Ndingahle ndiqale kwasekuqaleni. Oko ndifumene i-orgasm ndineminyaka eyi-11 ubudala bendingumntu ophulula amaphambili ukusukela ngelo xesha. Ndandichitha iiyure ngexesha kwigumbi lam ndikhupha iibhola zam kude kube kungekho nto kuzo ngaphandle komoya. Ndichithe ulutsha kunye nolutsha oludala ngokufafa okugqithisileyo. Ndineminyaka engama-45 kwaye ndibuyile ngelo xesha, iphonografi yayingafumaneki lula njengoko injalo namhlanje. Ubukhulu becala bendisebenzisa intelekelelo yam kwaye ngamanye amaxesha kuye kufuneke sibhenele kwii-Archie comics (ukho umntu omkhumbulayo uVeronica ebhikini?),
icandelo lempahla yangaphantsi kwikhathalogu yeSears, amajelo abantu abadala xa abazali bam babephumile ngobusuku bangoMgqibelo. (Babehlala be-softcore kwaye ngokuqhelekileyo kufuneka ulinde malunga nemizuzu engama-20 kwi-movie kwindawo yokuqala yesondo) kwaye ukuba unethamsanqa ngokwaneleyo ukuba ufumane iphephancwadi ngokuqhelekileyo udla ngokulibetha kumfanekiso ofanayo ngokuphindaphindiweyo.
Ngeli xesha ndandisazi ukuba le nto ndiyenzayo iyonakalisa ukukhula kwam ngokwasengqondweni nasentlalweni kodwa ndandizingca kwaye ndingakwazi ukuyeka. Ndandisoloko ndisiva kabuhlungu ekugqibeleni. Kwakukho amaxesha apho ndandikwazi ukuyeka ukuphulula amaphambili kangangenyanga okanye ezimbini ngezihlandlo ezinqabileyo kakhulu. Ebudeni baloo maxesha kwakukho ulwando oluphawulekayo lokuzithemba, isakhono semidlalo, nokukwazi kwam ukufumana amantombazana. Oko ndidlala isiginci ndaziva ndiqhagamshelwe ngakumbi kumculo endiwudlalayo. Andizange ndikwazi ukuqhubeka nolo luhlu ixesha elide.
Eli lelona xesha lide endakha ndahamba ngaphandle kwe-PMO. Ukuba kukho nabani na obuza ukuba i-MO ngaphandle kwe-P ilungile, ndingatsho ukuba inesiphumo esifanayo sokusebenzisa iphonografi kuba uzicime ngamandla obomi abalulekileyo. M ngaphandle kwe-O kukulima ngokwesondo (abanye benu nibiza ngokuba yi-edging) kunokuba neenzuzo zayo ukuba ungazigcina kwi-Orgasm kwaye oko kuthatha ukuziqhelanisa nokuziphatha.
Kwakungekho nofap, okanye i-Intanethi ngalo mbandela. Awunakuze uxelele abantu ukuba uphulula amaphambili kwaye ukuba ubhaqwe ngomnye wabahlobo bakho, awusoze uve isiphelo sayo (nangona wonke umntu ekwenzile oko). Akwenzekanga kum kodwa ndiyibonile isenzeka nakwabanye. Andizange ndibe nanxaxheba ekuhanahaniseni abanye ngenxa yento endandiyenza ngokwam.
Ndifunde ngeTantra kungekudala kwaye ndaye ndagqiba ekubeni ndibone ukuba ukubamba i-orgasm ixesha elide kunokuphucula umgangatho wobomi kunye nokuba sempilweni kwaye ngokuqinisekileyo ndiya kuthi ewe!
Ngoku nditshatile kwaye ndineminyaka eyi-10. Ubomi bethu bokwabelana ngesondo babulungile ekuqaleni kodwa behla ngokuthe ngcembe ngenxa yokulutha kwam iphonografi. Umfazi wam ohluphekayo wabandezeleka ngalo lonke elo xesha kwaye ndiyaxolisa ukuba andizange ndimnike inkanuko kunye nothando ebelufanele. Ngandlela-thile wahlengahlengisa njengoko sakwazi ukusebenza kwezinye iinkalo zomtshato wethu owenze ukuba uphumelele kodwa i-PMO ngelo xesha indenze ndangaphantsi kwendoda kwaye ngoko ke ndingaphantsi komyeni.
