelwane, obunzulu okanye hayi, akukhathaliseki. Andikakwazi ukuyenza loo nto… Isizathu? I-PORN. Nangona kunjalo, bendinamathuba amaninzi amaninzi okwenza oko. Ngamanye amaxesha ndandisiya kumantombazana, abanye babo baphendule kwaye abanye babo bengavumi, ngokusengqiqweni. Maxa wambi yayindim osondelayo, yaye abaninzi kubo babetshisa kakhulu. Bendicinga… angatsaleleka njani kum lo mfazi?
Ngapha koko, phakathi kwemiba yoxinzelelo kunye nokuzithemba endijongene nayo, iphonografi yayiyeyona inzima kakhulu. Andinakutsho ukuba ndandilikhoboka le-porn. Yayifana nendlela efanelekileyo yokuphumla kunye nokukhulula uxinzelelo… Ngenxa yethamsanqa lam lokuzithemba, andizange ndikwazi ukusondela kubasetyhini kwaye xa ndenzile, ndamosha. Ngalo lonke ixesha. Ngoko, ndahlala ndibukela i-porn.
Ndenze nangona ndabelana ngesondo amaxesha ambalwa, ukuba ndingayibiza 'isondo'. Ndiyifumene into endiqinisekileyo ukuba uninzi lwenu sele niyazi 'i-erectile dysfunction' ngalo lonke ixesha ndizama ukwabelana ngesondo. Ngoba? Kuba ingqondo yam yasetyenziswa ngenye indlela ... bendidinga iimuvi zamanyala ukuze ndivule. Ndacinga: 'Inokwenzeka njani? kukho lomama uhamba ze apha phambi kwam ufuna ulala nam.. ANDNDIKUFUMANE I ERECTION. KWENZEKANI?" Kodwa, ngokuqinisekileyo wayeyazi impendulo emazantsi ezantsi. Loo maxesha ambalwa ndabelana ngesondo, yayimfutshane kakhulu, imizuzu embalwa ngokwenene. Yandenza buhlungu kakhulu.
Ndandisazi ukuba kufuneka ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi kwaye ndizame ukudibana namantombazana, nokuba yinto yobusuku obunye okanye ubudlelwane. Bendibuthathaka kwaye kude kube ngoku bendingakwazi ukuyenza.
Ngeeholide zeKrisimesi bendidibana nosapho njengoko sisenza minyaka le ukubhiyozela. Omnye wabazala bam wayenengxaki efanayo. I-Porn yenza ukungasebenzi kakuhle kwe-Erectile. Sayithetha le nto xa sidibana waza wacela ukundinceda. Ndithandabuza ndathi Kulungile, lixesha lokutshintsha izinto. Wandicebisa ukuba ndiyeke ukubukela iphonografi. Yeka ukubanda. Nje kanjalo.
Ke, ngezi ntsuku ze-18 zokungabukeli i-porn kunye ne-nofap, ndalala ngesondo kunye nabasetyhini be-3. Ndikunye nowasetyhini wokuqala, bendinengxaki yokwakhiwa njengamaxesha angaphambili, kwaye xa ndiye ndaphuma, ndaphuma ngokukhawuleza.
Ngeyesibini, ndandine-erection, kodwa andizange ndikwazi ukukhupha, andizange ndikwazi ukwenza ...
KODWA, okwesithathu kwaba yimpumelelo eyi-100%. Ayisiyiyo kuphela into yokuba ndibe ne-erections enzima kakhulu, ndikwazi ukukhupha kabini kwiyure enye. Ndaphuma endlini yakhe ndiziva ndichulumancile. Ngaphandle kwakubanda kakhulu, ndandingeva nokuba kunjani. Ndaqala ukuhleka ngaphandle kwesizathu, ngenxa yolonwabo olucocekileyo .. Ndazi apho ukuba ixesha le-15 yeminyaka yesizungu kunye nenhlanhla yamava esondo sele iphelile. Ndandikwazi oku kuba ndandizibonakalise ukuba amalungu am asebenza kakuhle. Iingxaki ngokucacileyo zaziyi: 1. ingqondo yam yayisetyenziselwa ukubukela i-porn kunye ne-2. ukungabikho kokunxibelelana nabasetyhini (kungekhona ngokwesondo).
Ke, kube ziintsuku ezili-18 ngaphandle kokuphulula amalungu esini okanye iphonografi. Ndingatsho ukuba andikaziva ndinqwenela ukubukela i-porn kwaye ndiyakholelwa ukuba ndingahlala kude naloo nto ixesha elide. Ngubani owaziyo .. mhlawumbi ngonaphakade. Ndizimisele ukuyenza le nto kwaye andiyi kuyeka, okanye ndiwele kumgibe omnye kwakhona.
Izimvo kunye nemibuzo yakho zonke zamkelekile.
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