Wowu, ndiyakholelwa ukuba ndinyangekile… .Andiyikholelwa le nto iyasebenza. Ndoyisiwe kukunyaniseka. Yazi ukuba umbono wam wokuphiliswa ungokwezobuchwephesha, kuba khange ndibenalo ithuba lokuba nentombazana okwangoku. Ndibhala kuba ndigqibe kwelokuba namhlanje ndithwele isitshingitshane esoyikekayo, kwaye ukusuka apha ukuya phambili kulungile. Ndandinemvakalelo kwiveki ephelileyo okanye ndaphiliswa, kodwa kwakufuneka ndiqiniseke.
Ngokwenyani, bendifikile kolu luvo ngexesha leeveki ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo. Ndaqala ndabona ukuba ipenisi yam yayijikeleze ngamaxesha onke. Ngapha koko, ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Ndiqinisekile ngale nto. Xa ndandingena p and m, yayihlala ibonakala incinci kwaye ingenabomi.
Imithi yasekuseni ngoku intle kakhulu iyinto yemihla ngemihla, kwaye izinto ziye zacotha kodwa zaqhubela phambili zada zafikelela kwinqanaba apho ipenisi yam ihlala ikhona ngalo lonke ixesha. Ndiyakwazi ukucinga nje ngentombazana endiyithandayo ngendlela esondeleyo, kwaye ngexesha elifutshane ndiqala ukuziva ndiba nzima - kakhulu. Ndingathi ndingafezekisa i-90% yokwakhiwa (ubuncinci) ngale ndlela… kwaye kungenxa yeengcinga zodwa w / akukho ntombazana naphi na ekufuphi! Andikwazi ukucinga ukuba kuya kuba yinto yokuqala ukuba umntu omtsha alale ngesondo.
Ndithi "omtsha" kum kuba yindlela endiziva ngayo kuyo yonke into egama. Entsha ngokwasemzimbeni / engqondweni / ngokomoya- kunye nezinye izinto ezintle. Ke, nangona ndingakhange ndivavanye into "entsha" kunye nentombazana, andinakuqiniseka ukuba konke kuya kuhamba kakuhle. Ndingabheja nantoni na kuyo.
Ndingathanda ukubonisa ukuba igama elithi "osenyongweni" kufuneka lahlulwe kwigama elithi "isini." Kule mihla, xa ndicinga ngentombazana, iingcinga zam aziqali ngaye egobe phezu kwesingqengqelo sam ekhwaza igama lam (eyona nto ibiyinto eyayisenzeka kwiminyaka eyadlulayo). Endaweni yoko, iqala ngengxoxo kunye nokumanga- nzulu. Ndiyakholelwa ukuba oku sisitshixo. Kum, ayinakuba malunga "nokwabelana ngesondo" kwakhona. Kungenxa yoko le nto ingxaki iqale. Ngaba ukhathalele ngenzondelelo yentombazana esandula ukubethwa yimigulukudu ngabafana abangama-50? Ukuba uyinto enjengam- mhlawumbi akunjalo. Yena, kunye nabaninzi abanjengaye, babezinto nje okanye izithuthi ezisizisela ulonwabo lwexesha elifutshane- ngathi kukuqhekeka endinokukucinga. Kwaye njengokuqhekeka, ayisiyampilo kuye nabani na okhetha ukungxamela ngayo-kwaye ugwetyelwe nzima ukukhaba.
Sukuyenza impazamo - oku bekungekho lula. Ngapha koko, kunzima kakhulu. Ndiye ndalwa neziyobisi ezimbalwa ebomini bam-ukusuka kwi-nicotine ukuya etywaleni nakwezinye izinto. Ndizoyisile zonke, kwaye Le yeyona nto inzima. Ukukhuthaza, iingcinga eziphambeneyo, ukungalali, iimvakalelo zokuphelelwa lithemba, ukuphelelwa lithemba, ukungaxabiseki, kunye nezinye izinto ezingalunganga zonke ziyinxalenye yento endidlule kuyo nale p and m into. Yinto embi embi endingasokuze ndijongane nayo kwakhona ebomini bam-nanini na.