Kwi-TLDR nantsi inkcazo-
iintsuku 30 - ngaloo nyanga yokuqala, ndafumana i-libido yam kunye nomnqweno wam wesilwanyana emva komfazi wam emva kweeveki ze-2 kuphela. Wothukile engazi ukuba makathini na. Wayefuna ukwazi ukuba kuqhubeka ntoni kwaye kwakunzima ukuba ndimcacisele ukuba aqonde. (Akukho puns zenzelwe BTW). Ndaqala ukumbonisa uthando oluninzi kwaye ndihambelane neemfuno zakhe. Iingcamango zesini zaziza konakala. Bendingazukulwa nabo kodwa bendiya kuqinisekisa ukuba andiphindeleli kwipatheni zam zakudala. Ndilwe neminqweno ngokubaleka kakhulu nokuzilolonga. Ilizwi lam liye lehla kwaye umzimba wam waqalisa ukuba toned ngakumbi. Loo ngcinga, uvalo, nokungazithembi kwaphela. Nangona ndihlala ndithembekile kumfazi wam ndisakonwabela ukufumana inkangeleko efudumeleyo, uncumo kunye neencoko kunye nabasetyhini kuba andisahambi hamba kunye naloo "grp creepy" vibe oyifumana kumlutha we-porn. Bendilalana kwaye ndibambe i-orgasm leyo yimvakalelo eyolisayo.
iintsuku 60 – Wow, ingcuka enomsindo ikwibhulukhwe yam. Ihlala ineempondo kwaye ayikwazi ukuyeka ukucinga ngesondo. Phantse kwindawo apho ingalawulekiyo. Emva kweentsuku ezingama-65 zokwabelana ngesondo ngaphandle kwe-orgasm umfazi wam wandinika ukukhululwa okanye ezimbini. Kudala ndiqhuba nge-hard mode ukusukela ngoko. Emva kweentsuku ze-70, ndaqala ukuzinza kwaye ndakwazi ukugxila kwakhona kwezinye izinto ezinomdla ngaphandle kwesondo. Ubomi bethu bokwabelana ngesondo busakhaba iimpundu ngoku.
iintsuku 80 -Izaqhwithi zombane ezazidubula ezinqeni zam ngoku zazibetha iimvakalelo zam. Ndandihamba kwiimeko eziguquguqukayo, kwaye amaxesha amaninzi ndandiziva ndidakumbile kwaye ndililolo. Ndiyaqonda ngoku ukuba zikhula iintlungu kwaye ziyimfuneko kwinqanaba elilandelayo lendaleko. Umlutha wam kwi-PMO yayilinge lokugcina abo baziva bephantsi ngokuphepha iintlungu. Yiyo loo nto ndixelela abantu ukuba xa ujongene nezo mvakalelo, vele uhlale apho. Kuyimfuneko kwaye KUFUNEKA uzivumele ukuba udlule kuyo kwaye ubakhuphe. Xa ndimamela okanye ndidlala umculo, ndiye ndiqhagamshelene ngokwasemphefumlweni kuwo kwaye ndiwuve ubuyela umva kubo bonke ubomi bam.
90 - Ndivuke ndiziva ndikhululekile namhlanje. Ngamanye amaxesha ndinezibongozo kodwa ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ndikwazile ukuzikhupha. Ndithanda yonke into malunga nanamhlanje. Ilanga, umoya opholileyo, umculo ebendiwudlala ekhitshini lam ngale ntsasa ngelixa ndilungiselela unyana wam ukuya esikolweni. Ubomi bumnandi ngoku. Andifuni kubuyela emva ndiziva ngalendlela bendiziva ngayo. Ndiyanibulela nonke ngokuba lapha nokwenza le sub ngale ndlela iyiyo. Okona kulungileyo kuni nonke.
LINK - Uhambo lwam ukuza kuthi ga ngoku ngeentsuku ezingama-90
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