Ndimtsha kakhulu kule forum; Ndive okuninzi ngayo kumhlobo wam olungileyo uFuGu, kodwa andikakhangeli kakhulu. Sisizathu sokuba ndibe lapha kule forum, kunye nesizathu sokuba ndibe ngumsebenzisi wephonografi.
Malunga nonyaka onesiqingatha odlulileyo, ndiyekile iphonografi. UFuGu wayenemiba enzulu kunye ne-PIED, kwaye xa wandixelela ngezicwangciso zakhe zokuyeka, ndagqiba ekubeni ndiyenze naye, ukuze ndimxhase. Kudala ndiyiqwalasela, kodwa andizange ndizive ngathi NDIYAFUNA, ngoko ndaqhubeka ndiyibeka. Ngaphambi kolwazi endilufumene kuye, andizange ndibone naluphi na uphando malunga nendlela enokuchaphazela ngayo ingqondo yakho.
Ndimele nditsho, andiqinisekanga ukuba ndilindele ntoni ukungena. Andiqondi ukuba ndakhe ndasebenzisa i-porn njengeFuGu, kwaye andizange ndibe nayo nayiphi na imbonakalo yomzimba, ngoko ndandingaqinisekanga ukuba ndiza kuqaphela. nantoni na (nangona ndandisakuvuyela ukuyeka). Oko kuthethwayo, bendinexhala elininzi kunye nemicimbi yokuzithemba ixesha elide njengoko ndikhumbula, ngakumbi malunga nabasetyhini.
Ndaqala ukujonga i-porn kwisikolo samabanga aphakamileyo. Andikhumbuli kakuhle ukuba nini, kodwa mhlawumbi ibanga lesithoba okanye leshumi. Ndandinekhompyutha egumbini lam, kwaye ndikhumbula ixesha apho ndandiza ekhaya yonke imihla ndize ndiphulule amaphambili kwiphonografi. Siya kuba nee-sleepovers apho siza kubukela ngokudibeneyo i-porn kunye ne-masturbate kuyo. Ivakala ingaqhelekanga xa uyithetha ngokuvakalayo...
Njengoko ndandikhula, lo mkhwa waphela kancinci, kwaye xa ndifika kunyaka wesibini kwikholeji, umkhwa wam wathatha imilo "Iveki enye, iiveki ezimbini-ezintathu". Ndandizama ukuyenza i-KINDA encinci, ngoko ke ndiza kuyiphepha iiveki ezimbalwa, kodwa ke ndiza kuba buhlungu kakhulu, okanye ndigxininisekile, okanye ndixakeke, kwaye ndiza kuphulula i-porn. Oko kuya kubangela iveki yokuyenza yonke imihla, mhlawumbi kabini ngemini. Njengoko benditshilo, ngalo lonke eli xesha, bendinemiba emininzi yokuxhalaba, ukuzithandabuza, kunye neemoods ze-bi-polar - amaxesha amafutshane okonwaba ngokwenene, alandelwa ziiveki kunye neeveki zokudakumba.
Ukuqala konyaka wethu weJunior kwikholeji, sobabini sayeka iphonografi. Andizange ndibe mbi njengokuba ndine-PIED okanye i-PE, ngoko ke inkqubo yam yokubuyisela ayizange ibandakanyeke njengoko ihlala njalo. Andizange ndiphinde ndijamelane nexhala kunye nokudakumba okubonakala kuhlala kuza nokuyeka iphonografi. NDIYE, nangona kunjalo, ndabona umahluko, kwaye yeza ngokukhawuleza. Ndicinga ukuba eyona ndlela yokuyithetha kukuba ndizive ndizinzile. Ndaziva ndizithembile ngakumbi, kwaye ndaziva ngathi ndinamandla okucinga ngokucacileyo.
Enye yezona zinto zandiphucula kakhulu kukukwazi kwam ukuthetha namabhinqa. Andizange ndabelana ngesondo, andizange ndibe nentombi, ndihambe nje ezimbalwa zemihla kwaye ndaphuza intombazana okokuqala kuphela kunyaka ongaphambili. Yayingeyonto nje yasebusuku, kodwa ndandisiya ndiqiniseka ngakumbi, kwaye ndikwazi ngakumbi ukuba…ukuba ndim, ngaphandle kokuphantse ukuxhalaba endandidla ngokujamelana nako.
A big marker for me was about three months in. Ndaye ndaya kwitheko lomhla wokuzalwa umhlobo wayesenza, kwaye kwakukho le INCREDIBLY cute girl apho. Ngokuqhelekileyo oko bekuya kwanela ukundixaka, andithethi kakhulu, kwaye oko bekuya kuba sisiphelo sebali. Kodwa bendinayo le...isiqinisekiso. Ndaqonda ukuba ndingayifumana inombolo yakhe. Kwaye ekupheleni kobusuku, ndenza. Saya kumhla, kwaye ayizange ihambe naphi na emva koko, kodwa kunjalo ...
Umkhwa waqhubeka, (kunye namahla-ndinyuka amaninzi), kwaye kwiinyanga ezimbalwa emva koko, ndazifumana ndikubudlelwane bam bokuqala. Into endiyixhalabeleyo iminyaka andinakuze ndikwazi ukuyenza, kwaye yenzeke ngaphantsi konyaka emva kokuyeka iphonografi!
Ngelo xesha ndandingekayenzi i-organist kwiinyanga ezisixhenxe, ngoko ke xa sasiqala ukuba neentlobano zesini, nda…Uh… zange ndihlale xesha lide. Kodwa oko kwabangcono emva kwenyanga okanye ngaphezulu. Obo budlelwane baphela ehlotyeni, kwaye ndaziva ndingcono kakhulu kunehlobo langaphambili. Ndaqhubeka ndithandana, ndiziva ndizithembile ngalo lonke ixesha, kwaye kwiinyanga ezimbalwa ezidlulileyo, ndaqala olunye ubudlelwane nentombazana emangalisayo.
Iyahlakesi; Ndijonge ngasemva ngoku, ndiyiqhelile le ndlela intsha, izinzile kwaye ndizithembile kangangokuba kunzima ukukholelwa ukuba bendijongana nezinto ebendihlala ndihlangabezana nazo. Ewe, andikho ngcono nge-100%; Ndisajongene nexhala elininzi, kwaye ndisenemicimbi emininzi yokuzithemba. Kodwa iye yabangcono kakhulu. Umahluko uyamangalisa ngokwenene. Kwaye ndikholelwa ngokuqinisekileyo ukuba ukuyeka i-porn yeyona nto ibalulekileyo emva kwenguqu. Ndiye ndangumthetheleli othembekileyo wokuyeka, yaye xa ndisiva ngamadoda anemiba efana neyam, ndiye ndizame ukukhankanya indlela ekuye kwandinceda ngayo (ngobuchule, ngokuqinisekileyo. Isenokuba yinto enzima ukuyithetha)
Nangona kunjalo, ndiyathemba ukuba eli bali linokuba luhlobo oluthile lwenkuthazo kumntu ophaya. Wenza into elungileyo!
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