Uhambo lwam lwaqala (ewe, kubonakala ngathi luhambo) xa ndifunda malunga nokunyanga okucingelwayo kule ndawo nakwenye indawo okanye ezimbini, ndaye ndagqiba kwelokuba ndiye kuyo. Ndithathe isigqibo sokuba ndingazami, kodwa endaweni yoko YENZA. Ndenze isigqibo sam-kwaye eyona ndawo yayinzima kakhulu.
Oku kuchacha kufuna intando ngaphandle kwento endicinga ukuba ndinokwazi… kwaye ndinomyolelo oqinileyo - ndizinika ityala ngenxa yoko. Ndihlala ndikwazi ukuyilungisa inqanawa kwaye ndihlale ikhosi, kwaye ndiphume ndiphume kwezinye iindawo ezimnyama ebomini bam. Kodwa, kwakhona… ngale nto, ndicinga ukuba lonke ithemba lilahlekile. Ngokwenene. Ngokwenene. Ngokwenene. Ndifundile kakhulu kwaye ndikrelekrele, kwaye awuyi kufumana umntu obathandayo kunam. Ke lo mkhwa undixakekise ngeendlela endingakwaziyo ukuzichaza. Le nto yithuba elilinganayo lokutshabalalisa ngokuqinisekileyo. Ukuziphatha kwam kwakungekho ngqiqweni kum, kwaye oko kwandenza ndaphelelwa yingqondo yokuba ndingubani. Imbi nje. (Ndineminyaka engama-34 ubudala ngendlela, kwaye oku kutshabalalise ubomi bam ngokwesondo kunye nobudlelwane kule minyaka mihlanu idlulileyo ubuncinci.)
Ke, ngesishwankathelo- bendingu:
I-Hardcore ikhoboka (i-pun eyenzelwe) malunga neminyaka eyi-15 okanye nangaphezulu ukuba ndicinga ngayo. Kwaye ndithetha oku. Xa ndenza into, ndiyenza ngokuchanekileyo- nokuba ikhoboka! Andikwazi ukubala ukuba zingaphi iintsuku / iinyanga apho i-p kunye ne-m kuphela kwento endiyenzileyo. Yiyo yonke into endandiyicinga. Amantombazana ayengathethi nto kum.
Ndiqinisekisa nokuba ngubani ofunda le nto yokuba iingxaki zibaluleke kakhulu kum ukuba ngubani onobugwenxa obubi kakhulu (ongaziqhenyiyo-nje into). Ngokusekwe kumakhulu ezithuba endizifundileyo, ndingathi ingxaki yam yayiyeyona i-5% embi kakhulu. Andifane ndifunde ngomntu ombi njengam, kwaye leyo yayiyinxalenye yesizathu sokuba yonke le nto yayikhathaza intliziyo kunye nosizi olunyulu kum. Akukho themba.
Nantsi into endiyenzileyo ukuze ndibengcono: Hayi p, hayi m, akukho fantasies. Nditshintshe amajelo eTV rhoqo xa kufika umntu oshushu. Ndigqibele ngokugcina nje ixesha elininzi ngenxa yale nto! Ndigcine ukholo kum. Qhuba. Akukho sizathu. Kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo inkxaso evela kuni nonke apha.
Ke… uphilisiwe: malunga neentsuku ezingama-80 ukuza kuthi ga ngoku.
Ndiyakuvuyela ukuphendula nayiphi na imibuzo anokuthi umntu abenayo. Ndiyazi ukuba xa ndiza kuphambana nale nto, bendifuna iimpendulo zekhonkrithi. Nangona kukho izithuba ezingenasiphelo koku, bambalwa kakhulu abaphuma baphume bathi ngokuqinisekileyo oku kuyasebenza kunye nendlela yokwenza ngayo. Mhlawumbi itshintshiwe ngoku, kodwa ibinjalo kum. Ke, buza kude ukuba ungathanda, kwaye ndiza kuphendula ngokusemandleni am.
