Ibali lam emva kweentsuku ezingama-30
Andizange ndicinge okanye ndicinge ukuba ndiza kuthumela oku kwiforum yabantu abanomlutha we-porn. Nangona kunjalo emva kokufumana i-ybop kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo kunye nokugqiba ngempumelelo usuku lwe-30 akukho PMO ndingatsho ekugqibeleni ukuba ndifumene isisombululo kwingxaki yam. Yonke yaqala malunga ne-4 kwiminyaka eyadlulayo emva kokuba ndiphelise ubudlelwane obunobuthi kwaye ndaqalisa ukusetyenziswa kwe-porn kunye ne-MO. Ngenye imini yaqala ukwenzeka, ii-erections zam zazibuthathaka kwaye kungakhathaliseki ukuba ndinyuke kangakanani na ukusebenzisa i-porn ndingakwazanga ukuphumeza nantoni na ngaphezu kwe-80%. Kwandishiya ndidakumbile njenge-fuck kwaye ndacinga ukuba sisigaba nje kwaye ndibeka ityala kuyo nantoni na ngokwenene.
Kwakhona kule minyaka mi-4 idlulileyo ndiye ndabandezeleka ngenxa yokuphelelwa lithemba/ukudakumba, nto leyo enokuthi xa abantu bengayazi imvakalelo yokuhlala ephupheni/engeyonyani/enzima yenkungu yengqondo. Kodwa emva kweeveki ezimbini zokuqala zokungabikho kwe-PMO ndaziva ngathi inxenye enkulu yesi sigqubuthelo esingeyonyani yaphakanyiswa kwaye ndaziva ndihambelana nam kunye nendawo endihlala kuyo.
Ndiza kungena kunyaka wam wesi-3 wekholeji kwaye ndizamile ukwabelana ngesondo kunye nabasetyhini bokwenyani ngaphezulu kwamaxesha angama-20 kunye ne-2 okanye i-3 kuphela ephumeleleyo. Amaxesha amaninzi ndandityhola utywala okanye imithambo-luvo. Kodwa emva kolu qalelo lweentsuku ezingama-30 ndingatsho ngentliziyo epheleleyo ukuba yayibubuxoki obupheleleyo endandizixelele. Ekugqibeleni ndiye kuzivavanya nge-MO namhlanje ndisebenzisa ukukhanya kwenyama kwaye bendineyona ndawo inzima yokuqina kunye neyona orgasm iqatha endikhe ndanayo ukusukela oko ndafikisa, Azange ndihlale ngaphezulu kwe-15 imivumbo kodwa kulindelekile.
Esi siphumo siyakhuthaza kakhulu, ndiya kuqhubeka ndivimba ngokupheleleyo i-Porn ebomini bam ixesha elide kangangoko ndinako kwaye ndiceba ukuzama ukuya enye inyanga ngaphandle kwe-MO. Iya kugcina oku kuhlaziywa kuye nabani na okhathalayo.
Kwakhona ndiziva ngathi le minyaka mi-4 idlulileyo yobomi bam yachithwa ngokupheleleyo ngokubhekiselele kubudlelwane kuba i-PMO indishiyile nditsaleleke ngokufanelekileyo kubasetyhini abangenalo unxibelelwano lokwenyani ngokweemvakalelo. Iliso lihle lindivulile ngoku ukuba abasetyhini bebesesinye nje isixhobo esikwibhokisi kum ngaphambi kokuqalisa kwakhona. Ndicinga ukuba lo mbono utshintsha kakhulu ngoku, enkosi uthixo
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