Ukuhlaziywa kwe-90 + -mini
Ke ibizezintsuku ezingama-90 ezizeleyo kwaye ezinye, ke bendifuna nje ukuzihlaziya ukusukela kwiinyanga ezi-3 kubonakala ngathi lixesha eliqhelekileyo lokuqalisa kwakhona, ukusuka kwinto endiyibonileyo. Kwaye, kulungile… yonke into igqibelele. Ndiyathetha ngokunyanisekileyo ukuba andizange ndibe ne-libido enamandla okanye enempilo. Ndinovelwano ngakumbi kunangaphambili, kwaye njengomnye umntu obhalileyo kwi-YBOP, ngamanye amaxesha kuye kufuneke ndigxile ekungafumani nzima. Ngokukrakra. Yonke le nto ayikholeleki.
Ngokwenene ndaqala MO zonke iintsuku ezimbalwa kwaye zilungile kum. Zonke zivakalelwa ngokwendalo kwaye zisempilweni. Kwaye andiyenzi nje ngenxa yesihogo sayo okanye ngenxa yokuba ndikruqukile. Kuphela kuxa isikhuthazo sindibetha kwaye xa singekhe siphazamisane nenye inxalenye yobomi bam. Kum, ukuyeka kangangexesha elithile kwakungeyomfuneko ukuqala kwakhona, kodwa nokuzifundisa ukuziqeqesha kule ndawo.
Kuyahlekisa ukuba sithini na ngaphezulu koku. Siyakhathazeka, sikhululeke ngaphandle, siziva ngathi s ** t epheleleyo, kwaye sifunda kwaye sibhala ivolumu malunga nokuba le ngxaki ibaluleke kangakanani kubomi bethu. Nangona kunjalo, isisombululo silula. Ngokwenene asinakho ukubuza enye into. Ewe, iinyanga ezi-3 lixesha elide ukuba ulichitha ngaphakathi kwentloko yakho unengxaki yokuphambana. Ke fumana into oyithandayo. Fumana into yokugcina ingqondo yakho ihleli ngenye indlela. Kuya kufuneka uthathe olo khetho kude nengqondo yakho.
Ke… yileya. Iinyani ezimbalwa:
- Le 110% ikulungiselelwe*
- Iya kuba yenye yezona zinto zinzima okhe wazenza
- Ukuba ukhe ufune ubomi obuqhelekileyo besini kwakhona, awunakukhetha.
SONKE SIKHULULEKILEYO SOKUFAKA. SO FIX IT.
*Ndiyathetha le b / c Ndivakalelwa malunga ne-10% engcono kunokuba ndibe neyona nto!
Okokwabelana ngesondo okokuqala ngonyango (usuku lwe-90 +)
Ndalala ngesinye isihlandlo okokuqala kuba ndandithembele ngokwaneleyo ukuba ndiziphilise. Kwaye ngaphandle kokuzama ukumangalisa okanye ukuhombisa nantoni na, ndingatsho ngokunyanisekileyo ukuba zezona zinto zilungileyo endinokuzikhumbula. Ndiqinisekile ukuba oku bekukho ngenxa yezizathu ezimbalwa, eyona nto icace gca kukuba andisenalo naluphi na uhlobo lwe-ED emva kweminyaka emininzi kangaka yenkunkuma. Kwakhona, into yokuba andizange ndilale ngesondo ixesha elide mhlawumbi ndidlala kule nto.
Ke ngoku ekubeni zonke iimvavanyo eziyimfuneko zenziwe, ndiyazi ukuba ndinyangeke kwaphela-kwaye yayikukuyeka i-P, M, kunye nezinye iingcinga. Yiyo leyo (kunye nokuzikhathalela ngokwam ngokwasemzimbeni). Nantsi enye into. Kwixesha elidlulileyo, ndandisoloko ndicinga ukuba ndifumana i-ED kuba ndandingakhange ndithandwe kwintombazana (isizathu esilungileyo). Ekugqibeleni, ndiye ndaqonda ukuba oku akunjalo, kwaye le ntombazana bendisandula ukuba nayo ibubungqina obu. Ngoku, ndiqinisekile ukuba le ntombazana intle kakhulu kwabanye abantu, kwaye kufanelekile. Nangona kunjalo, wayengenguye uhlobo lwam ngokokutsala ngokwasemzimbeni ukuya-kwaphela. Kodwa inyani yokuba andikhange nditsaleleke kuye, nangayiphi na indlela, ayibalulekanga KUYO YONKE - hayi enye! Yonke le nto yayimangalisa kakhulu kwaye indikhuthaza.
Andivumelani ngentliziyo iphela nabo bacinga ukuba kukho unxibelelwano phakathi kweganja kunye ne-ED. Kumava am, kwaye ndicinga ukuba uGary ukhankanye into enye, oku kukuqagela nje kuba uninzi loogqirha alwazi u-P no-M unobangela we-ED, kwaye i-ganja lolona qikelelo lwabo lubalaseleyo. Ndakhe ndatya iicookie ezimbalwa ngaphambi kokudibana. Ndandiphakamile ngokunyanisekileyo njengekayiti, kwaye konke okwenzayo kwakundenza ndihlasele ngakumbi. Undithumelele umyalezo emva koko esithi uyakuba phantsi ukuphinda obo busuku ngentliziyo! (Khange ndiyive loo nto okwexeshana.)
Ukuba ndikhumbula ngokuchanekileyo, sasinokwabelana ngesondo ngokuqinisekileyo malunga namaxesha ama-3. Kwaye andidingi “kukhuthazwa” kuye kwaphela kwesi-2 sokuqala. Ke hlala uqinisekile-ndandingaphaya koxinzelelo kungekudala.
Ewe, bendisebenzisa ikhondom ngalo lonke ixesha. Ndineengxaki ngeekhondom ngaphambili. Ndandihlala ndicinga ukuba luxinzelelo lwentsebenzo- kodwa njengayo yonke enye into endandiyicinga ngale nto, yayingeyonyani kwaphela!
[Iiveki ze-5 kamva] Izinto zihamba kakuhle kakhulu. Nangona kubonakala ngathi ndibethe uhlobo olomileyo lobulumko benkosikazi, ke loo nto iyakhathaza- ukuba ulunge ngakumbi kunangaphambili ebomini bam kwaye akukho ndawo ndiyisebenzisayo! Kodwa, oku kuyakudlula ngokuqinisekileyo (ndiyathemba!). Kwaye akukho nto ibaxwayo malunga nokulunga ngakumbi kunangaphambili. Ndibhetele kakhulu kunesithuba sam sokugqibela apho ndikhankanye khona ukuba konke kwakulungile, ke loo nto iyamangalisa!
[Iinyanga ze-7 +] Ukujonga nje apha kwaye ufuna ukuthumela uhlaziyo olufutshane. Ndibe nethamsanqa kwaye ndafumana intombazana entle, kwaye izinto zifezekile ngobomi bam ngokwesini: akukho ED, kwaye akukho micimbi yokuzithemba kuyo nayiphi na into. Njengoko besenditshilo ngaphambili, izinto azikaze zilunge kum, nokuba bendimncinci kakhulu.
Kwakhona, ukuyeka ukuhlaziya i-masturbation kuye kwahlala kunye nam, kwaye yindlela nje endisebenza ngayo ngoku. Yenza izinto zibengcono kakhulu nentombazana yam. Ungasathethi ke ngeemoods ezinkulu, amandla asendle, kunye nembono elungileyo ngobomi - into eyathi yaphela kwiminyaka embalwa edlulileyo.
Intle kakhulu loo nto. Iphupha elibi ngaphezulu. Ndinqwenela nonke ithamsanqa- nangona ningayidingi. Yima nje kunye ne-porn kunye ne-masturbation kwaye ubomi bulungile!
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